Actually, I really wanted to meet you, but I was afraid that I would be rejected by you, and I wouldn't even be able to do it with my classmates, or even play games together, so I didn't have the courage to do it at that time!But it's not you who took the initiative to find me after contacting you for so long, except for playing games and taking the initiative to find me, now you haven't taken the initiative to find me, it's better to let you go.
I've always wanted to see you, but I'm afraid of being rejected by you. I knew that if we were rejected, we wouldn't even be able to do it as classmates, let alone play games together. I was really scared at the time, so I never had the courage to pursue you. However, I have been in contact with you for so long, and you have never reached out to me. You only think of me when you have to play games. It made me feel very lost, as if I had been playing the role of a spare tire all along.
I know I shouldn't think so, but my heart really hurts. I want to see you, but I'm afraid of rejection. This ambivalence pains me. I don't want to go on like this anymore, I want to make some changes.
I remembered how I used to be in the game. At that time, I enjoyed playing a game called Honor of Kings. Although my technique is not very good, I always try to cooperate with my teammates and not let myself be held back. Once, I played a game with you. At that time, I was nervous and my palms were sweaty. However, I still tried to play at my level and in the end helped our team to victory.
In the game, I can put my best foot forward and let people see my worth. However, in reality, I always felt small and worthless. It frustrates me.
I knew I couldn't go on like this forever. I needed to make changes to become more confident and courageous. I need to learn to face my demons and pursue what I really want.
I am reminded of a saying: "Life is like a game, if you don't try it, you will never know what the ending will be." "I wanted to try, to pursue you, but I also knew that if I was rejected, I had to accept the reality.
I know it's hard, but I'm sure if I work hard, I can do it. I will make myself more confident and brave to pursue my dreams and happiness.
Now I want to tell you: I want to see you. If you want, we can hang out for a day together or watch a movie together. I will do everything in my power to make you feel happy and happy. If you don't want to, I can accept this reality and continue to work hard to pursue my dreams and happiness.
Finally, I would like to say: thank you for your continued companionship and support!Hopefully we can become a better version of ourselves!Please stop being mentally exhausted