That night, I had a dream that left me uneasy. In the dream, I saw my wife and a strange man meeting in a dimly lit corner, and they were having a good conversation.
Dreams make me feel uneasy, angry, and jealous. The loss of my wife had left me heartbroken, and I tried to hide the pain, but the dream kept me awake all night.
So I decided to dig up my wife's grave, and I needed to see her body with my own eyes to believe that she had really left me.
Eventually, I dug up the lid of the coffin and prepared to see my wife's remains, but when I saw her body, my body suddenly froze.
There were no injuries on his wife's body, and the cause of death was still unknown, but her face was so serene. I looked around until I returned to my wife's grave and found her gone.
I suddenly felt a sense of foreboding and hurried out of the cemetery. My heart was mired in contradictions and pain, and I couldn't let go of my wife's cheating.
Not long after, while sorting through my wife's belongings, I stumbled upon a letter that I had never seen before. When the envelope was opened, there was only a note filled with the wife's apologies and guilt.
My wife also had something to hide in her heart when she was alive, and I couldn't let go of her cheating, but at the same time, I couldn't let go of my thoughts about her and my attachment to my family.
After reading the letter left by my wife, my feelings became even more complicated. My wife's experience of cheating has undoubtedly taken a huge toll on my trust.
While I was hesitating, my son decided to postpone the date of his daughter-in-law's burial.
He said that his daughter-in-law did not say goodbye to me properly, and he must let her be able to say a good word to me at the moment of parting.
The son is so determined that he would rather disobey traditional etiquette in order to let his wife part well in another world. In the end, I had no choice but to compromise and not try to keep it any further.
This turn of events confuses me even more.
In the midst of the ideological struggle between me and my son, my daughter secretly began to pay attention to me, and she tried to find out my true thoughts from my eyes and every move.
My wife's cheating, my son's behavior, and my daughter's concern made me gradually realize the contradictions and antagonisms in the family, but in fact, my heart was constantly torn.
At the same time, I must respect my son's choice and give him spiritual comfort when he is leaving. Although my daughter was around me, I felt more and more lonely.
I know I still have a long way to go. I had to learn to let go, and I had to hold on to the family that I still had.
I hadn't done anything for a long time, and the pent-up emotions slowly faded and I began to calm down.
My wife's cheating made my heart twist, but when I was alone, I meditated and found some support in my life. But in my heart, there is still an inexplicable contradiction.
I know that I will never forget what I did at the cemetery that day, and it is a shame for my life. I can't forget the fact that my wife cheated on me, and I can't forgive her for hiding it during her lifetime.
The relics left behind after my wife's death revealed the truth of the matter, and I learned the essence of her cheating. She couldn't face me because of her sins, so she wrote her guilt into a letter and left it to me.
Looking at this letter, I suddenly realized that in the past, her indifference to me was only because of her guilt and unspeakable secrets about herself.
Family disputes are not the fault of one person, but of both parties. She never confessed to her cheating, and I didn't give her enough listening and understanding.
And these contradictions between us gradually became clear after she left. All this gradually freed my inner conflict, and I tried to accept it and try to forgive.
Now, I can only miss my wife quietly, and perhaps, this is the true meaning of life.