I'm always looking for that feeling of warmth and calmness, that feeling that I can rely on with peace of mind. But there was a time in my life when that feeling was far away from me.
Liu Jing, why are you always so slow?"It was the voice of my boyfriend, Benjamin, who was an impatient person who always wanted to get everything done as quickly as possible.
I looked at him with a smile, "Benjamin, we don't need to be so fast, we can take our time." ”
He looked at me with a frown, as if he couldn't understand what I was saying. "I just want to end this quickly, don't you want to?”
I shook my head and tried to explain, "No, I want to be able to enjoy the process, not just the result." ”
However, this explanation doesn't seem to impress Benjamin. He always moves faster than me, and he always moves faster than me. His impatience made me question whether we were really suitable.
Every time I tried to share a little bit of my life with him, he always eagerly urged me to end it as soon as possible. His anxiety and impatience upset me and made me start to wonder if he really cared about me.
Benjamin, can you slow down and give me some time to get used to it?"One day, I finally mustered up the courage to tell him what was on my mind.
Benjamin was obviously stopped by my question, and he looked at me as if he didn't know how to answer. It was the first time I felt lost and the first time I felt so far apart.
And just like that, I started to rethink my life, what do I need?What do I want?I found that what I needed was someone who understood me, respected me, and gave me security.
So, I made the decision and I chose to leave Benjamin. I told him, "Benjamin, I hope you can find someone who can keep up with you, I can't be that guy." ”
In the days that followed, I met Xiao Li, who was gentle, kind, and most importantly, respectful of me, and he gave me enough time and space to process my emotions.
Liu Jing, I will wait for you, no matter how long you need. Xiao Li's words made me feel warm and made me feel safe.
Now, I'm glad I made that decision. Because I don't feel safe with a boy who is impatient. What I need is someone who understands me, respects me, and gives me a sense of security.
So, I hope you can also find your own rhythm and find that person who is willing to walk slowly with you. That's my story, and I hope it inspires you. Don't change your pace because of other people's impatience, keep your own pace, and find someone who really suits you, is the most important thing.