Marriage is like another mountain of life, overwhelming people's breath. Some people chose to persist in the face of this mountain, while others chose to flee. And my story is a story that I don't want to escape, but I can't escape.
In the past, I naively thought that marriage was just two people together, holding hands, and growing old together. It wasn't until I met my husband that I realized that marriage was not as simple as I imagined. Our marriage is like a bridge that is neither good nor inseparable, connecting me at one end and him at the other.
On our "bridge", life is extremely miserable. Our relationship seems to have moved away from loving and understanding each other as husband and wife, but complaining and blaming each other. We seem to have become Xi to each other's existence, but we can't really accept everything about each other. I wanted to escape from this "bridge", but I was afraid of breaking the hearts of others.
Once, I tried to escape from the bridge, but every time he got it back. I was afraid that he would get hurt, that he would leave me. However, I also know that if I continue like this, my own heart will also be greatly hurt. I started to think, what should I do to live my life?
I started to try to change myself, to try to understand him, to try to accept everything about him. I began to learn how Xi handle our relationship and how to make him feel my love and care. I found that marriage is not only about complaining and blaming, but also about understanding and love. I began to enjoy the process of this change, and I also began to enjoy my life after this change.
In the process of change, I tasted pain and sweetness. Sometimes I feel lonely and helpless, but when I see him become happier because of my change, a warm current wells up in my heart. I know that I am living my life well, and I am stepping out of my comfort zone and trying to face the difficulties and challenges of my marriage.
It takes courage and wisdom to live well in a marriage that you can't get away with and can't get better. We need to face our own fears and insecurities, and we also need to learn to understand and accept everything about the other person. It's a painful and sweet process, but as long as we are willing to try, we will definitely find our own happiness. Because I believe that only on the basis of true understanding and acceptance of the other person can we establish a true marriage relationship. In this process, we will find that marriage can also be a relationship of mutual growth and mutual support.
I hope that my story can shed some inspiration and encouragement to those who are going through similar difficulties. Whether you're struggling with an inseparable marriage or lingering in a relationship that doesn't work out, don't give up hope. Believe in yourself, believe in each other, and believe that time will make a difference. Remember, living yourself well is the first step out of trouble. Because only when you truly live your life can you have the strength to face all the challenges in life.