Foreword
In the autumn of 1966, on the shore of Taiping Lake in Xicheng District, Beijing, Mr. Lao She committed suicide by throwing himself into the lake, completing his turbulent life. What is left to the world, in addition to the regret and dismay of some people, the "cheers of victory" of some people, and the reflection of future generations on that period of history, of course, there are also his immortal works.
Before reading "My Life", my impression of Lao She was still in "Winter in Jinan", and even his famous "Teahouse", "Longxugou", "Four Worlds in the Same Hall" and "Camel Xiangzi" only had a general impression.
It is only now that I truly appreciate his charm as a "people's artist" and "language artist".
He is a literary master, but he was born and raised among the common people, he has experienced the helplessness of losing his father, and experienced the hardships of orphans and widows. Therefore, his works are all spokespeople for the lives of the people at the bottom, and experience poverty and struggle together.
His words are the common words spoken by the people around you and me, and they come into my heart so easily. Or make people smile, or prick people to the point of pain.
Just like Cao Yu commented on him"The language in the work is not a single flowery phrase, but it is moving, and its depth and beauty are often indescribable.
This book is a collection of short stories, and when I read it now, I can still feel the irony and hints of human reality contained in the words.
Is it unbearable, is it inexplicably heartache?Anyway, after reading it, the whole world is different.
Today I read "My Life", in which the protagonist represents the life of thousands of ordinary people, generation after generation, and the cycle ...... over and over again
Is there a shadow of you, too?
Beginners
* In the beginning, his life passed like this.
To this day, I don't know his name, only that he has been a patrol officer for half his life, and in the end he is nothing, as if he is going to die.
He has some knowledge, can read, and can speak. He felt that he was completely capable of being an errand. It's much better than those who can't even say a whole sentence.
It's a pity that he has no relationship, no way, and can't be a bad guy. At the age of 15, he was sent to work as a pastemaker, which was a craft at all.
When a rich person dies, just pasting some paper cars, paper horses, and soul-attracting flags can support his family's Hukou, and besides, don't you need to pray to God and worship Buddha.
In addition, you can also paste a window, ceiling or something, although dirty, but you can make a living.
After three years as an apprentice, he lived like a grandson, he said"To survive so many years, the stubborn people have to be soft, and the soft people have to be hard......Like striking iron, whatever you want becomes something. ”
He was tempered with a good temperament, amiable, shrewd, lively, and warm-hearted. Just the majority of your people.
In his words, the craft did not bring official positions and property"But he made my life so interestingPoor, but interesting, a little human. ”
What more could you ask for?
Life changes
He married a daughter-in-law and had a son and a daughter. He will hurt people, remembering that his daughter-in-law gave birth to two babies for him, he feels that he can't be too good to her.
However, suddenly one day the daughter-in-law ran away with his brother, leaving behind two little dolls without a mother.
Now, how embarrassed he is, being called "Wang Ba" by the people on the street, who is more unlucky than losing his wife.
It turned out that such a calm, kind, and warm-hearted person suddenly had a hole in his heart. When I'm happy, I'm a little sad, I want to laugh, but I'm always in tears
My wife ran away, and life was even harder. Dismantling superstitions, there are fewer rituals of ghosts and gods;Housing conditions improved, windows were replaced with glass, the roof of the shed was plastered, and the paper did not need to be pasted. The work is also not working.
He changed his career. You can only go forward along the road of survival"Life is like a train, the track has been set, you don't just follow the track. ”
Changing careers halfway through
He became a patrol officer, which was decent, but he was too condescending. Look at him, "The waist is straight, he looks beautiful, he is young and strong, he can speak well, and he has to read and break words!."This is a lot of qualifications, and one person is worth six yuan!”
In addition to eating and drinking, I can leave two pieces every month, and I have to fill the mouths of the two little dolls.
He saw that those police officers couldn't speak well, and they couldn't count, but they were regular workers. And he, if he dies, he is only an "auxiliary policeman", where to be reasonable. It doesn't matter who let his ancestors for several generations, he doesn't have a favor to rely on, society is so realistic.
It's boring to do it, it's a pity to throw it away, you can only mix it up for a day, or you'll be hungry.
The patrol police, nominally to protect the peace on the street and the safety of the people, in fact, he is in charge of urinating everywhere or something. I can't do anything else, I just get by.
One night while patrolling, there was a mutiny, and a group of pigtailed soldiers shot and set fire to the streets in the middle of the night, looting things from various stores. He hid in fright, his teeth fighting.
They all had guns and they had guns in their hands, and all he had was a knife in his hand. He didn't dare to protect others alone, he still wanted to live.
Those soldiers scattered in the lively streets, killing people, setting fires and robbing things, and in the end only a mess remained, and the doors of the shops were open.
After the pigtailed soldiers left, the honest people also made a commotion, men and women, old people and children, came and went, and robbed everywhere. The shop that was not burned was also smashed open by them and robbed it all. Grain stores, tea shops, and department stores were all snatched up.
The owners of the shops did not dare to protect their property. They are afraid, people don't want their faces, the royal law is gone, what is it if they can rob things and kill people?They were afraid of losing their lives.
The soldier walked freely through the streets, with strings of gold and silver bracelets in his hands, and many other things of value. There are no patrols on the streets.
Later, he learned that the senior police officers had known about the mutiny in advance, but did not tell the "patrolmen", and waited until the morning, when the pigtailed soldiers had snatched their things and left.
The quiet streets were slaughtered, shops were looted, and the streets became garbage dumps. Even the meat pots, meat hooks, and oil plates in the meat shop were snatched away, and only an earthen platform remained.
A few people were picking up bits and pieces.
His commander came down, with a patrolman behind him, and he was in good spirits. The patrol quietly asked him to drive away those who picked up things, and the order came down!
He went outside the bunk and motioned for the women and children to leave.
After a while, "twelve soldiers and one commander held the token of rectification on the spot, and the gun was loaded with a bayonet." "The pigtails are here.
The situation was not right, and he hurried to warn those who were picking up things. Although there is some contradiction in my heart. "Even the butcher's wooden mound moved the people, which would not have deserved sympathy;But being killed by the pigtailed soldiers seems to be too wronged. ”
Before he could do anything, a fourteen or fifteen-year-old child was surrounded by guns, and in an instant his head was already hanging on a telephone pole, and his body was still moving, with a wooden board and an old shoe in his hand.
This incident subverted his cognition and exceeded his imagination. Gold, silver and jewelry can be snatched in the open, and the poor will die if they pick up an old shoe!A group of people who are still committing crimes one moment ago, and who are law enforcement people the next.
The hole in his heart has widened, and he has learned how to be an errand.
Severely beaten by society
After experiencing the mutiny, he felt that the people at the bottom were "not enough", and it was good to be an errand as long as they were confused.
He found that *** knot is a matter of course, and the bosses in the background are fine, even if they have to crack down hard, catch a few unlucky people, and do what people should do.
He understood that society does not need real patrol officers, and even a six-dollar errand is not worth his life.
Later, when he heard the gambling, he hid and walked, and when he saw the thief, he had to let the family leave calmly, so that he could be safe. Smooth, he also became the number one person among the brethren, because he was the strongest in ability and the most skillful in handling affairs.
People lost something and called the police, and after he went, he would tell people that your door was not safe, quickly change the lock, and guide them to install it in **safest;Tell someone to buy a puppy and keep it at home, it will work better than a big dog outside......We'll just send a few more people on duty in the future.
Then the matter was settled and both parties were happy.
* Yes, there were more officials, and they were transferred to become the personal guards of officials, earning six yuan a month's wages, watching the aunts and wives of officials rubbing a box of incense powder for fifty yuan, and also seeing that the neighbors sold the fat boy for forty yuan.
He is reluctant to eat and spend, but he still can't save the money for his children to go to school, and seeing that the children will not be better than him in the future, he can't change the fate of the next generation.
He said"People just don't get into the rut, and they can't pull out their legs for a lifetime. ”
He didn't have the courage to do it, so he jumped out of this rut and changed his way of life. There are friends here, there is experience, and if you don't live well, you can't starve to death, and you haven't left the ruthlessness.
I always think that there will always be a chance in the future!
For ten years, he became a first-class police officer, with nine yuan a month. He doesn't have a relationship, and it will end up like this.
The more I thought about it, the more worried I became.
A busy life
Surprisingly, at the age of forty he became a Inspector, but his life did not change. The only thing that has changed is that his children have grown up.
They have no culture, no relationship, and no good background. As a result, the daughter married the patrol officer, the son also became a patrol officer, and the daughter-in-law and brother and father were all patrol officers.
Just as a farmer's child becomes a farmer, and a worker's child becomes a worker'......
He thought that the child had raised ** and completed the task, and he would be able to make do with this errand if he kept it.
Unexpectedly, at the age of forty-five, a new director was replaced, and just because he had a beard, he was taken off ** and fucked off.
After 20 years of errands, I was brushed off with a sentence, think about what I have been busy with in this half of my life?!
He's not just right:
"When you are young and strong, you sell your life, and it is six or seven dollars a month. Your son, because you are a patrolman, cannot study and get an education. ”
"Your daughter, because you are a patrol officer, also married a poor man to eat nests. As for yourself, if you have a long beard, even if you are finished, you will not have a bronze pension or pension, and after twenty years of service, you will teach others to kick it out, like kicking away a brick that is in the way. ”I didn't save anything until I was fifty, and now I don't know how to live. "That's what happens when you are a patrolman. ”
When he is unemployed, it is even more difficult for him to find employment. If you don't have a pension and can't find a job, how will you live in the future?
Under the introduction of an official, he went to the director of a coal mine police station, and not long after, because he was too serious about his work, he blocked the financial path of his brothers, forgot that the "soup matter" offended others, and was kicked out again.
He went to Henan again to serve as a soldier of the salt anti-smuggling team, and he shaved his beard when he was old, trying to look younger. In half a year, he was promoted to platoon commander, paid off his debts, and broke a penny in half to spend, just wanting to leave a coffin.
Later, he had grandchildren, but he was not so happy, he said"The children of rich families are hope, and the children of rich families are burdens. ”He also had to help his son raise his son.
In order to make more money, his son also went to other places to make money. In order to save money, when I got sick but was reluctant to take medicine, my life was gone. In order to bring his son back, he spent all the coffins.
He was only fifty years old, and he had reached a dead end. Orphans and widows can't survive, and he can't even be a patrolman.
He took out all the housekeeping skills in his life to earn a nest for his grandson. He showed people vacant houses, sold vegetables to people, did small jobs, and moved ......A fifty-year-old man has the strength of a twenty-year-old.
He thought about his whole life, he had sold his strength to the public, and he was worthy of everything, but now he was waiting to starve to death, and he didn't even ...... a coffin after death
Extension
A good drama that has been watched n times can't help but remind me of "migrant workers who pretend to be tender", "retirees" who have no pension, and mid-life crises ...... workplacesChildren's education.
Not to mention that Mr. Lao She is the spokesperson of the poor people!Reading it at this time, even after a hundred years, nothing seems to have changed.
I remembered a story:
A reporter asked the ragged little sheep herd with a red face on the cliff
What are you doing?"He replied that he was herding sheep.
Asked again"What are you doing with sheep?"A"Sheep are herded and sold for money"。
Ask again"What are you selling for money?"Then answer, "Sell money and marry a daughter-in-law."
Life is such a reincarnation, marrying a daughter-in-law and giving birth to a baby, giving birth to a baby and herding sheep, herding sheep and selling them for money......
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