Title: A 64-year-old aunt who lives alone, a new feeling of life After the death of his wife, he can enjoy his life freely
My husband has been away from me for 4 years, time flies, and I have lived very quickly on my own in the past few years.
Even though he didn't treat me well before my husband died, after all, we spent decades together, and I was still very unaccustomed to him after he left.
For some time at first, I felt depressed and depressed all day long, and the empty house was full of memories.
I would cry sadly when I saw the items my husband used when he was alive, and when I saw the house we used to live in together.
However, over time, I gradually learned to face and accept.
Maybe deep down, I don't have feelings for my husband for a long time, so adjusting to living alone is relatively smooth.
After a few years of adjustment, I now feel comfortable and comfortable living alone.
Without my husband, I can be myself again and live a relaxed and free life.
I feel like I've completely stepped out of the shadows of the past and started to enjoy the way I am now.
Although it was lonely to live alone, I also seemed to feel a long-lost relief and freedom in my heart.
When I was 20 years old, I married my husband Li Jianhua's family through an introducer.
In the beginning, my in-laws were very satisfied with me and often praised me for my diligence.
At first, I was also very grateful for the kindness of my in-laws.
My mother-in-law taught me to do housework, and I learned it very quickly and mastered it all in less than half a year.
The mother-in-law happily told the neighbor that she had finally found a good daughter-in-law for her son.
My father-in-law has a gentle personality and always cares about my body and life.
The first time I cooked a meal that was not delicious, my father-in-law smiled and encouraged me not to be stressed.
At that time, my husband was also very considerate to me, knowing that I was not used to city life, and often took care of everything for me.
I am very grateful to my husband and in-laws for their kindness to me.
I feel very fortunate and satisfied to be able to marry into such a harmonious family.
After three years of marriage, I gave birth to my eldest Li Siming.
When the child was born, the mother-in-law happily ran to tell the neighbors the good news.
The husband also happily bought a lot of gifts to celebrate.
Li Siming was born with petite hands and feet, and his cute face was pink and lovely.
The husband is busy with work, but when he has time, he hugs him and plays.
I also love this well-behaved son very much.
Three years later, I gave birth to my second son, Li Siyang.
The two sons are only three years apart, and they have a very good relationship.
Looking at their innocent and cute appearances, I feel that I have the greatest happiness in my life.
My husband and I have also strengthened our bond with the birth of our children.
Together, we plan for our children's future and believe that they will become excellent people.
When her husband was 40 years old, he finally became a company manager through his own efforts.
It's a big deal for our whole family.
However, it didn't take long for me to notice that my husband's personality had changed a lot.
He often yelled at me for no reason and lost his temper from time to time.
One time my child accidentally broke a plate, and my husband actually smashed it on the table with a punch, startling me and my child.
I persuaded my husband that he was already a manager and should not get angry at every turn.
But he didn't listen, and said that I was not sensible, and he had a heavy responsibility, so don't point fingers anymore.
The change in my husband makes me very sad.
We used to be so affectionate, but now he barely communicates with me normally, and is always full of anger.
I don't know how to get my husband back to his old good temper.
Husbands and wives are becoming more and more estranged, and our marriage is gradually falling apart.
Later, my husband's attitude became worse and worse, and he came home later and later, and I was very disappointed in him.
Just when my husband and I were arguing and divorcing, my parents-in-law suddenly suffered a stroke and were paralyzed in bed.
I can't bear to let my sick in-laws and children suffer because of my conflict with my husband.
For the sake of this family, I chose to continue to bear the burden of shame and become a good wife and mother.
I was so busy taking care of my sick in-laws and children all day that I didn't have time to care about my own pain.
I didn't want a divorce to ruin the family, so I focused all my attention on taking care of my family and suppressed my sadness and anger for the time being.
I knew I had to stay calm and sane and not hurt the family because of personal issues.
Under my careful care, my sick in-laws survived for a few more years.
But they eventually passed away one after another, which made me feel very sad and painful.
While I was trying to take care of my family and adjust to my new life, my husband suddenly fainted at the company and was admitted to the hospital.
The doctor diagnosed my husband with a cerebral thrombosis, and half of his body was paralyzed.
This news was a huge blow to me and the kids.
In the face of my husband's sudden illness, I decided to continue to do my duty as a wife and patiently take care of my husband after the stroke.
I did not do it out of affection, but out of human affection and morality, I did not abandon him when he needed help the most.
My husband's death was a heavy blow to me and my children.
According to my husband's will, the estate he left me includes savings, a house, etc.
I started living on this inheritance.
Living alone has allowed me to regain my freedom.
I can live my own life and no longer be bound by my husband and in-laws.
I participated in various senior activities and made new friends.
Life seems to have become a lot easier.
But I'm not sure if I'm really happy and happy in my life right now.
A person may be freer, but he is also more lonely.
I often feel lost.
I began to reflect on whether I should end this life of solitude and find the meaning and joy of life again.
I can choose to live with my son or go into a nursing home to find a partner.
But I may feel uncomfortable leaving my familiar home.
Should I insist on living alone, or should I be brave enough to step out and see the outside world?Should my life move on, or should it end there?I felt lost and hesitant.
I don't know which direction to go in next, what choice to make.
I have a deep desire for someone to give me advice and advice.
When a person is at a crossroads, they still need the help and support of others to find a new way out.