Title Writing is the best medicine to smooth out emotions
[The expected beautiful marriage encounters the embarrassment of reality].
My husband and I were introduced to each other by others, because at that time both of us reached the age of talking about marriage, and my husband gave me the impression that he was also very down-to-earth and reliable, plus he was also very active, so we knew each other for half a year and got married.
The in-laws' house belongs to the old house in Xicheng, and after a long time, ** decided to renovate and reinforce, in order to enjoy the additional subsidized rent, the in-laws came to live with us.
And when I complained indignantly about my mother-in-law's various behaviors, I was not in a good mood, and I often couldn't get used to my mother-in-law, pointing fingers at my mother-in-law's various bad behaviors, and living unhappily every day in all kinds of trivial events that I couldn't get used to. 
[The arrival of the child is joy, but also the deepest pain].
I was pregnant with twins, and when I was born, I had a uterine delivery, and the incision was very painful after the operation, and I didn't tie the abdominal belt when I got home, because as soon as I tied the abdominal band, the incision hurt. After I was discharged from the hospital with my two children, although I was prepared, after all, it was my first time as a mother, and I was a little busy.
My mother-in-law also helped with it, but it was really different from the era when she took her husband before, and there were many ways to take care of children, which we really couldn't accept.
For example, before she was born, she advocated the use of diapers, and bought a lot of cotton cloth, which was cut to the size of diapers and prepared. But when the 2 children came home, not to mention diapers, even diapers needed to be changed frequently, and they couldn't be busy at all.
Often this diaper is washed and not dried, and the one used is wet, and the balcony at home becomes a diaper display rack, all kinds, all colors, after all, it is 2 children, and they have changed diapers for a few days, and then they really can't do it, so they resolutely use diapers. This time, my mother-in-law didn't speak anymore!It was a hard slap in the face, and I was so relieved!
Both children have to drink milk, usually one falls asleep after drinking, the other has not finished drinking, the one who drank before wakes up again, and continues to drink, I feed the two children day and night, physical exhaustion and postpartum anxiety are clouded together, especially painful. During the confinement, I started to quarrel with my mother-in-law either without a word, or I was silent, and there was an undercurrent of black pressure in the air in the room at that time, and my husband who was caught in the middle was also very uncomfortable. The deepest impression is to give the child a hundred days, in the morning I was playing balloons with my husband, I cried and told him, when the child grows up, I will definitely go out, if you don't agree, divorce, anyway, you can live it, you can't pass it. 
[April 2020,Writing records allows me to enrich the beautiful version of my lifeI began to record my life on ***, the bits and pieces of feelings in life, what I saw, heard, thought, about my children, about my husband, about myself, about my in-laws, I would write on ***. Slowly, as I recorded more and more of my content, I noticed that my emotions eased a little. For example, when I have an emotion, I lose my temper at the time, but I analyze my emotions in the form of a record afterwards. It is also through reflection and recording that I have seen the goodness of my husband, my own goodness, and the difficulty of my mother-in-law. My husband is a big man, under my various suppression, he can still treat me as well as he did at the beginning, even if I am unreasonable during my confinement, he will not give up, what can I do, let my husband love me so much?Mother-in-law, a woman who doesn't feel love in her original family and can't get love from her husband, works hard for this family, what reason do I have to ask her?Writing and writing, I became clearer and clearer