I suddenly figured it out, even if I like you again, I don't want it, because I don't have the courage to entangle you, and I don't have that attachment, and letting you go is equivalent to letting go of myself.
I used to think that liking someone was about giving unreservedly, and being willing to do anything for him. But now, I suddenly understand that this kind of liking will only make me humble and become no longer myself.
I've pestered you and I can't let go of it again and again, and that's because I really like you. But now, I don't have the courage to pester you, and I don't have the attachment. I understand that this kind of entanglement will only make me more miserable and more lost.
To let you go is to let go of myself. I don't want to worry about you anymore, I don't suffer for you anymore. I want to start my life again and find my happiness again.
I know, it's not easy. But I believe that if I work hard, I can do it. I will make myself stronger and more independent. I'm going to let myself regain that confidence and courage.
I will forget you and forget this relationship. I will allow myself to start a new life. I will make myself happier and happier.
Because I know that only in this way can I really let go of you and really let go of myself.