My name is Lin Xiaofen, I am 38 years old this year, and I have been married to my husband Li Qiang for ten years. We were both college classmates, and we entered the palace of marriage after three years of love. After we got married, we both worked in the provincial capital, and although our lives were dull, we were very happy.
My husband has a steady personality and cares about me and my son very much. Three years ago, a new colleague from the company, Ma Wei, was transferred from the Beijing headquarters. Ma Wei is tall and handsome, and his speech is humorous and funny, which is deeply liked by his female colleagues.
Once, Ma Wei and I were alone in the office and chatted about our private lives. Ma Wei told me that his wife was cold and out of shape, and their life was boring.
After hearing this, I sympathized with him and confessed to him that although my husband and I lived a stable life, we lacked passion. That night, Ma Wei drove me home, and he suddenly turned around and kissed me.
I was stunned, but I was also a little nervous and excited. After that, Ma Wei often asked me out to dinner, which I refused at first, but then agreed. We gradually developed a relationship, and occasionally secretly dated and opened a room.
This excitement of cheating makes me addicted, but I am also afraid of being discovered by my husband. Two months ago, my husband accidentally saw an ambiguous message from Ma Wei. He immediately became furious and asked me if I was having an affair.
I was overwhelmed with fright and desperately explained that it was just a normal friend. But my husband didn't listen, he grabbed my phone to look at the chat history, and then all the evidence was exposed.
He slapped me so hard that I couldn't stand still. Then, he smashed my phone to pieces, saying that our ten-year marriage was like this phone, and it was shattered.
I sat on the ground, crying heartbreakingly, and begged my husband to give me a chance, saying that I really knew my mistake and promised to be a good wife and mother in the future. My husband said with a cold face: "What cards do you still haven't played?"
So many years of relationship is over?”
I cried so hard that I suddenly had an idea and said, "My dear, if you really love me, test me." I'll find a friend to test you, and if you're not tempted, I know you really love me.
My dear was silent, and I hurriedly asked, "Do you think this idea is feasible?"It should be a chance to give our relationship a chance to start over. At last, my dear said, "Okay, just do as you say."
But I warn you, this is your last chance. I excitedly said, "Honey, you're so nice!".I knew you would forgive me!Then I asked my friend Xiaohong to help with this, she is beautiful and cheerful, and most importantly, I can trust her with all my heart.
Don't be angry yet, let me give her a ** to explain the situation, okay?* On the other end, Xiaohong smiled and said as soon as she picked it up, "Honey, are we going shopping on the weekend?"
I smiled wryly and said, "Xiaohong, I don't have time to go shopping now, something is wrong at home, and I need your help." Xiaohong immediately said seriously: "Honey, you say, if there is anything you command, I will definitely go all out!."
I took a deep breath and told her briefly about my cheating and the ridiculous offer to let her test my dear. There was silence on the other end, and after a few seconds, Xiaohong cautiously asked: "Honey, I can't help you, this kind of thing will hurt me and our feelings."
I said eagerly, "Little Red, I know it's not fair to you. But now my marriage with my dear one hangs a thread, you are my best friend, please save me!
Xiaohong was still hesitant, and I quickly added: "And dear he will definitely be fine, I know his personality." Please, Xiaohong, just help me this time!
* Both sides were silent. After a long while, Xiaohong whispered, "Honey, I understand your situation, since you trust me so much, I'll give it a try."
But be careful not to make a bigger mess. I said excitedly, "Xiaohong, I knew you would help me!".When things become clear, I will thank you very much!
Hung up**, I cautiously looked at my dear, and saw that he had been sitting on the sofa with his head bowed, and his expression was gloomy.
I whispered to him, "Honey, did you hear me?"Manman promised to do us a favor. I promise that I will prove my sincerity soon, and when that time we forget about this episode and start our lives again, okay?
He raised his head and looked cold: "You found it yourself, and I don't have the strength to trust any of your promises anymore." But since you promised to give it a try, I'll see how you perform.
I walked over to him and tried to sit side by side on the couch, but he immediately got up and walked away, slamming the bedroom door shut. The following week was very uneasy.
I didn't dare to go to Ma Wei when I went to work during the day, so I immediately went home to cook and wait for him as soon as I got off work. He was extremely cold to me, didn't say a word to me, went back to his room to work or watch TV after eating, and ignored me completely.
At noon on Saturday, I pretended to have something to do and went out and waited secretly outside the community. When the appointed time came, I saw Lu Man coming in his car from a distance and stopping downstairs in our house.
She straightened her hair and clothes before she mustered up the courage to walk through the door.
I wandered anxiously outside the door of the community, looking at the door of the unit from time to time, afraid that my husband would do something out of the ordinary. After ten minutes, I saw Lu Man running out in a hurry, sitting alone by the flower bed and weeping silently.
I immediately ran over and whispered about her. Luhmann looked up at me with tears in his eyes. She choked up and said, "Teacher Lin, I'm sorry, I failed.
Brother Xian's attitude was very tough, and I was asked to leave immediately, without even having a chance to explain. My heart sank, and I comforted her softly: "Manman, I didn't think it well and caused you trouble."
But Brother Xian didn't do anything to you, did he?Lu Man shook his head: "He just asked me to leave, and he was very resolute. Looks like he's still obsessed with you. I sighed: "It's me who did it myself, and I don't have the face to trouble you anymore."
During this time, please take care of Brother Xian more, what I did damaged his reputation, and I really don't want to go. ”
Lu Man wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes and barely squeezed out a smile: "Teacher Lin, don't say that, I understand your troubles." It's happened, and we still have to think about how to repair my relationship with Brother Hyun.
I sent Lu Man away and wandered around alone, thinking about how to save my husband's heart. When he came home in the evening, he sat at the dining table and was distracted. He looked up at me and said in a cold tone, "How's it going, how is it going?".
I replied tremblingly, "She has come, but you have rejected her." Husband, you don't know how happy I am, it shows that you still love me!The husband did not respond, and his face was cold as usual.
I plucked up the courage, walked over, knelt on my husband's lap, and hugged his arm tightly: "Husband, please give me a chance to start over, I know I was wrong, I will be a good wife and mother again!".
My husband broke free of my hand and said coldly, "What other tricks do you want to play?".I've seen through your little tricks. ”
I looked confused and stammered, "What does this mean, dear?"What conspiracy do I have?He narrowed his eyes: "Don't pretend, do you think I'll be deceived by you?".
I knew from the beginning that you were acting, and it was all your trap!"I listened to his accusations, my mind went blank, only endless fear and despair. "What are you talking about, dear?
What tricks and tricks I have, I really want to compensate you. I eagerly argued. He sneered: "Don't pretend, do you think I'll believe that you found a friend to seduce me to prove yourself?".
It's clearly testing my feelings for you, and you want to give me a dismount!"No, dear, how could it be?I'm really just trying to prove myself wrong, not trying to test you.
I cried. My husband narrowed his eyes and said, 'Okay, you've managed to provoke me, are you happy?'Our relationship is completely finished!I looked at my husband's cold and unfamiliar expression, and instantly fell into despair.
What can I do to convince my husband of my intentions?'Husband, I beg you to give me another chance to explain this matter to you!'I fell on my husband's lap in agony, tears pouring down my face.
My husband pushed me away and said coldly, 'Explain what?'I've seen you for who you really are, don't pollute my eyes again. Our relationship is written off from today, you can do it yourself.
After saying that, the husband turned around and went back to the bedroom and slammed the door slammed. I sat on the ground, tears welling up like a spring. My husband seems determined to divorce me, and he thinks I'm playing tricks on him, and I can't defend myself.
I live in the shadow of despair every day, but I dare not tell anyone the truth. My husband didn't say a word to me, and still went to and from work as usual. Every day when he came home, he locked himself in his study and worked alone on the computer until the early hours of the morning.
When I thought our marriage was coming to an end, one night, my husband suddenly came to talk to me with a solemn face. "We can't go on like this. He got straight to the point and said, "I decided to take your suggestion and agree to a divorce as well."
When I heard this, I couldn't believe my ears. I cried hysterically, "Husband, I never thought about divorce!".You're the one who suddenly wants to divorce me!
I love you so much, how can you do this to me!"You don't have to pretend anymore. He said coldly, "We've all come this far, so let's stop being hypocritical."
I'll arrange everything and tell you to move out. "No!I'm not leaving!I cried and hugged his legs, "Husband, what is the misunderstanding, you listen to my explanation!."
But my husband had lost his patience, and he violently pulled me away from my lap and went straight to the bedroom.
I lay on the ground in a daze, and I didn't know how long it took for my phone to ring suddenly, and I woke up. At first glance, it was a call from his friend Lu Man. She was also very surprised when she heard this, and comforted me and said, "Teacher Lin, you must have some misunderstanding.
Brother Hyun doesn't look like someone who would do such a thing. Is there anything else between you that hasn't been made public?Lu Man was silent for a while, and then said, "Teacher Lin, it seems that the situation is very serious.
I'll talk to Brother Xian again, maybe I can clear up the misunderstanding. "I hesitated, would I like my friend to take this risk?But now I have no choice but to try.
This time, the husband let Luman in. I held my breath and waited for dozens of minutes, and finally saw Lu Man running out in a hurry, his face ugly. I immediately asked her what the result was, and Lu Man said that her husband was resolute, believing that I had designed him, and did not give her a chance to defend herself, only asking her not to meddle in this matter again.
I felt hopeless. Lu Man comforted me that she couldn't help with this matter, so I could only calm down and discuss it with my husband.
That night, my husband returned home as usual and went straight into his study. I mustered up the courage and knocked on the door of the study, hoping to communicate with him again.
Beloved, please give me one last chance to explain. I really didn't plan to frame you, I just wanted to prove my sincerity. I pleaded.
The husband raised his head and his eyes were cold: "I'll repeat it again, don't deceive yourself." Our relationship has come to an end and I will arrange for you to move out as soon as possible.
I cried and said, "Then you at least tell me why you suddenly misunderstood me like this?".I've been trying to save our marriage. The husband sneered: "Do you still want me to expose your little tricks?."
I've seen you for who you really are. "What's that really about?"Please tell me!I asked excitedly. The husband was silent for a while, and finally spoke: "Okay, since we are going to divorce, I don't have to hide it anymore."
Actually, I already knew about you and Ma Wei a long time ago. ”
I was shocked: "You—how would you know?".He had a gloomy face: "On the night of the company's annual meeting last year, I went to the parking lot to pick you up, and I saw you sitting in Ma Wei's car and making love to him.
I wanted to rush up and punch him, but I held back, wanting to see how far you could go. "I was cold, he knew all this. This is clearly testing me, and I think I am smart!
Husband, I really didn't know you had found out a long time ago!I really want to make it up to you!I cried and explained. "That's enough, you don't have to quibble. He said indifferently"I've seen through your face a long time ago, we have nothing to talk about, and I will deal with the divorce procedures as soon as possible.
After two days, I finally accepted the fact that my relationship with him had broken down. I sent him a message saying that I agreed to a peaceful breakup, just asking him to give me a little more money for living expenses and let me go to see the children.
The divorce process was quickly completed, and I moved out of the house and lived alone in a rented house. My husband really gave me a living allowance and said that he would remit a part of my salary every month.
I thanked him with tears in my eyes, but my heart was like ashes. The day I left my hometown, I felt extremely sad. Xiaoqiang is ten years old and still doesn't quite understand what's going on. He cried and asked me why I was leaving, and I held back my tears and told him that my mother would go out and be back soon.
I called my friend Lu Man and confided in her about me and my husband. When Luhmann learned what had happened, she expressed her regret and comforted me not to blame myself and to cheer up.
I started a new life, still working in my old company during the day, and tried not to see Ma Wei. At night, I was alone in the rented room staring at the TV in a daze, and my heart was painful.
I often think about the good times I had with my husband, and I can't control my tears anymore. My husband and I agreed that we could go to see Xiaoqiang once a week. Xiaoqiang still can't understand why his parents suddenly separated, and I can't explain it to him.
Every time I left my hometown, the disappointed and puzzled look in his eyes broke my heart. After two or three months, I gradually accepted my new life. Occasionally, I will also think back to the incident with Ma Wei and feel that I made the wrong payment of the relationship at the beginning.
I began to think about whether to contact Ma Wei, but every time I thought of Xiaoqiang and her husband, I dispelled the idea. One day, Lu Man suddenly called me **, and his tone was very excited.
She said that Brother Xian found her and offered to meet and talk. I was taken aback and asked her to go and see her husband and help me understand what he was thinking.
She was delighted to find that her husband's attitude had eased, and even took the initiative to express to her that he wanted to start over. He said that during this time, he has been reflecting and realizing that he had a lot of misunderstandings about me and that he had done something wrong.
I was so moved that I quickly asked my husband what he thought. Luhmann told me that my husband is willing to give us a chance to start over, but hopes that I can also prove myself in a different way, and I can't use that extreme method again.
I burst into tears. It turns out that my husband is also reflecting!This shows that he still loves me, and our relationship may start again!I excitedly discussed with Lu Man what I could do to get my husband to believe in me again.
I decided to write a letter to my husband first, writing about my inner pain and guilt towards him, and expressing my love for him. In the days that followed, I kept reminding myself to be patient and forgiving.
I started learning Xi cook my husband's favorite dishes, and I often brought him lunch. After work, I went to pick up Xiaoqiang from school, and then sent him to my husband's house for dinner. I feel that my husband's attitude is slowly softening.
Once, during a meal, he complimented me on the deliciousness of the foodAnother time when I sent Xiaoqiang to my husband's house, he took the initiative to invite me to stay for a meal. I gladly accepted and took the opportunity to express my apologies and love.
Although there is still a long way to go, I believe that with our efforts and understanding, my husband and I will be able to rebuild our marriage and regain the sweetness and tacit understanding we once had. This time, I will cherish my husband and this family even more.
With the joint efforts of both husband and wife, our relationship gradually eased. One day, my husband suddenly called me and said that he wanted to talk to me in depth. I was happy and nervous at the same time, afraid that I would say the wrong thing.
On the day we met, I wore my husband's favorite clothes and made his favorite dishes. When I saw my husband, I was so excited that I almost cried. How I miss his face and voice these days.
My husband's face was a little tired, but his eyes were no longer so cold. I sat down cautiously and waited for my husband to speak first. "Xiaofen, are you doing well during this time?
My husband asked with concern.
I smiled and said that everything was fine, and I adapted well to work and life, so that my husband could rest assured. My husband's expression softened: "That's good." I'm sorry that I was cold to you and deprived you of your rights as a mother.
I thought about it a lot and felt like we could start all over again. I was so excited that tears came out of my eyes: "Husband, if you are willing to give me a chance, I will be satisfied!".During this time, I reflected on my mistakes every day, and I really knew that I broke your heart in the first place.
I promise to be a good wife again, you and the children are the most important people in my life. My husband sighed: "I also have something wrong, and I shouldn't be suspicious of you."
A family needs to understand and trust each other. As long as you sincerely change your ways, I can ignore my past suspicions. I said excitedly, "Husband, I swear I will only love you alone in this life!".
I'll prove it with my actions. My husband nodded: "Then let's start again." If you wish, you can pack your things and go home. "Of course I do!
I was so excited that I almost cried, "I'll go back and pack my bags now!"My husband was amused by me: "Okay, let's take our time, don't get too excited." I'll take you to pick up something when I get back.