Recently, the state is not bad, today continued the last time I wrote, the last time I said that I bought a pen I liked when I was a child, and the happy mood was followed by a sudden sadness, that night, I cried for three and a half hours, and the next day, I sent a message to my boyfriend, and only got a sentence 666.
After that day, my emotions fell into an uncontrolled state, and I thought that if I reduced my emotional ups and downs, it would improve, but the reality was that this was not the case, and the reality was that neither happiness nor joy was under my control.
For the next period of time, I lived in a mess, bought a knife to cut fruit, didn't dare to use it often, and thought about how to arrange things after my death. Of course, it's not that I haven't told my parents about this, my parents' thoughts are the same as many parents, saying that I think too much, how can there be so many emotional problems, and a normal person can probably see the problem when he goes to the hospital.
The time of the relaxation was in early August, when my boyfriend suddenly mentioned going to his place, and although it was only a very casual suggestion at the time, I stepped out of the neighborhood the next day after a night of thinking. That was my step out of the community after a month or two.
When I sat on the train to the high-speed train, I felt that the sky was blue and I was in a good mood, at least at that time. After coming to Changsha, I played for two days, and suddenly my boyfriend said that he and two other friends would make an appointment to go to Xiamen to see the sea. I was going to turn back the same way, but I decided to go to Xiamen with them.
Maybe it's a little strange in the eyes of some people.,I'm the kind of person who will go to many places if someone accompanies me.,If no one accompanies me.,I won't want to go to many places.,I don't want to do a lot of things.,And because of this.,There have been a lot of conflicts with my boyfriend.,As for these things.,I'll sort it out slowly.,And then slowly write it out.。