An ordinary 36-year-old married lady. Beneath this seemingly calm exterior lies a secret that makes me miserable. Yes, you heard it right, I cheated. Every time I go on a business trip, I cheat on my husband.
I was born into an ordinary family, my parents were working-class, and I was taught to be a "virtuous and virtuous" woman from an early age. I worked hard to Xi and got a job with a company after graduation. Although it is not a high salary, I have always tried to maintain a work-family balance. My husband is a teacher and we have two lovely children.
It was my first business trip, and after the conference, I was walking alone on the streets of a foreign land. Suddenly, I felt a sense of loneliness and loneliness. At this time, a man walked up to me and started chatting with me. He is a very mature man, and he exudes confidence and charm in his conversation. We had a great chat and he asked me to have dinner with us.
At the dinner table, he told me about his entrepreneurial experience and outlook on life. I was fascinated by his story and felt that I had an indescribable understanding with this man. After dinner, we went to the hotel and it all happened.
Since then, I can't help but think of that man every time I go on a business trip. I started cheating on my husband and telling him that I was going on a business trip abroad because of work, but I actually went to the man's city.
This behavior makes me feel guilty and painful. I knew I was betraying my family and my marriage, but I couldn't control myself. Whenever I was with that man, I felt whole and worthwhile. But when I come home and see my husband and children, I feel so guilty and miserable.
I knew I was doing something wrong, but I couldn't help myself. I told myself it was just one exception, but I knew I was in the abyss. I started to hide from my husband and children, not wanting to face their questioning and suspicion. I became anxious and irritable and often hid in my room alone crying.
I thought about ending the marriage, but I didn't want to lose my family and children. I've also tried asking for help, but each time I tell myself that it's only a temporary difficulty and that I can overcome it. However, I knew that I had lost my self-control and that I had fallen too deep.
However, it was all discovered by my husband in the end. It was a fine weekend afternoon, and I met the man in a coffee shop. We were talking about plans for our next business trip when my husband suddenly appeared in front of us.
He sat quietly across from us, looked at us, and then took out our ** and information. My heart suddenly stopped beating and I knew it was all over. I was confronted with this man, the husband I had loved for so many years, and I knew that I had made a mistake that could not be undone.
Eventually, my husband decided to divorce me. I know it's the punishment I deserve, but I also know it's my choice. I began to reflect on my own behavior and decision-making process, thinking about how I got to this point. I began to accept my mistakes and responsibilities and try to make amends for the damage I had caused.
I also started to re-examine my values and outlook on life. I began to reorient myself in life and my goals and strive to become a better person. Although it was a difficult path to follow, I knew it was a process of growing up that I had to go through.
The story, while painful and sad, gave me an important lesson: we must take responsibility for our actions and have the courage to face our mistakes. Cheating is an irresponsible act that not only hurts our partner and family, but also has a profound impact on ourselves. We should cherish our family and marital relationships and not make decisions that we regret because of the impulse.