I flipped through the old diary, and the yellowed pages were the bits and pieces of me and my youth.
Oh my God, I forgot this diary still exists!I said to myself.
I started writing when I was in college, and now that I think about it, it's been more than ten years. At that time, I was full of infinite longing and expectation for everything. Hurry up!The movie is about to start!Urging outside the door.
It's coming, it's coming, wait for me!I hurriedly stuffed my journal into a drawer, locked the door and ran with me to the school gate.
That was the first time I watched a movie alone and alone. She wore a fiery red dress with her hair scattered over her shoulders. I remember that the sunset that day was also fiery red, dyeing her smile with a layer of gold.
Did you cut the ticket?I asked breathlessly.
It's cut, let's get in quickly!"Pulled me and ran into the cinema.
This is a romantic romance film about a young man and woman who overcome many obstacles and finally become married. When the atmosphere was ambiguous, I and I both blushed. At the moment when the hero confessed to the hostess, he gently leaned on my shoulder. Thank you for watching the movie with me. Whispered.
You're welcome, I'll watch it with you more in the future. My heart was pounding, and I was leaning on her shoulder.
After the movie, we walked side by side on the campus promenade. The sky is dark, and under the reflection of the street lamps, the side face looks particularly moving in the night. I took a deep breath and took her hand. I have something to tell you. ”
What's the matter?She turned her face to look at me with the familiar doubts in her eyes.
I've liked you, for a long time. I shuddered and spoke my long-buried voice.
Apparently startled by my confession, her eyes widened for a moment, then she smiled tenderly at me again. Me too.
She didn't finish speaking, but took the initiative to kiss her. I was stunned, and it took a long time before I reacted and kissed her back.
It was a turning point, and from here on, my relationship with me was no longer just friends. We would giggle and chat, get together to eat and watch movies, and secretly hold hands in a deserted corner of the campus, and my world would be extraordinarily gorgeous because of her presence.
Until one day, she suddenly told me that she was going to transfer schools.
What?Are you going to transfer schools?I looked at her in shock, "Where to go?"”
My parents told me to transfer to the UK to study. "They think that the elite schools in the UK can give me a better future." ”
I felt that the world was spinning, how could we, who had just been together, be separated like this.
So what do we do in the future?I asked with red eyes.
I don't want to go either!Choked up, "But my parents have already decided, and I really can't argue with them." You'll be back, right?Will come back to me, right?I asked, holding her hand.
Nodding, tears welled up in his eyes: "I will definitely come back, wait for me, wait for me!".”
I held her tightly in my arms, and the two hearts merged in grief.
And so, I went to England and waited alone. As the lonely days passed, I often turned out that diary, which was full of bits and pieces of togetherness. , how are you doing in the UK?Do you remember the movie we watched together?You said you would come back to me, but what day will it be?”
I'll flip through it over and over again, asking about the empty air over and over again.
Four years have passed, and there has still been no news. I waited and waited, but fate remained indifferent.
Just when I was about to despair, a ** hit my world. It's me,!A familiar voice came from there.
I was so excited that I almost cried out.
I'm sorry I haven't been in touch with you for so many years. I've graduated and I'll be back home next month. Shall I go to you then?The voice was a little uncertain.
Okay, you're back soon!"I was dancing with joy.
Hung up **, I can't wait to write in my diary:
My darling is finally coming back!We haven't seen each other in four years, and I have so much to say to her. When the time comes, I'm going to make up for every minute we missed, and I'll never let her out of my sight again.
However, the appearance of the show shattered my vision.
On the day I returned home, I arrived at the airport early and stood at the exit looking for her from afar.
Finally, I saw her walking towards me with her suitcase, still the same as I remembered, but she had grown taller and her temperament was more mature.
I waved excitedly.
When she saw me, she was stunned for a moment, and an embarrassed expression appeared on her face. I chuckled inwardly, vaguely feeling that something was not quite right.
At this moment, a tall and handsome boy suddenly appeared and hugged his shoulder. My eyes widened in disbelief at what I was seeing. , this is my boyfriend. "Look away, unnaturally said.
I felt my heart break in an instant. She clearly said that she would come back to me, why is there a third party in such a reunion?
Hello, thank you for taking care of you all these years, she often talks about you. "Take the initiative to reach out and say hello to me.
I stiffly shook his hand back, barely squeezing out a smile: "Hello." ”
Let's go eat first, it's been a long time since I've been back home, so we have to celebrate!Proposed.
I hesitated, looked at her expectant gaze, and nodded.
It wasn't until the three of them were seated that I realized how redundant I was. and you and me, the feelings between each other are extraordinary. And I was like an outsider, sitting awkwardly on the sidelines.
I met in England and he took good care of me. Explained.
Is it?You can see that you have a good relationship. I pretended to be light-hearted.
We're already engaged!I'm going to get married next year. He said with a smile, and was speechless for a while.
I smiled reluctantly, my heart twisting. Does she remember the promise I waited for her?Could it be that after four years of waiting, she was abandoned like this?
The three of them barely finished the meal. When we parted, they said to me, "We will still be friends in the future, and we will keep in touch often." ”
I watched her back in the distance, and tears finally welled up in my eyes. I opened my journal and wrote down the last sentence: Forgive me for not being able to bless your marriage. I still love you, but I'll go alone. Goodbye, my first love. ”
Since then, I have not been in touch, and I have locked the diary at the bottom of the box.
Although love is lost, life goes on. I worked hard, had a successful career, and made a lot of friends. It's just a wound in the heart, and it takes a long time to slowly repair.
It wasn't until a few years later that I met another girl. She was simple and kind, and she was very sad to me. I also gradually became ** by her and restarted love. Water under the bridge. I will always be with you. Hold my hand and say.
I nodded, finally having the courage to open the dusty journal and burn it to ashes.
I am no longer obsessed, because I know that life is still long, and the road ahead is still waiting for me to open up. I have to look forward to the next great tomorrow.
And the days together are plain but warm, we will cook together, watch movies, and gossip together. Her appearance made me realize again that love should be the feeling of the human heart.
In this way, we gradually entered the palace of marriage. At the wedding ceremony, I walked up to me in a white wedding dress, and I clenched her hand excitedly.
I do. We uttered all three words at the same time.
Life after marriage was even better than I imagined, we would walk in the park together and kiss in the moonlight. I would also take good care of me when I was sick and give me a massage when I was tired. I haven't experienced this feeling of being loved in years.
I thought maybe I could really start a new life.
Until one day, I received a call. I'm about to give birth and I'm not by my side. Can you come to the hospital with me?* The other end cried and pleaded.
I hesitated, we hadn't been in touch for years, but she thought of me at a critical moment.
Okay, I'll do it. "It's still the same familiar name, and I can't be cruel to her.
Thank you so much!I'm in the hospital now. ”
I hurried to the hospital, pushed open the door of the ward, and saw a bed with tears on my face. , I'm here, don't panic!I took her hand. I'm sorry I shouldn't have left you like that. Choked up.
Don't talk about it, concentrate on having children!I advised her.
After a hard work, she finally gave birth to a lovely baby girl.
The child has been born, you can rest assured. I smiled.
It's a daughter, I want to call her, is that okay?"Tiredly pleaded.
I was stunned and nodded. She remembers me, and that's enough.
At this time, I rushed to the hospital and left. , get in touch again, see you soon. "Wave goodbye to me.
I drove back home only to find a man sitting in the dark.
Where have you been?Why don't you pick me up?Asked with red eyes.
Then I remembered that I was in a hurry to see and forgot to tell me.
I'm sorry, it's my fault. I quickly sat down beside her and confessed everything to her.
Silence and sigh: "I understand that you have had a friendship, but the future is still important in our lives." ”
I hugged her lovingly: "I know, there will be no next time in the future." ”
Since then, I have not been in touch. She was like a passerby in my life, showing up and leaving. What really matters is the person I love so much.
I want to give all my heart to my family and no longer be tied up by the emotions of the past. Life is a long road, and I have chosen who I will go with him.
And the days together were plain but warm, and we experienced many unforgettable moments in life together.
Ten years have passed, we have entered middle age, but the relationship is still sweet.
Honey, it's our 10th wedding anniversary soon, want to go ** celebrate?One morning, he whispered in my ear.
I smiled and kissed her on the cheek: "Shall we go to Paris?".It is the most romantic city in the world. ”
Great, I want to go to Paris too!We can kiss under the tower!Said happily.
So, we started planning our trip to Paris enthusiastically. I booked my plane ticket and hotel, and I was busy preparing my luggage and guides.
My dear, I'm looking forward to a romantic getaway with you in Paris!Holding me and saying, "This will be the most memorable trip of our lives!"”
However, the day before my departure, I suddenly received a shocking news - she was terminally ill and she wanted to see me for the last time.
The phone in my hand fell to the ground with a "thud".
What's wrong?Asked worriedly.
I picked up my phone and explained the situation to her. There was silence for a while, and then he said firmly, "Go ahead, this is your last chance with her." ”
The next morning, I arrived at the hospital room. She lay thin on the bed, no longer recognizable to me. It's me. I held her cold hand.
.I'm sorry. Tried to keep his eyes open wide, trying to see my face.
I said with red eyes, "It's okay, don't worry, I'll take care of it." ”
He smiled and closed his eyes. She passed away softly, leaving behind a bleak room.
I gently wiped away my tears and got up to leave. Just like a part of my youth, her departure at this moment also means the end of that young love.
I'm about to start a new chapter in my life.
When I got home, he hugged me tenderly and made me cry out in pain. We hugged each other and had a sleepless night.
Early the next morning, we boarded our flight to Paris as scheduled.
A new journey begins, and everything will be fine. He took me by the hand and said.
I nodded and looked out the window at the blue sky. The good weather seems to be a good sign of a bright future.
During our time in Paris, we enjoyed the charm of the city to the fullest. We walked along the banks of the Seine, lingered at the Kunstmuseum and of course did not miss the romantic kiss under the Eiffel Tower.
It was the happiest trip of my life. I said.
Me too, dear. You are the most romantic Paris of my life. He replied with a smile.
Hand in hand, we will walk hand in hand through the twists and turns of life until the last moment of life.
The trip to Paris and my feelings were breathed with fresh blood.
After returning home, we began to plan the next step in our lives.
My dear, I think it's time for us to consider a little life to join our family. One day after dinner, he suddenly said.
I hugged her in surprise: "Are you talking about adopting a child?"”
Blushing and nodding: "I want to give warmth to a child who needs a home, which may make our lives more complete." ”
Great!I excitedly kissed her loudly on the face, "Let's go to the orphanage!"”
The next day, we went to a local orphanage. I was deeply touched by the childish face and innocent smile here.
Hi kids, would you like to go home with us?I crouched down and asked gently.
A little girl, about the age of a few years old, ran towards me, and before she could get close, she suddenly fell to the ground.
Hiss-" She burst into tears.
I picked her up and checked it, and she had a severe abrasion on her knee.
Don't cry, don't cry, my sister will put a band-aid on you. I comforted her softly.
Also came to help, and we took care of the little girl's wounds.
Sister, my name is Sisi, can I be my mother?The little girl asked us, sobbing.
I looked at each other and nodded.
In this way, Sisi became our daughter, and I finally became the most important role in my life - mother.
Raising a child is not easy, and Sisi was very introverted and sensitive when she first arrived.
Sisi, do you want to make a cake with your mother?”
Sisi, let's play with this new toy!”
I tried to get her to open up. Gradually, Sisi became more cheerful and would chat with us.
Mom, I'm the luckiest kid in the world!One day, Sisi suddenly said.
I picked her up and spun around in circles, and I had a lovely daughter in my life, and our family was more complete.
However, the good times didn't last long, and not long after Sisi went to elementary school, she suddenly had a problem with her body.
Sorry, the condition is at an advanced stage, we will do our best**. The doctor's words hit me hard.
Mom, you'll be fine, Sisi will always be with you!Sisi hugged and cried bitterly.
I clenched my hands, tears welling up in my eyes. We have just found the meaning of life, how can God be so ruthless?
It's okay, you and Sisi will be fine. Said to me weakly.
I shook my head, tears falling from my eyes.
We are about to face the biggest test in this life, but as long as we do not give up, we will definitely be able to overcome adversity and meet the next better tomorrow.
Looking at the getting weaker, Sisi and I were very worried.
Mom, you will definitely be **, we will always be by your side!Sisi said with his hand.
smiled slightly, his eyes were full of love: "Sisi, remember, no matter birth, old age, sickness or death, my mother will always love you." ”
Mom!Sisi threw herself into her arms and cried bitterly.
I also held back tears with red circles in my eyes and tried to make myself look like: "It's okay, it's going to get better, we have to trust the doctor!".”
In the following days, we accompanied the persistence**. Her situation has been good and bad, and we are also afraid. , I've worked hard for you these days. "Occasionally you say it to me.
You can concentrate on your illness, and I'll take care of the rest. I replied, holding her hand.
In order to take care of my family, I had to take a long leave to take care of He Sisi at home. At the same time, the pressure of medical bills also made me anxious.
Mom, I can stop going to school and help you at home. "Sisi saw my exhaustion and offered to drop out of school.
It's okay Sisi, you have to study hard, this is my mother's last wish. Said to his daughter.
I knew I couldn't let Sisi drop out of school no matter what. The next day, I secretly went to my boss behind their backs and quit my job. You've made a very great sacrifice, and the company will always welcome you back. "The boss said goodbye to me with red eyes.
I smiled helplessly, the family needed me.
After quitting my job, I took care of Hesi at home during the day and went out to do odd jobs at night to earn money. Our lives were unusually difficult, but I never gave up hope.
Late one night, I returned home exhausted, only to find my critically ill body half-lying on the ground.
Frightened, I picked her up and looked at her. I feel like I don't have time to wait for you to come home. Said to me weakly.
No, you'll be fine!I hugged her tightly and screamed.
Sisi also ran over, and the three of them hugged each other, tears drenching our cheeks. , it will be up to you to take care of Sisi in the future. I love you. In my arms, I gently closed my eyes and sank into eternal sleep.
I was so grief-stricken that I couldn't stop crying.
Sisi also cried all over her face, she was still young, how could she bear such a huge pain?
I tried to calm my emotions, wiped away Sisi's tears, and said to her, "Sisi, we will only have each other in the future." No matter how difficult it is ahead, I will protect you, take care of you, and let my mother rest in peace in the heavenly spirit. ”
Sisi nodded and buried her head deep in my arms.
For the long night, we snuggled up and fell asleep. When the dawn comes, we will meet new challenges.
Life is still difficult, but I remind myself to be strong and live with the love that has been left to me.
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