In the summer of 1946, the city of Guangzhou ushered in the birth of a new life, which is the hero of our story - Xu Guanying. Xu Guanying was born in a typical literary family, his father was an amateur erhu enthusiast, and often walked alone with the erhu in the streets and alleys of GuangzhouHis mother is an insider in Cantonese opera performances. Perhaps due to the influence and nourishment of artistic cells, this family has a total of 5 children, the older brothers are all personable, and the younger sister is gentle and generous. 
However, among this group of excellent brothers and sisters, Xu Guanying's existence is a little "not very social". He is mediocre in appearance, even worse than other children, and introverted, always playing by himself, and rarely interacting with people. "Why is my face so ugly?"Why do I look different from my older siblings?""The immature mind inadvertently planted the seeds of inferiority. Even the elementary school teacher looked at him with some disdain and ridicule, and would call him "unlucky Xu Guanying" in front of the whole class. This is undoubtedly the greatest harm to a child, and Xu Guanying subtly identified the bad label of "I am an unlucky egg". Xu Guanying, who graduated from high school, is facing the first turning point in her life. The family hopes that he can join the entertainment industry and develop his talent like his brothers. But the seed of inferiority complex in Xu Guanying's heart has taken root, and he believes that his appearance will become a stumbling block to his career development, and finally chooses to go to France and start a translation job in a French-language newspaper. 
Life in a foreign country is not as good as he imagined, Xu Guanying is physically and mentally exhausted by the high-intensity work, and the strange eyes of those French colleagues often make him feel very uncomfortable. "I really can't escape the fate of the ugly law, even in foreign countries. Xu Guanying looked at the moonlight and traffic outside the window, and a sigh rose in his heart. Occasionally, at night when he missed his hometown, he would dig out the family letter sent by his mother and read it carefully. Looking at his brothers' ** in the film and television industry, Xu Guanying will also fantasize about what kind of life he will be like now if he joins them. 
Maybe I shouldn't have given up on my dreams because of my looks, and I could have turned purple and let everyone remember my name. Regret always came too late, Xu Guanying chose to give up, he knew that the door was destined to be closed to him in this life. In a blink of an eye, at the age of 30, with the repeated encouragement of his family, Hui Guanying decided to give up his job in France and return to Hong Kong for development, and he chose to join the popular Shaw Brothers Pictures for a one-year actor training and study. "Can you pass the training?This question haunts Xu Guanying's mind from time to time. He understands that his appearance is very different from that of ordinary film actors, and it is not easy to enter the official cast pool through strict teacher screening. So every time he performs on stage, Xu Guanying is extremely nervous. He struggled to control the tremors of his body, took a deep breath and walked onto the stage, then immersed himself in the role. 
Sometimes the teacher will deliberately make it difficult for him to change the script on the spot. "I have to prove myself and I can't escape reality anymore!I secretly swore in my heart that Xu Guanying's attitude towards acting was unprecedentedly serious and hardworking. Finally, on the eve of the graduation ceremony in 1971, Xu Guanying saw his name appear on the list of graduates. This is the first positive affirmation he has received in his 31 years of life, and it is also the most important success of the "unlucky egg" Xu Guanying. Since then, he has walked out of the long shadow of inferiority complex and has become a professional film actor under the official Shaw Brothers. Shaw Brothers Pictures gave Xu Guanying the opportunity to realize his acting dream, starting from a supporting role, he slowly accumulated experience and popularity in various films. Especially in 1976, after establishing his own film company with his brothers, Xu Guanying gradually found the most suitable acting path for himself - comedy. 
He found himself very suitable for the kind of comedic characters who are honest, bullied, and have a simple personality. For example, in the classic comedy "Half a Pound and Eight Taels", Xu Guanying successfully created an image that makes people laugh and distress at the same time. This also made him greatly recognized in the hearts of the audience, and he was crowned as "Hong Kong's most proficient actor in comedy". In 1985, the zombie movie filmed with the popular superstar Lin Zhengying pushed Xu Guanying's popularity and praise to the peak. He interprets the role of Wencai in the film, which perfectly combines scary and funny effects, and is deeply loved by the audience. Even in the competition for the Academy Awards, Xu Guanying decisively rejected the nomination for Best Supporting Actor, he considered himself the protagonist of the movie and insisted on competing with Lin Zhengying. 
Rising all the way from a small role, Xu Guanying used his strength and diligence to prove to the world that he is no longer the "unlucky guy" who was bullied in the past. He found his place in the spotlight, shining brightly, and achieving hard-won success and applause. If Xu Guanying has achieved great success in his career, he is obviously not satisfactory on the emotional road. Due to her low self-esteem since childhood, Xu Guanying always dared not take the initiative to approach women. Even if he longs to have a bosom lover in his heart, when he meets a girl he likes, Xu Guanying still habitually chooses to escape. Until the age of 58, a loyal fan living in Japan Xiaoyang found and expressed his admiration for Xu Guanying through various channels, which was the small window that God finally opened, Xu Guanying mustered up the courage to accept Xiaoyang's overtures, and the two began a transnational relationship. 
Just thinking about the fact that he finally had a girlfriend, Xu Guanying was so excited that he couldn't sleep. He began to take the initiative to become warm and considerate, and would write long love letters to Xiaoyang between performances and send them to Japan. Regularly and Xiaoyang ** every week, listening to her call herself "dear Guanying" in broken Cantonese, made Xu Guanying feel unprecedented happiness. However, the good times did not last long, and Xu Guanying's inferiority complex and evasion were still with him. During a ** call, Xiaoyang proposed that he wanted to come to Hong Kong to watch him perform, but Xu Guanying panicked, for fear that others would recognize him as having a girlfriend, so he took the initiative to hang up**. 
In this way, he ended the relationship in his own way. Maybe Xu Guanying still failed to really ** the inner trauma and took away his own happiness again and again. One day in November 2011, 65-year-old Xu Guanying died suddenly of a heart attack in his most familiar home. Before his death, his heart was extremely complicated, full of regret and unwillingness. In his life, Hui Guanying embarked on the road of acting, growing from a small role to a well-known comedian in Hong Kong, which was an achievement he could not have imagined when he was a teenager. However, true happiness has never really come. The young man with low self-esteem who was afraid of being looked down upon still bothered Xu Guanying. It prevents him from boldly pursuing true love, making him choose to give up on the emotional road again and again. 
Xu Guanying vaguely understood that he was already old, and the rare opportunity was about to be completely lost. "I've been liked by so many people, I'm so cheerful and happy in the movie, but the real me is still a coward who doesn't dare to accept and strive for happiness. Xu Guanying has too much to say and too many regrets to tell, but it is already too late. He closed his eyes in grumbling and pain, and left the world softly with a stomach full of thoughts. Maybe in the next life, Xu Guanying will come back in another identity, and at that time, he must bravely fight against fate and never miss any happiness that belongs to him.