Sammi Cheng April 16, 2023, the curtain call night of the Hong Kong Film Awards.
The suspense is repeated, and the 23-year watch finally turns into a laurel, Zheng Xiuwen smiles at the honor, wearing a low-key black dress with curves, which fits her six-hour fitness mania day after day.
The award presenter Andy Lau hugged her tightly, and Sammi Cheng turned around, tears raining down.
In an instant, the grievance swept over her face, and then, she adjusted her emotions and clenched the stage with both hands, as if the hardships of the past could be solved at this moment.
"The road to dreams is very difficult, sometimes really bumpy," she says. Please remember that at this moment, dreams belong to those who never give up and persevere. ”
Thanks to his family, mother, sister, and younger brother, but only her husband Xu Zhian was not mentioned.
In the end, Sammi Cheng said sincerely and humbly: "There may be opportunities in the future, and I am willing to contribute a 'service' to Hong Kong films and cutting-edge directors." ”
The word "service" is like a fresh wind, which deeply shakes people's hearts.
A movie queen with decades of masterpieces, in the face of the decline and unknown future of Hong Kong films, still has a "service" mentality, which is intriguing.
In order to maintain the state, I have not tasted a full meal for decades;
was laughed at and was not good at dancing, but he practiced dance tirelessly for 96 hours;
knew that her husband was cheating, but she still kept the turmoil calm, and even blessed Xiao San, because "everyone should have a chance to start over".
Since 2001's "Lonely Men and Widows", she has been nominated for nine Academy Awards, and finally won this award when Hong Kong films are in a deep trough.
She burst into tears.
The entertainment industry is pregnant with countless divas.
Faye Wong has had a smooth life and has never humiliated herself, even if she and Li Yapeng have a room that she can never set foot in in her marriage.
Yang Qianhua, who is frequently compared with Zheng Xiuwen, was known as the "Red Pavilion Meng Jiangnu" because of the choked concert in her early years, and now she has a happy marriage, a happy family, and a sustainable career.
Even the unlucky Gillian has a real moment of rewarding the male anchor with 40,000 yuan and going out on the street intimately with suspected same-sex close friends.
Only Sammi Cheng.
Around her is always a cycle of hard work, self-motivation, and self-discipline, and then a cycle of collapse and hard work again.
Too tired. She has a song called "Mountains and Valleys", a cover of the Canadian-Chinese Lin Yikuang, who has no work contract for five years and can't withdraw 100 yuan from the ATM.
You live happily and I try my best to survive.
A few people were on the top of the mountain overlooking my tiredness.
Desire to be fulfilled and strive to be a man who is afraid of panting.
But the end hangs on the edge of the sky....”
This kind of state of mind where the end point is out of reach, and even survival is a problem if you work hard is so suitable for the superior queen Zheng Xiuwen.
She came back to the concert after being depressed, took out a cheat sheet in her pocket, and sang "Mountains and Valleys" word by word.
The voice is trembling and hoarse, and the frustrated lyrics of "I insult survival" and "but the end is always hanging in the sky" are deeply expressed, and this scene itself is very unique.
The stars are dressed in brocade clothes, gorgeous and dazzling, but when they see Zheng Xiuwen, they pay more attention to her slender figure, thinking of her eight-kilometer long-distance run every day.
There's only one word in my head: not easy.
This body anxiety has been with her for more than thirty years.
Zheng Xiuwen, who debuted at the age of 16, was in the early 90s.
The beauty of the Hong Kong entertainment industry is like a cloud, which is the pinnacle of the music industry, and it is also the most controversial moment.
She once performed on the same stage with another new flower, Zhou Huimin, wearing the same costume, Zheng Xiuwen felt that her body was huge, and in her eyes, she was twice the size of Zhou Huimin.
On that day, I made up my mind, and "people should be ashamed and courageous".
Like the shape below, is it that scary?
Not at all.
Zheng Xiuwen is very beautiful, especially when she is not too thin, with a round face with long wavy hair and big earrings, full of Hong Kong atmosphere.
But she didn't like it.
In Hong Kong, thinness is beauty, Joey Yung is often not allowed to eat, and Sammi Cheng is masochistic, Zha Xiaoxin once broke the news:
Sammi Cheng's lunch consisted of just a few carrots and celery leaves.
She herself admitted that once she fainted from hunger, and her mother brought a bowl of porridge, but she didn't eat a mouthful, and a bite made me fall to death. ”
Sammi Cheng's work intensity is extremely high.
She is not good at dancing, but she has to raise her arms and sing;is not very good at acting, but he must continue to tap his potential.
Every time I step out of my comfort zone, I spend it fighting.
Sammi Cheng's first film was "Flying Tiger Elite: Love in the World", which was nominated for the Academy Award for Best New Actor.
The actress of the year was Maggie Cheung, who won the award for "Ruan Lingyu".
Maggie Cheung has also experienced twists and turns, but she stood on the podium and said thoroughly:
Every time I won an award, someone muttered why it was her, I used to care about it, but now I finally figure it out.
The award is in my hands, whatever you want, I don't care. ”
But Sammi Cheng has never been so open-minded.
Her life was too hard.
Sammi Cheng's status as a diva is completely exchanged for her life.
Nominated for 9 Academy Awards, his mentality has changed from full of expectations to accepting himself as a chaperone.
It's okay to run with you, you run in front, and I accompany you in the back. ”
She witnessed Manshen's "In the Mood for Love" become a god, and saw Zhang Ziyi's comeback with "Mr. Gong Er" after seeing the trough.
There is also "Little Zheng Xiuwen" Yang Qianhua, after being sealed with "Zhiming and Chunjiao", even Zhou Dongyu, who was born in the year Zheng Xiuwen was nominated for the Newcomer Award, took away the trophy.
But it never took her turn.
Sammi Cheng self-reflected, believing that the problem was that she was stereotyped as a comedian.
So I tried to play a drama, playing a woman in a Shanghai alley, a field that I was not good at at all, and playing a selfish and sensitive tragedy of the old era White Tassel.
She thought it was a breakthrough, but it only turned out to be a box office cancer, causing herself to fall into depression that she couldn't work for three years.
Sammi Cheng should be a person with a very serious inner struggle.
At the peak of her career, she was wearing Nike eyebrows on the surface, but inside she was a long-term fasting and high-intensity work, which brought her a mental state that was almost collapsed.
Xu Zhi'an is the only place where she can relax and catch her breath.
She once said: Lovers have been together for a long time, and they are easy to be casual, and their tone has become a kind of injury, like a sharp arrow.
I hurt him the most at the beginning, I was very selfish at that time and often lost my temper. ”
Sammi Cheng later reflected that at that time, he was thinking about how to succeed and how to get to the top every day.
In a relationship with such a motivated person, the pressure must be enormous.
But Sammi Cheng is also a person who is very gentle with others.
Lu Yu interviewed her and mentioned the reason for the failure of "Song of Long Hatred", and she blamed herself and said that she should use dubbing because her Mandarin is too poor.
During filming, depression, eczema, and mumps came one after another, and the crew was forced to slow down the progress.
Zheng Xiuwen felt guilty and offered not to collect the balance and compensate for the production fee himself.
She pays too much attention to decency, has no calculations, but has a strong sense of morality, and although there are many easy paths in the world, she chooses the most difficult one.
A diva with a sense of tragedy is not only admirable, but also makes people feel a sense of distance.
Although he despises cheating men, from a psychological point of view, he understands why Xu Zhi'an, who has a mediocre career and an ordinary appearance, cheats.
He once kissed Han Hong, was infatuated with his assistant, and kissed Huang Xinying with a suspected close friend of the same sex.
Everyone's life is a science.
Xu Zhian cried and apologized at the press conference, for five minutes, the first sentence:
I felt humiliated, wrong, annoying, disgusting, and strange. ”
I'm a soulless, broken person. ”
Recalls what Sammi Cheng and Xu Zhian said when they got married in 2015:
Andy is easy to get along with, and the person who wants to change is me. ”
This may understand why Sammi Cheng chose to forgive Xu Zhian after being silent for 10 hours.
She is not a person who is obsessed with love, but Xu Zhi'an represents a part of her life of relaxation and indulgence.
It is Zheng Xiuwen who is high up and always perfect, and it is Xu Zhian who will make mistakes.
After decades of companionship, their souls live in symbiosis.
Recently, Sammi Cheng is going to hold a concert.
At first, it was said that there would be 8 games, but later it was increased to 13 games.
However, at the critical moment, she got yang, and the sequelae were serious.
In the vlog she said:
It's really hard because I have a cough every night, I have to pour tea and water, and I have to pat phlegm. Two or three nights I coughed so much that I had to go to the emergency room. ”
Recently, Xu Zhian's brother participated in the audition of "The Voice 2", and complained in the interview that Xu Zhian "sent him a text message and he didn't reply". Zheng Xiuwen also responded, she said that it was because she was too sick and Xu Zhian was too busy to reply to her brother, but "we are all very concerned about him."
Do you understand?
In the relationship between Xu Zhian and Zheng Xiuwen, Zheng Xiuwen needs Xu Zhian more.
Like Zhou Huimin, Ni Zhen, Tony Leung, Carina Lau, they have found the most suitable mode for getting along with each other, and in decades of common memories, the so-called derailment has become almost a trivial matter.
That's what marriage is.
Both of them were polished into completely different shapes in their marriage, and finally reached a state of close fit.
Andy Lau said something to all the female stars before the awards, and only said to Sammi Cheng:
I don't have much to say, we love you. ”
May you love yourself too and find joy in thorns.