Yesterday, on my way home, I happened to see someone waiting for a bus on the side of the road, and her appearance reminded me of her. I couldn't help but reverse the car and make sure it was her.
At that moment, my heart was turbulent, and the irrepressible emotion made me call out the name that was hidden deep in my heart, both familiar and unfamiliar. She saw me, froze for a moment, then looked at me, her eyes red.
I met her in the second year of high school, and my high school life was full of challenges and joys, although I was Xi stressful and boring to study, I was one of those Xi who did not study well.
She Xi good at school, and at first I didn't think she was pretty, but it was only because the dorm room mates mentioned her all day long and said that they wanted to chase her, that I began to notice her. I started asking her questions, consciously or unconsciously, and just like that, I looked forward to asking her questions every day, and my high school life was no longer boring.
In the second semester of my sophomore year of high school, we established a relationship and encouraged each other, and I also started to rise from the bottom. In the college entrance examination, she failed the exam and chose to repeat it, while I went to university.
The day before I went to the university to report, I went to their school to look for her, but she didn't go back to the dormitory, and we didn't control it that night, and we secretly tasted the forbidden fruit. The next day she took me to the station, and I waited for my dad at the station, and my dad dropped me off at school, and that's how we started a long-distance relationship.
I thought I could wait for her, and she thought I could wait for her. Life in college is very different from high school, so free, so happy. At that time, the mobile phone could only send text messages, and she and I talked about each other's things every day.
I have an object in my heart.,So basically every time I sit in the corner by myself.,I bought a *** and hung it on my ears every day.,I feel bored.,Except for professional classes.,I don't know what to talk about in other classes.。
There were 56 people in our class, and there were only 6 boys, which attracted the attention of the girls in the class because of my special nature. In this way, on various festivals, I received all kinds of gifts, and every day someone gave me a seat.
I know I have a girlfriend, but I still enjoy being coaxed like this.
I had a somewhat ambiguous relationship with a girl, and we got along in a way that made the dorm people mistakenly think we were a couple. Her presence has made my world more colorful, but at the same time, it has also made me less and less connected with my girlfriend.
Although I didn't think I had betrayed her, I was still a little weak and didn't dare to look her in the eye. Every time she asked me if I was chasing someone or cheating on her at school, I would change the subject, which made me feel tired.
The woman's instincts are very accurate, and she thinks that I have someone I like, but I firmly deny it. We began to quarrel frequently, and then fell into a cold war. I think she's unreasonable, inexplicable.
It wasn't until she finished the college entrance examination that she said she wanted to apply for our school, and I asked her to take our school as her second choice. As a result, she was the first to be admitted, and although I felt a little comforted, I was still a little uneasy.
We started a long-distance relationship, and she went to school far away from me. However, before October 1st of the first semester, she took a leave of absence to come to our school, and it turned out to be like a bloody plot in a TV series, she saw me with another girl in the cafeteria.
She cried, didn't make a fuss, just copied all the chat records between me and her from the time we realized to now, including the small notes, love letters, and text messages we had written before, a thick book.
She said it was a memory back to me, stuffed it in my arms and ran away. I was stunned and began to panic and try to quibble, but seeing her gone, my heart hurt so much that I couldn't breathe.
I didn't chase her, I was sad in my heart. The female classmate asked me, is this your girlfriend?That's why you have always refused to acknowledge our relationshipI didn't answer, I went back to the dorm and didn't sleep all night, I missed her, but I also lost her.
Now I regret that if I had chased her and admitted my mistake, it might have ended differently.
From that day on, I had an unpleasant quarrel with that female college classmate over this incident, and our relationship became blurred. I chose to end the relationship, and although I felt a little relieved, I was still a little afraid that she would not see me again.
I went to her school, but she didn't see me. Her roommate told me that she already had a boyfriend. I was shocked and couldn't believe the news. At that moment, I felt like the whole world was collapsing.
I left there, changed cities, changed my phone number, and started a new life. Looking back now, I think she might just be angry with me. If I had held on a little longer, maybe things would have turned out differently.
But I still feel that I didn't betray her, but she betrayed me. That boring pride made me choose to leave.
16 years have passed, I have learned to hide my emotions, once went home to look for her, but the construction of the high-speed rail made their whole family move away, I searched for three years, but I did not find any news of her, so I started a new life in a strange city, met my current wife, got married and had children, but there is always a place left in my heart for her, just hide her deep in the corner of memory.
This unexpected reunion, I looked at her, she looked at me, we were both silent for a long time, I asked if she was still there, she nodded, tears rolling down her cheeks. I wanted to protect her, to protect her in that memory, but I held back, I didn't dare.
I suggested a place to eat, and she nodded, and I led her to a restaurant near our high school. The city has changed a lot, but we didn't eat much, and we talked for a long time, and we also solved the doubts in our hearts.
She didn't have a boyfriend, and I told her I didn't have a girlfriend either, but my mind had changed back then, and I wasn't just anymore. She laughed and she said it didn't matter, she now has a daughter, and I told her I had two daughters.
We were silent for a while, and she said how nice it would be if we had a daughter, and I really wanted to be with her at all costs. She looked at me very excitedly and said that this life will be like this, and I hope you will have a little heart in the next life.
I asked her if she could see each other often, but she resolutely refused, she said that what she wanted to see was fate, and the love of this life was over, so don't meet again, don't hurt each other, and be a good example for the children.
She told me that her husband loved her very much and that she didn't want to lie to him and asked me to be nice to my wife as well. This is the end of my fate with her, and finally we hug, she took a taxi and left, and when I turned around, I couldn't hold back the tears anymore, I cried loudly, regardless of other people's eyes, and I couldn't breathe in distress.
Back home, I was sick and felt like the walking dead, my wife was busy taking care of the children and taking care of me, looking at her busy back, I felt very sorry for her, in today's words, I may have become a scumbag back then, do you still think about it?
I silently said a blessing to her, and then buried this memory deep in my heart.