Some time ago, the 60th Golden Horse Awards came to an end, and Lin Qingxia was awarded the Lifetime Achievement Award.
Back in 1990, at the 27th Film Golden Horse Awards, Lin Qingxia won the Golden Horse Actress with "Rolling Red Dust".
The protagonists of this movie are Shen Shaohua and Zhang Nengcai, playing Lin Qingxia and Qin Han, but it tells the story of Zhang Ailing and Hu Lancheng, but Sanmao, who wrote the script, was thinking about himself and Jose.
In and out of the play, true and false, ups and downs, vertical and horizontal for decades, it will become a lifetime of catastrophe.
Shen Shaohua was born in a wealthy family, but material abundance could not fill the hole in her heart.
Losing his mother at a young age, his stepmother was mean, and his father's love was missing, Shaohua tried to commit suicide, but in exchange for his father's sentence "Leave her alone, she can't die." ”
The road was so long, and it was so long until his father died, Shaohua left home, and since then he has made a living by writing.
He and she, unfortunately, met in troubled times.
Zhang Nengcai, the Japanese puppet**, noticed her because of Shaohua's article, and he first sent someone to send a letter to ask for directions.
Shaohua flipped out the letter, lit a match, and looked at the envelope. Then pick up the extinguished match, trace your eyebrows in the mirror, purse your lips, and look forward to life.
At first, you were careless, and I was a young man", although the body is far away, the heart has been moved, and a legendary story will inevitably happen.
The first time he came to the door, he gave her a mud tiger - her mother had given her when she was a child, and she mentioned it in her **.
Although the gift is small, Zhang Neng should have spent a lot of effort to probe and speculate behind it, and the middle of the balance was accurately grasped, and the young and sluggish Shaohua was firmly moved by him.
Married middle-aged men get better and can lift women to the sky. That thoughtfulness and thoughtfulness have been tempered for many years with another woman(s) of women's ears and temples, and they are perfect and flawless.
Nengcai tightly pinched Shaohua's seven inches, admired her, pitied her, filled in the fatherly love and sense of security she lacked since childhood, and then became her confidant in thought and art.
Shaohua, who was informal, became very low and low under the gentleness, carefulness and consideration of the talent, and even the hug was buried in his wide arms with low eyebrows, and he leaned his neck and said love words to him happily.
Shaohua stepped barefoot on Nengcai's leather shoes, and the two hugged each other and gently shook the man, slowly dancing from the room to the balcony.
The big red shawl fluttered in the sunset, wrapping the two together, covering their heads, kissing deeply, and gluing.
At that moment, time froze.
Do happy things with lovers, don't ask if it's a catastrophe or fate", despite the surging floods outside, lovers in troubled times only need this moment of tranquility and warmth to offset the loneliness and desolation in their hearts.
The present world is stable, and the years are quiet", it is also an unrealistic extravagance, I dare not think about it, I dare not ask for it.
However, when a woman loves a man deeply, body and soul are inseparable. After a long time, I moved my true feelings, and I had the heart to stay and replace them.
Shaohua handed over all the eight-character letters to Nengcai and asked him if he could get married.
Wise and insightful, he can't avoid such a magic barrier.
When a man reaches middle age, he is like a blue lake.
Looking at the lake and mountains from a distance, the water is rippling, which is quite charming, but is there a school of fish frolicking or deep in the sludge under the lake, and you will see it clearly for a while?
They easily subdued the hearts of little girls who did not know the world with half a lifetime of personal experience, and complained about how their married life made him miserable, and how your appearance made his life more glorious.
Others sound strange nonsense, but a woman who has fallen into the fog of emotion believes everything.
But on closer inspection, the meaning of his words could not be clearer:I love you very much, but I can't marry you, please be my **lover for life.
In their hearts, there is a clear line between interests and love, and they don't do stupid things to give up the career they have worked hard for half their lives for love, and to give up a life that tastes the same as chewing wax and is peaceful.
No matter how much you love him, you have to leave some room for yourself, and if you are serious, you will lose.
Zhang Neng is attached to the Japanese puppet **, and after the defeat of Japan, his good days have come to an end.
In a hurry, this selfish and cowardly man left Shaohua and came to the countryside to avoid danger, so the wind and rain behind him all poured on Shaohua.
The neighbor woman knew that Zhang Nengcai was gone, so she led a group of people to make trouble at Shaohua's house, robbing and smashing.
How could Shaohua ever see such a battle? Fortunately, her best friend Yuefeng came, and she drove them away. Boss Yu, a neighbor, also came, and he rushed into Shaohua's house with a knife.
In fact, Boss Yu has always had a crush on Shaohua, and he wanted to make clothes for her when he got good materials, but he didn't dare to give them to her.
This stormy house is uninhabitable. Shaohua had no choice but to pack up all his belongings, take risks, and travel thousands of miles to find talents.
Bumpy along the way, energy is found. At that time, the talents were poor, and even pulling a cloth for Shaohua became a luxury.
Shaohua sensibly only bought a few gadgets, but when he went back to his rented house, he heard him call the landlady "little fool". She originally thought that the "little fool" was her own intimacy.
I have survived many hardships and hardships, but I was beaten by this sentence of "little fool" and lost face, and I was physically and mentally exhausted.
Neng Cai hurriedly stroked his chest and comforted Shaohua and said, "Here, you are more important than her." ”
This is true, but a man's body and soul can be easily separated. This is especially true for talents, but as long as women can be used by him, he can be good with them.
And for women, who wants a comparative result? The love that a woman wants is unique, who else is me, and it is the only pet and exclusive love that only allows me to be called a "little fool".
Besides, what woman can tolerate the man in her heart to tell the love words she said to another woman?
Shaohua decided to leave. It was raining outside, and she was able to help her hold an umbrella, but Shaohua didn't look back: "I, Shen Shaohua, don't need others to hold an umbrella for me!" ”
The Si people are alone and haggard. It was still Yuefeng, who found Shaohua in a basement full of water, only to see that her face was pale, and her body was shrunk like a remnant leaf in autumn and winter.
Yuefeng fed Shaohua chestnuts, and Shaohua said "The heart was eaten by a dog". Yuefeng laughed, but the two couldn't help crying.
Born in troubled times, it is difficult to be a man, and it is even more difficult to be a woman.
Because human nature is selfish, what we think is deep and righteous will be wiped out at some critical moment.
No matter how good the relationship is, it can't compete with the change.
Protect your heart, leave some leeway for yourself in everything, and don't deliberately pursue a certain relationship, so that you won't let yourself be bruised.
On the eve of the end of the civil war, Shaohua and Nengcai were reunited.
She permed her hair, wore a cheongsam, and drank and ate with Boss Yu in a high-end restaurant; He was unshaven and depressed. After a long absence, Shaohua couldn't help but chase him out.
Neng Cai stretched out his trembling hand and wanted to touch Shaohua's face, but Shaohua subconsciously avoided it; But seeing Nengcai's painful eyes, she still couldn't help but caress his cheek: "How did it happen like this?" ”
Even though he had been hurt in every way, Shaohua still couldn't let go of him in his heart. In the end, it is a woman.
But at that moment, Shaohua remembered Yuefeng who died in the dark night, she slapped it and told Nengcai that Yuefeng was dead, and it was she who changed her clothes, took off the bullet casings one by one, and then dug the grave with her own hands.
Neng Cai's heart ached, he hugged Shaohua like a life-saving straw, and told her that he wanted to start over with her.
At this moment, someone came to search his body. The two could only watch from afar through the crowd.
Neng Cai anxiously mouthed at her, "I! Love! You! He knew that if he lost this opportunity, he would continue to be alone.
He's going to grab her, and...What will happen in the future, who knows? He only needs to be here and now, in this life and this life.
At this time, someone discovered his true identity and planned to expose it in public, but Shaohua stepped forward and acted a pungent show to save him.
In the troubled times, Boss Yu finally exchanged gold bars for two ferry tickets, and planned to go with Shaohua.
But when it came to the end, Shen Shaohua gave his ticket to Zhang Nengcai. The two snuggled tightly, knowing that if they parted, the future was uncertain, and life and death were unpredictable.
Just as Shaohua and Nengcai were parting with each other, Boss Yu turned around and found that Shaohua had not gotten on the boat, so he jumped off the boat and squeezed to her against the surging **.
Boss Yu knew the affection of Shaohua and Nengcai, and he comforted Shaohua not to be sad, and he would be able to come back in three or four years.
He asked Shaohua to rest assured, saying that he would not think anything wrong about her, and said that he just wanted to take good care of her before that.
Boss Yu didn't get on the boat and stayed with her. After three or four years, Nengcai naturally did not come back. Shaohua died, and he didn't see talent.
Looking back on the past hundred years, many years later, the white-haired Zhang Neng went to find news about Shen Shaohua. It turned out that Shen Shaohua fell into the sea and almost died, and was later rescued by the People's Liberation Army.
In the end, Shen Shaohua died alone in an era of turmoil. Speaking of which, she exchanged her life for Zhang Nengcai's life.
Shaohua's desperate love for someone is moving, however, is such selfless love really worth it? Love, is it really not worth it?
However, when Shaohua dragged all her belongings to find Nengcai, the hurt caused to her by Nengcai's emotional infidelity was real; In the troubled times, he was the one who left Shaohua and fled alone.
The selfishness and cowardice of talents, how could Shaohua not know?
It is this man, in the name of love, who constantly does things that hurt Shaohua. It is also this man who makes Shaohua love and pain, and miss him for a lifetime, but he is willing to be eaten and wiped clean by him.
The authorities are just confused, but others look at it strangely and feel distressed.
There is one kind of person in the world who is most likely to be hurt, and that is the person who is too emotional, because he has no reservations.
We can be naïve, but we must not be ignorant; We can be sincere, but we must not be ignorant of people's hearts.
Never give out your sincerity casually, your lover only loves seven points, and you have to keep three points for yourself.
At the end of the film, the wind, the snow, and the little black dot-like Zhang Neng walked alone in it.
Zhang Ailing's desolation, Sanmao's fierceness, aren't these the desolation and loneliness of life that each of us has to face?
Back then, "Rolling Red Dust" was filmed in Changchun, and at that time, Lin Qingxia and Qin Han were still in love.
This is the last time they will work together, just like the last separation of Shaohua and Nengcai.
Life is like this, there have been intersections, there have been tacit understandings, but in the end they still forget each other, and even die of old age.
The rolling red dust is the helplessness of human nature, and it is also the involuntary body under the coercion of the times.
Only those legends, with a faint whisper, are passed down forever.