Hundred Families Help Plan Strings of red lanterns hung in the high-walled compound, and Leng Qiuyue sat alone in her new home with a red hijab on her head. The outside of the new house is full, and all kinds of sea bowls filled with wine are constantly colliding, and there is laughter and laughter everywhere, filled with a strong festive atmosphere. Is a woman, here, a man's home?However, the man the woman had been waiting for, Lu Zhaopeng, was eventually forced to return because he was slapped by his father. 
Leng Qiuyue obviously didn't know anything about these things. She was shy and hesitant about Lu Zhaopeng, who was reluctant to enter a new house, and her daughter who was about to get married, Lu Zhaopeng hung his head and spent time with Leng Qiuyue in the dim candlelight.
In the face of this ambiguous first experience, Leng Qiuyue did not show too many emotional fluctuations, she neither felt pain nor happiness, but felt that Lu Zhaopeng had trembled on her for a short time. Unaware of this, such a tremor marked the beginning of a tragedy in her life.
After marriage, Lu Zhaopeng quickly got rid of this feudal marriage relationship. Since then, Leng Qiuyue has guarded the high-walled compound with her parents-in-law and mother-in-law, waiting for his return with great anticipation. However, until she died of illness, she did not sincerely wait for his return.
Lu Zilin knows the situation at home well, and he even considered that if it was someone else's daughter, if his son really disagreed, he would also consider divorce. But that was Mr. Leng's daughter. Mr. Leng has a high reputation in the family, and his discrediting behavior only makes him ridiculed by others. In order to maintain peace on the surface and make up for the guilt in his heart, Lu Zilin put a lot of effort into front of Dr. Leng.
In the face of Leng Qiuyue, the cunning and experienced Lu Zilin seemed more handy.
As long as you put in the effort, you can be rewarded both inside and out, ensuring a brief period of peace. However, after a while, my daughter began to become less sensible, often did not get up on time, and liked to cry. Whenever Leng Qiuyue returned home to complain, Mr. Leng would calmly tell his daughter: As a man with great ambitions, you should get up early and go to bed early at home, and you should honor your in-laws.
Due to her father's harsh words and her father-in-law's clever words, Leng Qiuyue's deep suppressed emotions could no longer find an outlet.
Lu Zilin put a lot of effort into his son, and he did not provide him with food or money, but hoped that he could return home and live under pressure. But to his surprise, his son, who had lost his financial support, did not return home during the summer and winter holidays, and did not even return home during the Chinese New Year.
Time passes, year after year, and Leng Qiuyue always moves forward in endless anticipation. That innocent girl has now become a woman who values her family. Leng Qiuyue has lost her intimacy with Zhaopeng since she got married, and she is immersed in her fantasies every night and even during the day, guarding the empty house alone, but she doesn't find any way to change it all.
Lu Zhaopeng actually didn't dislike Leng Qiuyue, he just felt disgusted with the feudal system.
Lu Zhaopeng made it clear at the beginning of his marriage that he was unwilling to accept this feudal marriage system. He felt a deep hatred for this kind of blind marriage and blind marriage that relied entirely on his parents and matchmakers. For those who were embraced with new knowledge and ideas, he ended up being slapped three times by his own father. His parents were typical peasant families, who grew up in the countryside and had a strong sense of affection and responsibility for the land, and they thought that as long as they could raise their children well, they would be fine. He chose not to return home as a way to express his dissatisfaction with his father and his strong antipathy to the feudal system, but Leng Qiuyue was undoubtedly the one who was hurt the most by this way.
Leng Qiuyue mistakenly thought that Lu Zhaopeng's dissatisfaction and reluctance were due to the strained relationship with his father. But for the past few years, Lu Zhaopeng has not returned home, and she does not realize that the reason behind this is that he thought the marriage was a drag and a stain on him from the beginning. Isn't it ironic that although he was the vanguard of the revolution, he could not abandon the Xi he most despised?
Leng Qiuyue's emotions experienced from the joy of the newlywed to the doubts and dissatisfaction later, and then to the crankiness later, and she felt more and more painful in her lonely life. Her thirst for sex and love has extended to Zhao Peng's younger brother, sometimes she thinks about spending time with Zhao Hai, and sometimes she fantasizes about her parents-in-law's intimate acts at night.
Surprisingly, when she met Tian Xiao'e, who once despised her so much, on the street, she couldn't help but feel envious. She thinks how lucky she is!However, when she regained consciousness, she felt deep regret for the evil thoughts she had generated.
Leng Qiuyue feels more and more pain in her pursuit of physical and mental satisfaction and keeping her mind clear, and this inner contradiction eventually becomes the trigger for her death.
Although Lu Zhaopeng was in the city, he was deeply attracted to the love between him and Bai Ling, who had been engaged in sports activities in the city over the years, and gradually developed a deep emotional bond with Bai Ling. On the night they lived together, Lu Zhaopeng painfully told Bai Ling, who took the initiative to show love: This is impossible, because I already have a wife before.
Bai Ling sensitively said: It was just a pretended couple.
This sentence easily undermined Lu Zhaopeng's psychological defenses, allowing him to release his deep affection for Bai Ling without reservation. However, this sentence also coldly negates Leng Qiuyue's status in the Lu family. In Zhao Peng's view, the pain and patience she experienced in the Lu family were just a constraint on his pursuit of true love.
Lu Zhaopeng didn't even leave a child, which made Leng Qiuyue feel very lonely.
Leng Qiuyue is different from Lu Zhaopeng and Bai Ling's pursuit of affection, as long as he can have a child, he can survive on the White Deer Plain, even if he is not accompanied by a man, accompany a child to grow up, which at least brings hope to women.
Lu Zilin's ingenuity may be able to cover up temporarily, but it must not cover up his whole life. When Lu Zhaopeng returned to Bailuyuan as the principal, but did not go home to rest for a month, his pretense of peace was broken. He may be dissatisfied with the inaction of the Lu family, or he may be sincere. Mr. Leng said to Lu Zilin: Brother, don't worry about it anymore, if it really doesn't work, a letter of resignation is not a big deal, I don't attach importance to these things.
Although Lu Zilin resolutely refused, when he returned home, Lu Taiheng intervened and successfully forced Lu Zhaopeng home. However, if a person returns, his heart will not come back, it is all in vain.
Soon after Lu Zhaopeng became the principal, the relationship between the two parties broke down, Lu Zhaopeng**, Mr. Leng used up all his family wealth, and Lu Zilin teamed up to save Lu Zhaopeng, but only left Zhaopeng with one sentence: leave a child for Qiuyue and let her have a life.
When Lu Zhaopeng heard that sentence, he squatted down in pain and said: I would rather choose death. He said he didn't know why, he didn't want to tell anyone, he wanted to say, I don't love you anymore, but he didn't want to die, he didn't want to die, because he wanted to live better. For Lu Zhaopeng, it is better to choose death than to choose a child he doesn't love, but he never realized that an original woman, without a man and children, is also equivalent to losing her life. He knew that he was having trouble with himself, and he thought that if he didn't give the child back to her, he would be abandoned, and his life would be ended and he would not be able to live. Maybe he has considered this level, but most people are selfish, as long as it does not affect himself, the life and death of others does not mean much to him.
Leng Qiuyue was shocked by the lonely courtyard of a man who was a virtual man, and she said uncontrollably: If there is no man who is widowed, he can still earn chastity, but what is it really for a man to be widowed.
However, all that was given to her was endless silence.
The shameless behavior of the father-in-law became the last straw that crushed Leng Qiuyue.
Late one night, Leng Qiuyue's mother-in-law went to offer incense. After Lu Zilin came home drunk, he mistakenly recognized the daughter-in-law who opened the door as his wife. When he saw the woman who Lu Zilin couldn't pull her legs, he couldn't help but hold Leng Qiuyue tightly in his arms and boldly pinched his daughter-in-law's chest.
Out of revenge, Leng Qiuyue quietly added wheat grass to Lu Zilin's food and rebuked him for being a grazing animal. Lu Zilin, who was Xi to the wind and waves, quickly returned to his normal state after that moment of shame, leaving Leng Qiuyue alone to immerse himself in his thoughts.
Life is still as usual, but what is different is that Leng Qiuyue, a woman who has been widowed for ten years, began to frequently recall the moment when she was molested. Her intense desire for love drives her to orchestrate an operation to try to attract Lu Zilin. Lu Zilin used the other party's method to ** the other party, and provided Leng Qiuyue with a handful of wheat grass as food.
Since then, Leng Qiuyue has lost her mind. The education she received from an early age and the impact of her daily life made her feel a deep sense of shame about her actions. She has experienced many twists and turns between the desire of women and the cruelty of reality, even to the point of dying. Her biological father is confused by her actions, and her husband appears to be a man in name only. This made her feel extremely tired, and she was like a balloon desperate to release. Lu Zilin is Leng Qiuyue's imaginary exit, but in fact, it was a needle, which pierced the balloon violently and cruelly, and with a loud bang, the balloon **.
Leng Qiuyue lost her mind, and she loudly made up unknown things about Lu Zilin and her in the crowd. She wants to use this event to prove herself and prove her existence. In order to maintain the dignity of the two families, Mr. Leng applied a deadly poison that caused his own daughter to lose her voice.
Leng Qiuyue died soon after in despair, and when people changed her shroud, they realized that her lower body had been severely damaged and bleeding pus.
I think that even without Lu Zilin's frivolous teasing, Leng Qiuyue's fate will not change much. Her marriage was chosen by her father from the beginning in order to strengthen her position in society. If she is lucky enough to meet a man who is willing to spend her life together, then the two may be able to live an uneventful life;If not, she will be divorced by her husband after the divorce, and then live with him for the rest of her life. If it weren't for the kind of dignity that Lu Zilin described, even if she was divorced, with her good family background, she might still have a chance to marry again, and she wouldn't end up in the predicament of this disease. Her life is like a woman walking on the road, she has to go far, far away. Unfortunately, life is a one-way street with no assumptions.
Summary. Mr. Chen Yinke once pointed out that only this kind of independent spirit and free thinking has gone through countless eras, coexisted with heaven and earth, and jointly emitted three kinds of light and maintained eternal brilliance. This is a high-level summary of the meaning and value of a person's life, and it is also the source of our nation's endless strength. In the era of the replacement of the old and the new, like a surging flood, Lu Zhaopeng stood there, and Leng Qiuyue stood on this side. She was a maverick feminist, but not a completely detached from the mainstream of society, and her life was influenced by traditional ideas. The former pursues the freedom and independence of the mind and body, while the latter is limited by traditional concepts and has never been able to break the shackles that bind her.
Lu Zhaopeng's attitude towards Leng Qiuyue was obviously selfish. Since he understood that he couldn't provide Leng Qiuyue with an ideal life, why didn't he resolutely refuse from the beginning?At the urging of his elders, he took possession of Leng Qiuyue's body, but he did not follow the wishes of his elders, leaving a way for Leng Qiuyue to survive.
Lu Zilin's behavior was undoubtedly humiliating, and although he couldn't control his children, he was determined to maintain his dignity, so he had to sacrifice Leng Qiuyue. He behaved very coldly towards Leng Qiuyue's courtship, not only did he not arouse Leng Qiuyue's sympathy and advice, but with a heart of revenge, he insulted her uncontrollably afterwards.
Leng Qiuyue's fate is both sympathetic and sad, she is more like a victim in a patriarchal society, dependent on her father before marriage, and wants to rely on men after marriage, but finds that no one can actually rely on her. She is a typical "female pretend", she is a woman with a strong sense of inferiority and full of fantasies about love, but she failed in her marriage. Due to the depression of her heart and the emptiness of her body, her mental state began to distort, and she was finally forced to become insane, lose her voice, and finally die tragically.
For a woman to maintain inner peace, it is often necessary to show an attitude of non-following, non-dependence, and non-anxiety. Although her wisdom was like Leng Qiuyue, in the social context of the time, she did not really understand this, and her uneasiness often stemmed from not being able to truly follow and rely on. Her anxiety and anxiety come from her own inferiority, from her inner doubt and denial of herself. In the end, this led to a twist in my heart.
It's a pity that she didn't realize until the last moment of her life how she got to this point as a pure and immaculate girl