Ten years after graduating, I have experienced 11 companies
Six of the companies went bankrupt and remained unemployed for up to 16 months
The summer after graduating from university, I returned to my hometown in Hubei, with only my grandparents with me, and my hometown in June didn't feel hot. A few days later, one day at the end of June 2010, I boarded a train heading north to the capital and arrived at Beijing West Railway Station. Xiao Ming and Xiao Niu went to the train station to meet me, and before leaving school, we agreed to look for a job together in Beijing. Niu is in the original Xi unit Ningxia Building, and I live with Xiaoming in Chongwen District. At that time, I did not have a clear concept of what it was like to work and what society was like, and I understood that I was standing at a new starting point, and the good days of wandering around the campus all day long and being stupid and stupid had come to an end, and my bleak and chaotic social road had begun.
I don't have a deep first impression of Beijing that I have been thinking about for a long time, but I feel that this city is very spacious and the residents are friendly and enthusiastic. Xiao Ming and I started looking for a house to live in, and we traveled from the North Fifth Ring Road to many corners of the capital, and it was July, and the heat was almost heat stroke. In desperation, I rented a partition in a six-room room, a very small room rented 700 per month, I lived with Xiao Ming, only a table and a cloth wardrobe, we moved the bed out, so that there was more space, and the two of us made a bed and slept on the ground. Living there is really like a dark and painful nightmare, the small and confined space is like a cage, there is no Internet, there are a lot of roommates who are not easy to get along with, and countless nights are made impossible to sleep by the lewd screams of the depraved woman and the wild man ** next door. Xiao Ming seems to be jealous and hateful, and as a result, he is very unhappy with his roommate. But we have no other way, and if we want to gain a foothold in Beijing, we have to endure all these trials first.
We were looking for jobs through job postings in newspapers, and in mid-July I joined a waiter at a western restaurant in Sanlitun, Beijing, which was my first full-fledged job. Xiao Ming went to a cosmetics sales company to do ** marketing, we have a monthly salary of less than 2,000, and we are doing the most basic and humble jobs, but I didn't think so at the time, because it was good to be able to find my first job quickly, and the first time I started working was more of a sense of novelty, and the desire to learn Xi and support myself in anxiety.
The first formal job, induction training for more than a week, learned Xi Western food menu ingredients, practiced Xi ordering, serving dishes and a lot of complicated and trivial things. It was the first time to serve customers in a restaurant, the first time to have a conversation with so many foreign guests, and the first time to devote so much time and energy to work seriously and diligently. In the beginning, I went to work every day, and it was probably the hardest job I've ever had, I thought, but it didn't feel bad at the time, and it was okay. On weekdays, I spent nearly ten hours a day running around the restaurant, or walking around, or standing, practicing Xi serving dishes until my hands were weak and my arms were sore, and my legs were so sore that I didn't want to move after work. It didn't take long to find that the socks were worn out, and the newly bought canvas shoes were also worn out, and it was really a kind of work to be a Western food waiter.
I bought a second-hand bicycle in Beijing and rode it south from outside the North Second Ring Road to where I lived, not far from the Temple of Heaven. Every night shift, I would ride out of the East 2nd Ring Road to the East 3rd Ring Road, ride north along the 3rd Ring Road all the way to Sanlitun, and then cycle back after work. It's a bit far away, and usually I'm almost exhausted before I get to the dorm. From the East Second Ring Road Guangqu Gate to the west, it is a very steep and long slope, it is difficult to ride down the slope and brake, at night when there are few people and cars, I go against the wind, I feel rare relaxed. It was the lowest section of Guangqumennei Street, and then in 2012, when the rains in Beijing flooded, people and cars were flooded here, and I never thought that such a tragic scene would happen in the capital. The old bicycle was stolen later, so I took the night bus back on the night shift and walked from the East 3rd Ring Road to the East 2nd Ring Road after arriving at Shuangjing Bridge. The streets of Beijing seem to be empty and lonely only at two or three o'clock in the morning, or a few days before and after the Spring Festival.
After October of that year, Xiao Ming and Niu left Beijing and went back to Ningxia, and then I had no relatives, friends and classmates in Beijing. On the last day of 2010, I left my first job and found a job as a Xi copywriter in Shangdu Soho. In my last job, I poured almost all of my passion, hard work and patience into my last job, and probably because of this, I never regained the same mentality and spirit in my later work. On New Year's Day in 2011, I was alone in Beijing, and I didn't plan to go home for the New Year, and it was the first time I was alone to spend the New Year, so I thought it should be nothing. But when the Spring Festival was approaching, I was lying alone in my room, and I felt very uncomfortable when I heard the sound of fireworks celebrating the Spring Festival outside. Loneliness, deep, boundless loneliness, surging to swallow a heart and annihilate. After the ordeal, I resolutely stepped on the train home.
After the New Year, I changed my place and rented a room in the alley of Dongcheng Branch, opposite the Ningxia Building. Soon, the real Xi lost his job, and in those few days, he was very frustrated and began to doubt himself. It's certainly not easy to drift north alone, I think, but in my days in Beijing, I never thought of leaving anytime soon. For some reason, it seems that I have become obsessed with the city.
The second formal job was introduced by a colleague from the previous Xi unit, working as a brand assistant at ZTE-ITS. It was in Beijing in March 2011. I was in a new company, a new dormitory, and the feeling of not fitting in made me a little restless. I got up very early in the morning, because my residence is in Dongcheng, the company is in the West Third Ring Road, and it takes about an hour to take the bus. There are indeed a lot of people on the bus and subway in Beijing, and there are often traffic jams on the road, but it is not surprising that you have been in it for a long time. It is the first time I started to do formal office work, every **9 to 5, with the crowd on the road, in the car, in the office, and in the restaurant, I still feel quite satisfied. There are more than 100 people in the company, and I am in the brand department, which is a marginalized department that is not taken seriously, there are two people in total, and I can meet very few colleagues.
For a city like Beijing, I was destined to be just a passer-by. Originally, I planned to leave here after at least a year, but the company ushered in the opportunity to move its headquarters to Wuxi, so I decided to move to Wuxi with the company. Sooner or later, they will return to the south, and they will be closer to home. At the beginning of May, I hurriedly packed my luggage and belongings and took the train all the way south to Wuxi. At that time, I had been in Beijing for about ten months, and I had been in such a hurry that I had not had time to savor the life here, and I just left. I miss a sad family in Andingmen Inner Street in Dongcheng, and when I feel sad, I go there to eat a bowl of deep sadness noodles, which is so spicy that tears flow, and then I seem to feel really comfortable.
Living and working in Wuxi has been the happiest and most enjoyable time since I graduated. The work of the brand assistant is quite simple and easy, the office building is in Wuxi New District, adjacent to the suburbs of the city, ** there is not much traffic, and the surrounding environment is very good. Except for Nanjing, Wuxi is the big city with the best urban environment and greenery that I have been to so far. The dormitory is also in the new district, and the house is provided by the company, a large three-bedroom suite, Yao, Dou, Yan, Xiao and I live together. Every day, several of us go to work together, go to the cafeteria together to eat at noon, and go back from work together in the evening. After work or on weekends, I go to the market with one or two companions to buy groceries, go back to the dormitory, and cook and eat together. At night, some people watch TV, some play on the computer, and some people like me go to bed early.
Unfortunately, the good times in Wuxi didn't last long, and I didn't take the opportunity to go out and play more at that time. In fact, I want to live on the edge of such a city all the time, and live a leisurely and stable life. It's just a pity that I'm still going to resign. I have only been in Wuxi for half a year, and I am far from being familiar with this place, so I have to go to a place closer to home. People always love their families, and tired birds return to the forest, as if the more people grow up, the more they grow older, the more reluctant they are to leave their original home.
In the second year after graduation, I left Wuxi at the end of October and later came to Changsha, wanting to say goodbye to the past and start a new life in a new environment and an unfamiliar city.
The first time I arrived in Changsha, I spent a week alone in a small hotel, during which I looked for a house, rented a house, and began to look for a job after settling down, all of which I arranged independently. Although these things may not be bitter and tiring, this is the first time that I have come to a completely unfamiliar city completely independently, without any acquaintances, and I still know very little about Changsha, so I can say that I started completely from scratch. I was so determined to make a choice, so stubborn and persistent, but now that I think about it, I don't feel incomprehensible, and I don't understand why I had to insist on taking that path at that time. In fact, many things can never be understood by others. Those past thoughts and decisions may seem completely incomprehensible and unacceptable to oneself after a few years, let alone an outsider. Maybe now I don't have the courage and determination to go to a strange city alone and start over.
In the first two months of Changsha and the last two months of 2011, I have been looking for a job, and soon the Chinese New Year will be coming, and there is no hope for the job I want at the end of the year. After going home for the Chinese New Year, I came to Changsha again and stayed for more than three months, feeling that I had not experienced such a long vacation since I had been in college for a long time. The money accumulated from the previous job was almost spent, but I was fortunate to find an errand in the bank and do copywriting planning in the plastic brand studio. But the job didn't last long, and I left in less than three months. It was still spring, the best time of the year, and the boss organized the studio partners to go to a movie together to pick strawberries in the strawberry garden of the Agricultural University. I remember a very beautiful day, the spring in the suburbs, the scenery is infinite, and the sweetness and sourness of strawberries are indeed fresh and attractive. Facing the breeze and warm sun, among the flowers in the fields, we took a lot of ** together, and the journey was short and pleasant.
However, the blank period after leaving the job is a kind of torment, and every day is not clear how to live, and it feels like the whole person is beginning to be wasted. After more than two months of perseverance, I finally found a third full-time job as an event planner at Costar. At first, it felt good, the office environment was nice, the colleagues were friendly and easy-going, and the working atmosphere was very relaxed, so naturally I gradually liked it. Maybe because we don't have much time to spare, so I feel at ease, although I haven't learned much knowledge and skills, but this kind of comfort and leisurely haunts me so much. Born in sorrow and dying in peace, such a comfortable respite, like itching and poison, is an addiction that cannot be stopped, and indulging in it for too long will suffocate and degenerate. It's not that I don't understand this truth, maybe there will be reluctance after a long time, I still hope that this career will be smooth sailing, wind and water, I think if you persist for a while, maybe you can see the willows and flowers.
For more than a year, I have done some small activities at Costar, although not all of them are what I like to do, but what I have experienced can be regarded as a kind of gain. I went to Rucheng County, Hunan Province to do a theatrical performance, it seemed to be the end of November, I only remember that it was very cold in the small county town of that valley, and the company stayed together for several days, and everyone was very busy. At the end of the year, we were sent to play soy sauce at the Hunan Satellite TV 2013 New Year's Eve performance, although we were tired of running around the stage for a day and a night, but I really felt that it was worth it. Seeing many big stars with my own eyes and witnessing the scene of Hunan Satellite TV's New Year's Eve party is really an unforgettable experience. I also saw Lin Chiling at an event, and our group took a group photo around Sister Chiling, and after being excited, I couldn't help but sigh, no matter how dazzling the star is, he is also a mortal, ** so much idol worship.
I don't have a lot of business at work, but I enjoy my free time. During work, surfing the Internet, reading books, watching TV dramas, ......Passing my precious time in this way, it seems that going to work is not so boring and boring. I am reluctant to give up on this quiet and comfortable life, not only satisfied with such a simple and leisurely life, but also not satisfied with my meager situation.
At that time, I went to work at 10 o'clock in the morning and left work at 6 o'clock in the evening, and I didn't have to clock in and take attendance, so I don't seem to have anything special, so I can't remember what it was like at that time. There is nothing to do at work, the company's business is getting less and less, there are fewer and fewer colleagues, and there are only four or five people who often appear in the field of vision.
It's still open every day, facing the computer, surfing the Internet, reading books, watching, chatting, doing things when there's something, and basically in a state of free activity when there's nothing to do, but most of the time it's okay. Have a meal at noon, lie on the sofa and sleep, continue the content of the first half of the day in the afternoon, lock the door and leave at night. It's incredible to think about it now, although I still get a salary, how can I live like that wasted my time and wasted my life?
When a life becomes a Xi, there is no need for a little persistence, because Xi is used to thinking that he is like a fish in water, and he does not have the courage to make a little change, even if it is a little try. Of course, the subject here is just me, other colleagues, who have left for a long time, have little contact, and some people who rarely show up in the company, rarely show up a few times a month, they are the same as the rest of me, and a few loyal left-behind people still get paid every month, of course, they don't do anything, there is really nothing to do. The difference is that they hardly go to the company to work, while a few of us work on time every day, take people's money and people to eliminate disasters, even if there is nothing to do, we have to be on call at any time, as if our work should not be any different as usual.
Such an idea is very silly and naïve, in fact, I really don't want to leave, more or less waiting for something, a result, a relief and an end.
When I got to this job, I really wanted to be stable, do things in a down-to-earth manner, and be a serious person.
In 2014, I started working in March, and I thought I might start looking for a new job. But after all, there is no practical action, it may be that I don't want to leave at the most difficult time for a company, thinking that I can share the hardships and hardships, and maybe there will be a turnaround and improvement after getting through the desperate situation. It's a pity that it's just "maybe", ** and the movie story still have a little room for perfect or incomplete imagination, and the reality is often more cruel than the story.
During this time, I don't think I have gained anything at all, except for reading three famous books "Dream of Red Mansions", "Romance of the Three Kingdoms", and "Water Margin" in my spare time, I didn't watch "Journey to the West", I feel that ** is not as good as the TV series, I really don't like it.
In addition, I came across a handmade special feature on the Internet, which inspired me to make something by myself, so I spent more than 600 dollars to buy leather materials and tools on the Internet and started making leather goods by myself. I didn't expect that I was a person who was hot for three minutes, and the idea of rejoicing didn't last long, and soon it died down, and everything was as if it hadn't happened. But for about two months, I only made a short wallet and travel book, and then the leather and everything were put on the shelf, and I never touched it again. Although I hate this style of acting, I have to excuse myself for being too lazy, and when I have a mind, I must make the leftover leather into a leather bag by myself, so I still have a little expectation when I think about it.
Fortunately, the beginning is sluggish in the end, and those who are good at it love its benefits. Think about it.
At the end of July 2014, the company held a meeting, and the boss rarely showed up and announced its dissolution.
The reason why it has been delayed for more than half a year is mainly to wait for news from the boss, because at the beginning of the year, he said that he was working on other projects and hoped to start again. But waiting for all the bad news, obviously the company is losing money for a year or two and has no gain, the last half a year or so of the employee's salary is paid with the boss's personal funds, it is already insolvent, unable to return to the situation, I don't understand why the boss has to delay for so long, of course, I don't understand why I have to stick to the end.
In the last two or three months, the salary was not paid, and the boss said that it was because he had no money and was so in debt that he could not afford to support it. Of course, I was sad, but I also had dissatisfaction and resentment. Thinking about the fact that other colleagues don't show up for most of the year and still get paid, I stupidly wasted nearly a year waiting here, only to be empty-handed and nothing like everyone else. But what can I do, I have to admit it. To be honest, I still think the boss is very good, and now, although there are some reasons for the boss's own flaws and weaknesses, it is probably mainly because he can't help himself.
And so it ended, and we left calmly, pampered and unfazed, leaving no moment worth remembering or writing. Sometimes, parting is good, even though I don't like it.
This was the first place to disband, and it was still very lost at the time. After packing up a few simple things, I felt empty when I returned to the dormitory. I remember the first time I was forced to leave in Beijing a few years ago, walking alone on the gray road, I don't know how I spent those days, dizzy and empty, and my consciousness is drifting, and I haven't landed yet. Although I had a premonition a long time ago, and I was properly mentally prepared, I was still stunned and caught off guard when it came to the end.
After all, it's been two years, and the longest job I've done so far, it's a fake to say that it's hard to say, because we should have understood that the company has no room for turnaround, and no matter how many useless insistences we little people have, it's in vain and futile.
Sometimes, you should really know how to give up and let go.
To be continued) career