My name is Lin Hai, I am 38 years old, I work as a sales manager in a foreign company with a monthly salary of 20,000 yuan. I met Zhang Xiaomei through a blind date seven years ago, and we got married within a few months. Life after marriage is normal, but in the past few years, I feel that our relationship has become weaker and weaker, and we have talked less and less.
Every day, my communication with my wife is only about daily housework topics such as "have you eaten" and "have you done laundry", and I can't talk about married life at all. I often work late and come home with my wife asleep. She knew all day about work and taking care of the kids and was no longer interested in me.
After a few years like this, I found life extremely boring. Work is stressful, and there is no one to talk to when you go home. The good night is short, and I always hope that it will end soon. I feel more and more that this kind of married life is not interesting at all.
One day after working overtime, I went to the restaurant for supper, and met a beautiful girl who took the initiative to talk. Her name is Sun Xiaomei, she looks very cute, **fair-skinned, and has deep dimples when she laughs. She told me she was working as a secretary at the company next door. I invited her to a drink, and she was very cheerful and generous, which made me feel very comfortable with her.
Xiaomei: Brother, you look preoccupied, are you not going well at work?
I didn't talk too much about family matters, I only said that my relationship with my wife was not in harmony, but I didn't expect Xiaomei to understand it very well, and asked me to come out for a drink and talk next time. I was a little hesitant at first, but thinking about the deserted state of my home, I agreed.
In the following month, I went on two or three dates with Xiaomei, and went to the cinema, bars, etc. She has a very lively personality and I feel ten years younger with her. She would care about my work and life, and I would confide in her about my work stress and marital misfortune. I found her not simple, although she was only a secretary, she was very insightful and kind-hearted.
Slowly, I found myself developing a crush on Mei. She would also cast an ambiguous gaze, and her eyes would shine when she saw me. I began to fantasize about how nice it would have been if I had met her in the first place. But when I think about it, I blame myself, I've been married for many years, and I shouldn't have this kind of thought anymore.
However, Xiaomei and I continued to date frequently, and gradually escalated to holding hands and hugging. We are like a little couple in love, but we don't dare to take a step beyond the thunder pool. I was conflicted, I knew I shouldn't, but it was so nice to be with her.
On this day, Xiaomei and I went for a walk in the suburban park, the lake was rippling and the scenery was pleasant. We sat on the bench, and we couldn't hide the excitement in our hearts.
It was a sunny weekend, and I met up with Mei in this suburban park. We were all out of breath after kissing on a bench by the lake.
Xiaomei's face flushed, and she lowered her head and didn't dare to look at me. I knew we were all a little out of control just now, and I was very upset.
I whispered, "Xiaomei, I was impulsive just now, we shouldn't go too fast." You are still young and you will meet better people. ”
Xiaomei raised her head with tears in her eyes: "I don't care about that, I only like you alone." I'm so happy to be with you. ”
I was excited, but I still comforted her: "You are so good, you deserve to meet someone better than me." I'm married, and we're not going to have a result. ”
Xiaomei said stubbornly: "I don't care if I get married or not, I just want to be with you." You also said that your wife ignores you, and I can make you happy. ”
I looked at Xiaomei's innocent eyes, and my heart was mixed. I knew the relationship wasn't supposed to go ahead, but I really needed her.
Then let's take our time and don't do the decisive thing. I said in a hoarse voice.
Xiaomei finally showed a sweet smile, which made me feel both warm and guilty.
Xiaomei and I started to open a house often. I'll take a leave of absence from the company and drive her to a love hotel on the edge of town.
After that, we often repeat such appointments. Xiaomei can always bring me physical and mental satisfaction, which I have never experienced in my married life. The time with her was so good that I almost forgot that I had a wife at home.
However, the good times did not last long, and one day, when Xiaomei and I were on the big bed in the hotel, the door was suddenly opened, and the angry figure of my wife appeared at the door!
Xiaomei and I were both startled and hurriedly separated and put on our clothes. I blushed and stammered, "Why are you here?"”
The wife said coldly: "I have long suspected that you are having an affair, and today I finally confirmed it." Fuck off, don't go home!”
With that, she slammed the door away, leaving Xiaomei and I looking at each other. My sky has collapsed, and I was bumped into by my wife and had an affair with my lover, what should I do!
Xiaomei was also frightened and cried bitterly: "I'm sorry, it's all my fault!."I shouldn't seduce people with families. ”
My mind went blank and I could only send Xiaomei home, and I was at a loss to think about what I would face next.
It was only in the evening that I mustered up the courage to go home. But as soon as I opened the door, I saw the wedding photos on the ground, and my wife was sitting alone in the dimly lit living room, her face full of disappointment and sadness.
I knew that a huge rift was widening in our marriage, and that I needed to take full responsibility.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry for you and the child. I choked up and said to my wife.
The wife sneered: "You think saying sorry can solve it?."I have given you so many years of love and dedication, but you betrayed me and my children!”
I know that any justification pales in comparison. It was I who used my crooked brain first, and I was carried away by the flowery world outside, and I owe so much to my wife.
You say, what will our children do in the future?Losing a complete home, what will he think of you, an irresponsible father!Tears welled up in his wife's eyes.
My heart is like a knife, the child is the most important treasure in my life, how can I bury his happy family because of a mistake?
Give me a chance to be a new person. "I was determined to make amends to my wife and children with all my heart.
So, after painstaking self-reflection and repentance, I finally picked myself up again and began to make up for this mistake step by step.
I completely cut off contact with Xiaomei and deleted all chat history. Since then, my world has only been left with my wife and children. Every day after work, I buy snacks that my wife likes to eat and spend time with her and the children.