When people reach middle age, looking back on the past, they have done a lot of right things and done a lot of wrong things, and in the final analysis, they are all things that should be done.
Among them, I think the most meaningful experience is when I was in the second year of junior high school, when I went from a middle student in my class to the second place in my class.
I went to a key middle school, and my grades were in the middle, which is the kind of situation where the liberal arts are okay and the science has been holding back.
When I was in my second year of junior high school, I didn't know which nerve I moved, but suddenlyExert yourselfGet up.
At that time, I lived on campus, and every morning, I got up half an hour earlier than others, ran to the classroom, lit a candle, and read English.
At noon, as soon as the bell rang, I ran to the canteen at a speed of 100 meters.
It's not about the king of dry rice, but about buying time, because, if you walk slowly to the canteen, there will be a lot of queues during rush hour.
After eating, I still have 30 minutes to go to the classroom to learn Xi.
In the afternoon, during the penultimate recess, I took my bath bucket and clothes and put them in line at the hot water outlet in advance.
25 years ago, when I lived in the school, I used the cafeteria to put hot water for bathing, and I used a dime water ticket to exchange for a bucket of hot water.
As soon as the bell rang after school, I ran to take a shower first, and came out of the shower, the peak period of eating has passed (others eat first and then take a bath), and you can eat without queuing, although it is leftovers, but it does not matter.
At that time, there was only one cistern and more than a dozen faucets for washing clothes. If there's a vacancy, I'll do the laundry first. If there are no vacant seats, I will eat while waiting.
In this way, I made overall use of time, avoided the peaks, and raced against time to learn Xi, which made me get the second place in the class in the second year of junior high school, which surprised my teachers and classmates.
Unfortunately, it was just a flash in the pan.
At that time, there were groups of students living on campus. Everyone goes to eat together, take a bath together, and walk with each other.
Because I was always racing against time to learn and Xi, slowly, I was isolated by everyone.
In order not to be isolated, I began to conform to the herd and build a good relationship with my classmates, I gave up walking alone and kept pace with everyone.
Conformity means walking with everyone, you wait for me, I wait for you. During the rush hour, I could only queue up slowly, and I could no longer squeeze out a lot of time to learn Xi, so I lost my advantage as a stupid bird.
When I was in the third year of junior high school, I had a good relationship with my classmates, but my academic Xi grades fell back to the middle of the middle.
In order to be gregarious, I didn't dare to be myself, I didn't find time to build an excellent self, and gradually became a good person, a mediocre person.
I was born with oneConformityof consciousness.
In the 90s, my parents were doing business in other places and bought me 2 pairs of fashionable jeans. I also wish I had been like everyone else, dressed in dirty clothes, with brand new jeans lying in the closet and not wearing them once.
In my mind, there is always a herd mentality of blending in with others, mingling together, and pleasing personality, like a seal.
Until the awakening of middle age.
Only to find out that the real self, the true self, is the completely opposite personality.
A person's personality, from "conforming to the herd" to changing, being true to himself, acting independently, and "not conforming to the herd", this awakening process is indeed very difficult and **.
In the eyes of those who are familiar with me, I have completely changed, I used to be so cheerful, easy-going, and easy to talk, but now I am so cold, independent, and distant.
However, after all, he broke through the seal and lived the highest version of himself.
I study freely, Xi freely, and I will not give up my knowledge and dreams because I am middle-aged.
After people become enlightened, they dare to face their true nature, be their true self, and never conform to the crowd in order to have a good relationship with othersLet go of all the shackles of thought, create an excellent self, and be at ease