I am Pan Jinlian in "Water Margin", a bad woman who was nailed to the pillar of shame in history.
When people talk about me, they always use lewd, vicious, and shameless words to describe me, everyone thinks that I was killed by my uncle Wu Song, and I deserve it, and Wu Erlang avenges my brother is righteous and awe-inspiring!
Yes, I am indeed guilty of fornicating with Simon's official ** husband!I, Pan Jinlian, are full of sins!
But even if she is a vicious woman, she also has a handful of bitter tears!
Who can understand the pain and pain in my heart?
I was originally a woman from a good family, but because my family was poor and had no plan, I was forced to sell to a large family in Qinghe County as a maid.
My maiden name is Pan, and my nickname is Jin Lian. My parents gave me this name because they wanted me to be as beautiful and happy as a lotus flower for the rest of my life, but my whole life was unfortunate!
The life of being a handmaiden in a large family is very hard, and the handmaid is a subordinate of the people, a slave sold by the master, and there is no freedom at all. I was busy from morning to night, and I was ridiculed, blamed and even beaten from time to time. I'm a little girl, and everyone in the house can bully me.
I was very strong, trying desperately to do everything that was given to me by the above. Whether it's cooking or needlework, I do my best to do it well, and I don't want anything else but to make my life better.
The days of suffering passed quickly, and in a blink of an eye I was twenty years old.
The people in the house no longer treat me as a little girl, they all praise me for being beautiful, like a budding lotus.
Every morning, when I am dressed in the mirror, I often look at myself in the mirror stupidly, dreaming that one day I can get the favor of my master and marry a wishful husband, and I will be satisfied.
Good dreams don't come, but nightmares frighten!
My master is a womanizer, and he has long coveted my beauty, pestering me all day long, forcing me to be his little wife.
I'd rather be a bird in the sky than a small bird on the ground!
I would rather die than obey if I am stubborn, and I am not rare for my master to have wealth.
In order to get rid of the master's entanglement, I told the master's wife about it and begged her to give me a hand.
Due to the intervention of the master's mother-in-law, the master's plan fell through!He's hated me ever since.
In order to take revenge on me, the master was willing to accompany some housekeepers and forced me to marry Wu Dalang, who sold cooking cakes on the street.
Wu Dalang was a short, ugly man, known as the three-inch nail and withered bark. The master's intention in doing this is very clear:
You want to marry a wishful man, dream!I want to marry you to that ugly Wu Dalang, so that you will live in pain for the rest of your life. ”
The master is really a vicious man!He married me to Wu Dalang just to torture me.
I cry, I make trouble, I don't follow the ......
However, I am just a handmaiden of a big family, everything I have is the master's, and I can only cry and marry Wu Dalang when I am forced to helpless.
Since marrying Wu Dalang, my heart has also died!
I don't groom in the mirror anymore because I don't have dreams anymore.
I shut myself in my house all day, closed my doors and windows, and my heart was like water.
The trees want to be quiet and the wind does not stop!There are many treacherous prodigal children in Qinghe County, who often come to the door to tease me when Wu Dalang is not at home. Those people speak frivolously and are unsightly!I can't hide if I want to.
The neighbors saw it and were spreading: "It's not good, it's a thief for the love of the head." ”
Anyway, it's my fault again!
Wu Dalang was a cowardly man, he felt that he had lost face in front of his neighbors, so he took me out of Qinghe County and moved to live in a rented house in Shijie, Yanggu County, where he still sold cooking cakes every day.
I lived a quiet life in Yanggu County.
I gradually accepted my fate, although Wu Dalang is vulgar, after all, his heart is not bad, and he can treat me.
Alas, who made me lose my face!Admit it!
I never dreamed that the vulgar Wu Dalang would have a tall and heroic brother, Wu Erlang.
Wu Erlang's name is Wu Song, and he is a hero who fights tigers.
After Wu Dalang and Wu Song's brothers recognized each other, they moved his younger brother Erlang to live together.
When I met my uncle, I couldn't help but feel ripples in my heart. I am a woman, and I also want a strong and handsome man to protect me and cherish me!
I carefully prepared three meals a day for my uncle, cleaned up his room, and bought him new clothes.
I just want my uncle to care about me and care more about me. I know it's not good to do this, we are uncles and sisters-in-law after all, but I can't control my heart, I am a flower that is about to wither, and I need the moisture of the spring breeze and rain too much.
Wu Erlang was a decent and stubborn person, and instead of being tempted, he reprimanded me harshly.
In order to avoid meeting me, Wu Erlang found an excuse to move to the county office.
After Wu Erlang left, my heart was cold again. I know that my misfortune cannot be changed, my heart is bleeding!
I'm just an ordinary woman, and all I ask for is a sincere relationship. God, why do you do this to me!
My life has become a stagnant pool again. Wu Dalang treats me well, but he is not the lover in my heart after all, he can't enter my heart, and I don't want to enter his heart, we are husband and wife but we are strangers!
Wu Erlang was going to leave Yanggu County for a period of time due to Yamen official business, and when he left, he went to my house to say goodbye to Da Lang, and secretly reminded Da Lang to pay more attention to his wife. I listened, and turned away in a rage.
I cried alone in the house for a long, long ......
Wu Erlang is gone, Da Lang still sells cooking cakes every day, and I still guard the house and don't go out.
One day, when I was bored, I wanted to open the window to breathe.
Unexpectedly, when I pushed the window open, I accidentally dropped the stick supporting the window and smashed it on the head of a passerby.
I panicked and hurriedly poked my head out to apologize to the passerby
The slave family missed, but did they smash and injure the officials?”
The passer-by looked up with an angry face, and when he saw me, he immediately turned his anger into joy
No defense, no defense, scared the little lady. ”
The passer-by spoke softly and stared straight at me.
My face turned red instantly, and I hurriedly closed the window in a panic, my heart beating non-stop.
That passer-by was none other than the richest man in Guyang County, Ximen Qing.
The official Simon fell in love with me at first sight, and he could not forget my face.
In order to see me again, the official of Simon found my neighbor Wang Po and promised to give her two taels of silver for him to find a way.
When Mrs. Wang got the benefit, she asked me to go to her house to help her make a shroud, and asked me out with the consent of the eldest man.
I didn't know what the plan was, but I thought it was a favor for the neighbors, so I cleaned up and went with the princess.
At the house of the princess, I met the great official of Simon, and he looked at me with a smile.
I panicked and wanted to leave, but was persuaded by Wang Po. The great official of Simon said to me gently
Little lady, since you're here, why do you have to go?I'll pay for some food and drinks and have a meal together, how about it?”
Wang Po said with a smile——
I'm really sorry to let the Ximen officials break the bank. So we received it. ”
I was dragged into the table. During the banquet, the senior officials of Simon looked at me from time to time. My heart was beating again, and I couldn't help but bow my head.
Little lady, you eat!Simon said softly. "Alas, it's a pity for someone as handsome as a little lady. ”
I listened, and tears couldn't help but drip down my .......
The next day, Wang Po asked me to go to her house to make a shroud. I knew I shouldn't go, but the princess wouldn't allow me, and I couldn't resist ......
I met the great officials of Simon again, and I knew that all this was arranged by the princess.
I tried to escape, but the official Simon hugged me and whispered his love for me.
I was drunk in his arms and couldn't help myself!For a long time, I was so lonely, so helpless. At last a handsome man came to love me, and even if it was a cup of poisoned wine, I would drink it......
Oh my God!Forgive me!
There are no impermeable walls!My affair with Ximen Daguan was bumped into by Brother Yun, who sold pears, and he told Wu Dalang.
Da Lang knew that he naturally didn't follow, and he rushed to Wang Po's house in a rage.
Who knew that Wu Dalang ** didn't succeed, but was kicked to the chest by the Ximen officials, and he was distressed and bedridden.
I was so scared that I wanted to break off my relationship with the Ximen officials, but it was difficult to turn back when the boat reached Jiangxin.
Wu Dalang lay on the bed and said angrily
Don't be complacent, adulterers and adulteresses!When my brother comes back, I'll settle accounts with you!”
I was shocked and frightened when I heard this, and hurriedly ran to Wang Po to discuss countermeasures.
The Ximen official also came, and after listening to it, he suggested that he should not do anything, and take advantage of Wu Erlang's failure to come back, and poison Wu Da!
I was shaking and couldn't control myself!
The official Ximen took my hand and promised that he would definitely fly with me afterwards. Wang Po also echoed and said: Only in this way, there is no way back.
I was so foolish that I agreed to them.
I'm going to ** husband!
Oh my God, why did I get to this point!I do not know.
I understand that Dalang is good to me, but I just don't want to be with him, I hate this short and ugly man.
Ever since I met Simon Daguanren, I feel sick for a moment with Da Lang!
In the evening, I took the arsenic given by the Ximen officials and mixed it into Da Lang's medicine, and coaxed him to drink it with trembling hands.
Soon after taking the medicine, Dalang felt a burst of stomach pain. He shouted loudly, and when the princess came, she told me to cover the quilt so that no one could hear me. I was so frightened that my soul was gone, and I covered the quilt with my wife without thinking about it......
Wu Dalang died, and I killed my husband, ......
Soon after, Takejiro returned.
Although we tried our best to hide the truth of the matter, we still didn't lie to Jiro.
After Wu Erlang learned the whole thing through Brother Yun, who sold pears, he vowed to kill the adulterer and adulteress to avenge his brother!
Wu Erlang invited people from the county yamen to surround my home, and I knew that the end was coming!
Subsequently, Wu Erlang asked people to find Wang Po, called the neighbors of the Quartet, and forced us to ask us in public about the ..... of what happened
I said it, said everything....I know I can't fill anything!
I made mistakes, big mistakes....I am a sinner, a poisonous woman for my husband, an adulterous adulteress...A ...... that a person who makes a mistake will be punished
When Wu Erlang's knife came at me, I didn't hide or cry...＂
Wu Erlang killed the ...... of the Ximen officials in the Lion Tower
I, Pan Jinlian, have become a sinner referred to by a thousand people, and I will never be able to turn over!
I hate....I hate why I'm so confused, and I hate why God treats me so badly...
I just hope -
No more women in the next life!
About the author: A woman who likes to read, is obsessed with history, and loves to write articles. What makes a good article, I don't know. I only know that writing an article is to write about what I want to say and what I want to write. This is me, a layman in the world, why worry about the deep valley and the sky, and the fragrance of the orchid!