It should be too late to steal a living, and Qu Hu will drink water for the rest of his year. Life is not only about what is in front of you, but also about poetry and distance. Time boils rain, years sew flowers, this fireworks world, everything has regrets, everything is worth it.
The sun and the moon are like passing rivers, and the time is on fire. From ancient times to the present, how many years have we shuttled, how many seasons have been exhausted, with a bay of clear snow, clothed in stars, stepping on the story of Shaohua, singing bright long songs, living in this world among the fireworks.
What are we going to do?Someone has answered it for us, but for ourselves, this question may not have an answer, and we have lived half our lives, and we are still looking for it halfway up the mountain.
There is no one before and no one after us, we do not have the open-mindedness of our predecessors, looking up at the starry sky, cooking wine in a silver kettle, and singing a poem to the fireworks in the world;We don't have the ability and smoothness of our descendants, a bottle of good wine, a box of good cigarettes, and a look that penetrates all kinds of mysteries, and we can only find the answer ourselves.
These two paragraphs exhaust the helplessness, difficulty, and hesitation of middle-aged people.
Shaohua does not stay for teenagers, hates you, and when will he rest.
There is the guidance of the poetry and words of the ancients, and then there is the chicken soup for the soul of modern life.
I have two lives, one is to be a human being after birth, and the other is to be reborn after surviving it.
For the life history of some middle-aged people, it should not be an exaggeration to describe it with two words.
How do you define it as the first life in the middle of the reluctance?Listen to me explain the central idea of a short ** "A Pair of Herbs" for you.
A heavy life: the flowers are not fully bloomed, the moon is not full, and it is reluctant to do so.
The protagonist of *, Haoyang, is a 41-year-old middle-aged man. He is down-to-earth and hard-working in a company, thinking that this can be exchanged for a stable life for a while. However, in the past 20 years of work experience, he has encountered some rights and wrongs, which has once again updated his cognition.
The road is difficult, the road is difficult, the road is divergent, and it is safe today
The sun and the moon are still the same, but last night and today are the same.
The social development is too fast, and in order to adapt to the social development, the enterprises working in Haoyang have continuously reformed and upgraded, forming a working mode of "fast-paced, multi-meeting, early up and late return, daily assessment, and pressure layer by layer".
It stands to reason that adapting to changes in social policies and conforming to market trends is a very normal mode of development. But this mode of work makes most people unable to see the future, unable to see the direction, and even like headless flies with nowhere to fly. If you let a motivated young man overcome obstacles and draw a big pie, he can hold on for another few decades. How many years can this last if an unmotivated middle-aged man in his forties is allowed to work like a young man again. It may be idealistic to say this, but it is really uncomfortable. Thinking about working for nearly 28 more years, I don't know when it will be a head.
Of course, the leader also said this: for a business-oriented enterprise, we do not have a stable allocation from the superior unit, and we can only self-support. If the process of work is stable and comfortable, then the results must be painful. If the process of work is painful and torturous, then the result must be comfortable. Listening to these words, it explains the truth that "the tree falls and the tree scatters".
Thinking about these words, to this day, I still have some different opinions. The company is a first-class enterprise, but the pressure is transmitted every day, the business is forced every day, the meeting is reported every night, the week can not rest, there is no vacation every year, and the training is Xi every quarter, which is what the middle and upper leaders need to do, why do they have to "accompany the prince to study"?Of course, I also understand that the situation is urgent and the competition is fierce, and if there is no core competitiveness, it will be eliminated by the market and be in jeopardy.
Despite this in our hearts, we still obeyed the deployment arrangements and did not dare to slack off in the slightest. Over time, prudence and walking on thin ice have taken root in our hearts.
One of them is that the job is difficult and there is no choice.
For example, the situation that 41-year-old Haoyang encountered at work is only part of the reason, and there are other reasons. For another example, a few years ago, Haoyang had a debt of 300,000 yuan because the family bought a new house and a new car. This needs to be repaid slowly by Haoyang and his lover. The excessive debt pressure also made Haoyang feel a little painful and numb. In **, Haoyang's salary needs to repay part of the debt, pay living expenses, cope with the world, etc. For a 41-year-old man, the salary moonlight makes him wander helplessly. So what?If you don't, you can't help it.
Raise a glass to dispel sorrow and sorrow, and draw a knife to cut off the water and make the water flow more.
Debt is difficult, moonlight, is the loneliness and heartache of a middle-aged man.
Annoyance and wandering are the second.
*, Haoyang's psychological description also takes a lot of space. Haoyang's own temperament and character have a great impact on his cognition. In the unit, Haoyang belongs to the age of not too old, there are leaders, there are employees, the leaders belong to the post-70s, and the employees belong to the post-90s, sandwiched in the middle, it is very uncomfortable. Haoyang is a typical only child, affected by the relationship between his parents, who wants to pull the relationship and take care of the overall situation, but he has no strength. Affected by the current situation, Haoyang's most urgent idea is: since he does not take the career path, he can make a stable transition to retirement. This kind of thinking is inevitably too early for Haoyang. However, the pressure and environment of the unit make Haoyang sometimes unbearable. In the face of the accusations of the leaders, personal negligence, and mistakes, Haoyang was also saddened. Every day when I go to the unit, all kinds of miscellaneous things rush to the face, overwhelmed, either the people are boiling, or they are messy, not the cups and plates are messy, or they are all over the place, this situation cannot make Haoyang calm down.
Tomorrow after tomorrow, tomorrow is so much. If the world is tired of tomorrow, spring will go and autumn will come.
Countless tomorrows are hope in the hearts of others, but they are burdens in Haoyang's hearts.
Perhaps, he was a little tired.
Depressed heart and anxious are the third.
*, Haoyang's work encountered a problem: the situation of people in the unit taking tea and prevarication was exposed. One day, Haoyang and his colleagues found a problem in their daily work inspection: a door of the state-owned coal mine equipment was broken and needed to be repaired as soon as possible. One day, it happened that there was an accident at the door, which injured a worker. Later, the unit held Haoyang accountable, assumed the responsibility for dereliction of duty, and deducted six months' bonus. For Haoyang, who rarely has accidents at work, he feels both psychologically unbalanced and indignant. When it comes to helplessness, when the unit encounters problems, it will definitely be held accountable and find someone to take responsibility. Haoyang has undoubtedly become the most suitable candidate.
Work is like walking on thin ice, and reverence for responsibility is also known as an invisible pressure in Haoyang's heart. Not only him, but the other employees are also unlucky.
Disappointment and no longer fantasies are the fourth.
In the content that follows, the phenomenon of this social existence is also depicted.
When does the moon come in the blue sky?I'll stop and ask for a glass today. People can't climb the bright moon, but the moon walks with people, like a flying mirror in Danque, and the green smoke is extinguished. But seeing that the night came from the sea, Ning knew that Xiang Yunjian didn't
Haoyang psychology, there is always a sense of lack and loneliness. It's not because of the size of what Haoyang has experienced, but it's a feeling that comes from birth, it's very naked and real.
Society is realistic, but Haoyang always adheres to an ideal state in his heart. In that ideal state, he stayed away from the hustle and bustle of society and came to a mountain village where he could breathe fresh air, drink tea and wine, watch the sunrise and sunset, watch the moon and stars, go to troubles, go to sorrow, and truly live a good life.
Empathy, how can there be such a place?If there were, there were very few. Enjoy such a day without cost?The answer is yes, we are destined to meet the storm in the whirlpool of this society.
Take Haoyang as an example, his age of 41 is far from the time when he should be comfortable and enjoyable.
Now the life of middle-aged people is trivial and messy, just like "the yellow flowers are piled up all over the ground." Haggard and damaged, who can pick it up now?”
Therefore, the negative emotions in Haoyang's heart gave birth to the concept of "surviving ten years". Meaning: Between the ages of 40-50, it is the stage of life experience, it is very difficult to endure and uncomfortable, and you can only treat it with a normal heart.
How to make Haoyang treat not so ordinary things with a normal heart?It's hard for him to do, and it's hard for the world to do it.
In **, in addition to being punished for mistakes at work, the protagonist Haoyang also experienced scenes of drunken accidental injuries, sudden chronic diseases, and family separation. Although these experiences are not good, they have all made him enlightened, some things can be avoided, and some things are natural laws.
Later, after a series of incidents, Haoyang's heart began to move closer to a normal heart and a numb heart. No longer pursue the promotion of the unit, no longer care about the emotions of colleagues, no longer blindly please others, no longer blindly be a "good old man". For "lying flat", Haoyang no longer desires it, and only hopes that he can survive it.
As a result, the above things were intertwined, which gave Haoyang a strong idea of boiling "a pair of herbs" with his heart.
This herb is not a real herb, but one thing that allows you to vent, release, and balance.
This herb may be able to liberate Haoyang from a thousand things, so that his heart can get some adjustment and comfort.
This herb needs to be treated with care. Fishing for three days and drying nets for two days can't solve the problem, let alone give full play to the medicinal effect of herbs.
This herb is the prescription of Haoyang, which is a kind of guidance and ideological improvement for him.
So, Haoyang began to carefully boil herbs. He first collected all the time with a pen and paper to make a pool of spring water, let it flow, and restore the vitality and vitality of all things.
Then, Haoyang used good brushwork and ink to polish and carve, so that the medicinal fragrance of this herb could pass through space and time, exuding the characteristics of physical and mental relaxation.
In the end, day and night, a pair of herbs are refined in the streamer, and look at its refined soup, slowly permeating the bright sky.
The prescription is ready, but good herbs are still needed. Haoyang needs to process the encounters and situations day by day into his own language, boiling and boiling in a casserole, stirring and stirring, and not letting it dry up.
Boiling herbs and reducing internal friction in the mind are the fifth.
Dual life: personnel have metabolism, and exchanges become ancient and modern. The so-called life is half fireworks, half joy. The new leaves of the forest urge the old leaves, and the front waves of the flowing water make the back waves. The world's friends must be **, not too much and not deep, even if the promise is temporary, it is the heart of the road in the end.
In the article "A Pair of Herbs", Haoyang is looking for some comprehension and true meaning of double life, and is currently working and living. There will be many challenges and twists for the present and the future, and these are the best prescriptions for Haoyang to prepare herbal medicine. Of course, the article "A Pair of Herbs" has not been written yet, but it has been written until now.
In the double life, Haoyang will re-examine his past and future. The inseparability of blood and kinship, the re-collision of work value, the abandonment of human dross, the understanding of life and death in middle-aged and elderly people, and the precipitation of the inner realm.
I look forward to Haoyang writing more wonderful content in the double life.