The little wild cat came running over and looked at me with its eyes open and kept watching. I called it and it came running over and rubbed me. The look on my face made me feel very relieved, and I felt that the effort for so long was really not in vain. ”
Yiwen recalls that a week ago, after participating in the final of the singer contest and winning the gold medal, he came out of the backstage of the competition after changing his clothes and walked outside alone to see the little wild cat, which is still very impressive. In the late autumn season, in an overgrown clearing, a wild cat with yellow and brown hair and Danfeng eyes ran from the root of the wall with its tail upright, and kissed her for no reason. She went to the commissary and bought a ham sausage, just for the kitten. It rushed up and bit off the wrapper, scribbling down on the tender sausage. So longing, with all your strength.
I've been hungry for a day, and I haven't eaten lunch, so I'll let you eat first. Eat slowly, don't choke. ”
She lowered her tired voice and looked at it with infinite pity, every bite, every look. In the tense brain for more than a month, there is only this moment, a moment when a hungry wild cat is enjoying a delicious meal. A ham sausage, a man who is gentle with it in the wilderness. In an instant, memories came like a tide, and in the cold twilight of the northeast in autumn, they spread out little by little.
The practice of singing.
Yiwen has loved singing since he was a child. When she was in elementary school, she sang and played by herself, and when she was in junior high school, the ** teacher saw her talent and gave her free tutoring during extracurricular activities every Monday. When I was in high school, I was fortunate to meet the second professional teacher, who took her to sing a song "Sing a Mountain Song to the Party" to the principal, and helped her win a special recruitment place in the school. The teacher assured the principal that she could be admitted to a key famous university, and kept calling ** to her mother, so that she must take the road of professional singing.
At that time, her grades were also good, and she didn't expect to slowly get closer to the path of professionalism from the beginning. In addition to the learning and Xi improvement of singing skills, she is active in various literary and artistic activities in schools and cities. Lead singer or soloist, well-known in the local area. He also often goes to TV stations and various units as art directors, helps them rehearse evening programs, earns some living expenses, and is self-reliant. In addition to her singing expertise, she has an independent personality, and her school teachers have always supported and encouraged her, and they have placed great hopes on her.
When she was in college, she was admitted to several schools at the same time: Nanjing University of Aeronautics and Astronautics, Nanjing University of the Arts, Sichuan University, Sichuan Normal University, Lanzhou University, and Northwest Normal University. In the end, she chose the ** drama performance major of Nanjing University of Aeronautics and Astronautics, requiring her to be able to sing, dance and perform, and her previous single singing experience was not advantageous.
Without the magic of the stars holding the moon, she became more down-to-earth in her four years of college and devoted herself to her profession, spending every day either in the practice room or in the piano room. She still remembers the words on the dance wall: hard work creates a career. Attitude is everything. In her senior year, she was already the first in her grade in all major courses.
Ten years ago, after graduating from the University of Arts and Letters, he came to the institute and became an officer of the Youth League Committee. She planned art evenings such as the Youth Art Festival, Singer Competition, and New Year's Party, organized the Wing Choir, and also composed and sang art songs such as "Flying Wind", "Love Letter to the Ocean", and "Lotus and Bamboo Love". As her name suggests, she has a sensitive sense of art and a talent for singing. Over the years, she has used her spare time to devote herself to Xi learning tea art, guzheng, diving, mermaid, and water dance, and has become one of the few mermaid and water dance instructors in the country.
However, for her beloved singing major, because she is not in a professional college or team, coupled with the impact of the epidemic and the changes in life, she has not had many opportunities to perform and practice Xi over the years. She felt a sense of alienation from art.
Find yourself again.
In September this year, Yiwen plucked up the courage to sign up for the singer competition. "Actually, I wanted to form a team at the beginning, so that multiple enthusiasts could participate, and I would participate together as a guide. Later, the team didn't get together, so I went to participate alone. The time was very tight, and there were almost only two or three days left to prepare for the preliminaries. ”
Yiwen thought about it in his heart, since the epidemic, he has not performed on stage for several years, and he has not had the opportunity to practice Xi, and all aspects of his body have deteriorated. I have to go to work during the day, and I only have time to practice singing at night. The spare time is relatively full, learning dance, learning tea art, and returning home at night is basically 90 o'clock. How to ensure Xi time?
Every night at 10 o'clock in those days, I went to the underground garage of the community to practice singing. Practice until eleven o'clock and go home to sleep. It feels like I'm in the process of finding myself little by little. ”
Of course, one minute on stage, ten years off the stage. I haven't sung for several years, so it's definitely not enough to practice for two or three days, and I have to work hard elsewhere. On the way to Qingdao to participate in the preliminaries, Yiwen has been flipping **, and there are ** about this entry. In this competition, she chose a solo aria of Sister Jiang, a song of more than seven minutes, which has very high requirements for singing skills and physical strength, and requires a deeper understanding of the stage performance and the connotation of the work. She played Sister Jiang in college, and she was also familiar with this work, but ten years have passed, and she has long lacked professional in-depth training Xi improvement.
That day on the high-speed train, she started doing desk work. I turned out all the ** that I could find about Sister Jiang's aria, and recorded a small half of the notes. When I arrived at the Qingdao competition site, the schedule was in full swing, the first day was a rehearsal walk, and the second day was the start of the competition. After the day of walking on stage, I returned to my room to rest, and in a nervous mood, Yiwen began to sing and practice Xi again and again in front of the mirror. The polishing of skills, the explanation of the works seen in the repeated pondering, how to understand the character of Sister Jiang, how to sing, how to perform, every word sung, every bite, breath control, action and posture, and strive to do the best at the moment.
How can you be 100% perfect in two or three days?But there are no regrets. Unexpectedly, she won the first place in the national singing group in the preliminaries of the East China area and successfully advanced to the finals. In the following report performance, the organizing committee also found Yiwen again, and trained in Beijing for a week to polish the works and exchange discussions.
On the day of the training camp in Beijing, Yiwen had a new experience of singing. From childhood to college, singing for an hour is generally enough. During the training days, I started singing every morning, and I had to sing for eight hours a day, just like going to work. It is a great test for the throat and the body. With partners who love singing, the relaxing and happy time passed in a flash, everyone persevered, and their understanding of singing deepened.
At that time, Yiwen also learned that he would face a stronger opponent in the final. At a vocal exchange meeting during the training camp, each contestant sang a good song. After listening to it for a while, she felt that there were at least three people in the national singing group who were above her, or on par. Over the years, they have been studying Xi singing in depth, going to professional colleges and universities, and often participating in various large and small performances.
In contrast, Yiwen feels that he does not have an advantage in the depth of Xi practice and the accumulation of performance experience, and he has to work hard, work hard, and work hard in a limited time.
Raised under pressure.
In just one month of preparation, she first found a professional vocal teacher in Beijing, and asked the teacher to give one-on-one guidance and correction to her main problems, so as to improve her physical condition and vocal skills when singing. One session a week, just the teacher's time. Classes are often held in the evenings during the week.
During that time, she often went to work during the day, got off work at 5 o'clock in the evening and took the high-speed train to Beijing to attend classes, and then took the high-speed train back to Tianjin after class, and it was already 11 or 2 o'clock in the evening when she got home. One private dance lesson per week should not be left behind. Performing on stage, and it is the critical moment of the finals, the stage image and temperament must be increased to yourself. We must do our best, do everything we can, and learn Xi and strengthen Xi in an all-round way.
You must know that every second, every word, every sentence on the stage, how you show it to the audience, how to perform, how to present gestures and postures, are very particular about how to show it when the technology is reached. As a singer, you have to strive for perfection. ”
Yiwen said that the preliminaries in Qingdao gave her a chance to practice. Representing the institute to participate in industry competitions is not only a display of strength, but also a battle for honor. She wants to do better and be more professional. During the training camp in Beijing, she saw that her friends had a sincere love for singing, and they were so good and worked extremely hard to improve their Xi, and suddenly felt a kind of motivation and encouragement that had not been felt for many years.
She remembered that she got up at six o'clock every day in her four years of college to practice her voice, piano, and dance, and remembered the two or so warnings on the wall in the dance room: "Work hard to create a career." Attitude is everything. During that time, under the guidance of professional teachers, she began to practice her Xi more purposefully and diligently, using all the time she could use and thinking of all the ways she could think of.
She went to work during the day, and practiced singing all the way to and from work. During her lunch break, she went to the stairs on the side of the office building to sing. There was no elevator there, and she guessed that no one should pass by, and occasionally only the security guard of the property would go there to check in and be on duty, very quiet, and no one bothered. For an hour, she was lucky, practicing her voice, singing, alone, her singing voice was full of energy, penetrating the air, windows, rooms, buildings, drifting into the distance, tumbling into the clouds, connecting and resonating with the singing of the birds in the sky.
In addition to the singing itself, the selection of entries and the appearance of the stage are crucial. After thinking about it repeatedly, she chose a Xinjiang folk song, Wang Luobin's "Youth Dance". She put a lot of thought into preparing the costumes for the performance, and the head-to-toe look. I took several outfits and came back to try them out, and finally chose a white dress with purple trim. A week before the finals, she also specially invited the dance teacher of Tianjin ** College to help arrange the dance part of the participating songs, interspersed at the beginning and middle of the singing songs, so as to improve the integrity of the entire work and the effect of the stage performance.
The sense of tension and pressure permeated every corner of that period of life.
The pleasure of water. Mid-October competition. During the Mid-Autumn Festival and National Day holiday that began at the end of September, Yiwen decided to relax a little and go to Shenzhen to learn Xi her long-awaited water dance performance, which was also to store energy for the finals and improve her mental strength.
Water dance is an underwater performance art form, which uses the characteristics of water to complete various movements underwater, and is a new way to play after scuba, free diving, and mermaids. On October 6th, the last day of the Mid-Autumn Festival and National Day holiday, Yiwen sent a 58-second water dance performance**. In a pool of blue water, she danced in a crimson scarlet dress and stretched her limbs. In the melodious and soothing music of "I Love You China", sometimes standing on the soft sand at the bottom of the water, sometimes jumping lightly in the water, standing on the side, or flipping backwards in an instant. Her hair was wrapped around the head of the ball, and strands of hair on her forehead were standing up and floating in the water, and the gauze skirt was opened layer by layer, like ink smudged on rice paper in the water.
Water gives a dancing spirit and a fluttering spirit, making her a fluttering elf.
This is the dance she improvised on the first day of her water dance training. Because it was filmed on the 11th day, it was specially paired with a red skirt and the music of "I Love You China". She said that during the six days of training, she dived more than 300 times, and her body was under great pressure and testing, just like the unprecedented challenge she endured in the singing competition. But, I finally persevered.
After passing all the assessments such as theory, skills, water tests, rescue, and 6 days of devil training, she finally became a water dance instructor. At present, there are no more than 50 water dance instructors in the country, and she is also the only water dance coach in Tianjin.
After a few days of vacation and Xi, in the vast world of water, Yiwen felt a gentle relief after tension, infinite tolerance and acceptance. That's why she's fascinated by water, especially when it's stressful or difficult in her life. The relaxation after the extreme challenge allowed her to finally pass through the tangible and invisible pressures in reality.
Finally breathed a sigh of relief.
In the finals, in the cold and distant northeast Jilin, the temperature has dropped to below zero.
The day before going to Jilin, Yiwen suddenly felt that her throat was as uncomfortable as swallowing a blade, and she was a little panicked, so she took all the throat medicines she could buy. When I arrived in Jilin, I took medicine in the hotel every day, four times in the morning, noon and evening. Under the tense atmosphere and high-intensity pressure of the competition, it is not impossible to ensure sufficient rest, get up at five or six o'clock in the morning, take the bus to the competition site to rehearse, walk the stage, practice songs, and listen to the organizers explain various affairs. I went back to the room very late every day, and after I got sick, my physical strength was a great test, and I couldn't sleep and maintain it. In those days, Yiwen endured the discomfort of his throat, carrying a thermos cup, a kettle, medicine, and a performance costume every day.
Really, every day is like training. However, this medicine was really not taken in vain, and on the day of the competition, my throat really didn't hurt anymore, but it was very dry, and I just felt that there were many scars in my throat and eyes, which were very small and like scabs. I had been preparing for the competition for such a long time, and when I got to the big game, I had such a physical problem, and I was really under a lot of psychological pressure at that time. ”
Yiwen began to learn Xi to build his own psychology. Learn to relax and accept like water, immerse yourself in the atmosphere of the current competition, and stuff your mind with all kinds of details of singing and performance, and eliminate distractions. Let the heart calm down and flow clearly.
On the day of the competition, the national singing group competition was scheduled for more than one o'clock in the afternoon. Near noon, Yiwen put on makeup and put on the performance costume. Full of hunger and singing, she didn't eat lunch, and practiced Xi alone in the background. A person Xi dance on the competition stage. Usually, the dancing practice room is paved with glue, but the stage of the theater that day is covered with a red carpet, and the friction will be greater, and you may not be able to turn it when dancing Xinjiang dance in circles. Even if you turn around, there is a chance that the soles of your feet will get stuck.
Yiwen wore high heels and practiced Xi on the stage over and over again, adapted to the venue, and sang the participating songs again. Because the breath of dance and the vocalization method of singing are reversed, she had to find the right feeling, and after the opening dance move, she immediately followed the first high note of the singing.
The theater was cold and unheated. Her costume is particularly thin. When she practiced Xi an hour before the start of the competition, she suddenly found that her voice couldn't come out, and her voice couldn't sing directly. Another layer of mental stress hits. What to do?This time, she didn't panic. Alone, in a huge theater, on a lonely stage, practicing Xi over and over again. Until, his voice can connect with the dance, sing the first high note, and sing a steady stream of ** melody.
On that day, Yiwen was the eighth to play. She completed the performance almost perfectly. From every movement of the dance, to every sentence of the singing, every posture, every appearance, every expression and detail, she has done it, and she has done all the hard work she has secretly put in for more than a month, all the hard work, and even the comfort gained by psychological construction when the undercurrent is surging under mental pressure, all of which are displayed on the stage one by one. At the moment when the song was finished, the long-term tension finally relaxed and softened. She finally breathed a sigh of relief.
After waiting for about the time of a song, her results came out, ninety-seven points, a high score. "It's better than I expected, a little bit taller than my opponent. I can't say that my level is higher than theirs, but at least in this performance, I won all aspects. Yiwen was relieved and couldn't help but shed tears. The previous picture passed by, slowed down a little, and was a little trance-like, a little worried. Is the Gold Award really stable?After being nervous and excited, she began to worry, worried that something would happen. A voice came out of my heart:
Steady, steady, steady. ”
It wasn't until the last powerful contestant in the national singing group finished singing and reported the scores, and the competition was all over, that Yiwen understood that he was really stable, second place, gold medal. She began to send WeChat messages to leaders, colleagues, and friends to convey her excitement. She thought of the tempering she had endured for more than a month, of all her persistence and gains in singing for a longer time, and of the blue waters when she learned to dance Xi water.
Life has become vast and boundless, full of infinite vitality and possibilities.
Joy and excitement come with stress.
On the second day, the organizing committee of the competition arranged an awards party, which was sung by the participating singers who won the gold medal in each group. Yiwen felt that he had to sing better and play better in the performance of the awards party.
She still sang the song of the competition, and the costume was still the same. Yes, she only prepared a song, a set of clothes. Compared to the other players, her preparation did seem hasty.
I didn't think I'd win the gold medal at all, I had no idea about the party, and I wasn't prepared at all. Even the background ** to be broadcast during the singing of the awards party was a temporary ...... made by contacting colleagues that night”
In the evening, in the interweaving of various thoughts, Yiwen walked out of the competition site after changing his clothes and came to the empty meadow. The little wild cat at the beginning of the article came running over to look at her and rubbing against her clothes. She bought it a ham sausage and watched it bite off with little bit of force. Her heart calmed down, and hunger struck. I suddenly remembered that I hadn't eaten for a day.
I can't remember how to get back to my room, I can't remember how to finish the next day, everything was a little like a dream. She returned to the singing she loved, **. Along the way, she had hesitated, hesitated, and gave up, and in the process of rediscovering herself, she worked hard, accumulated and precipitated, and experienced this love and perseverance, and the color and brilliance that bloomed in perseverance.
These days, she always thinks of that little wild cat. She thought that singing gave her warmth and strength, just like the tenderness and care she gave to her kitten that day. She wasn't sure if the ham sausage she had bought to feed her would make it remember for a long time. But sure, she'll always remember that relief. The kind of silence after extreme effort, after meeting a pair of innocent eyes.
All the love and pursuit, in the end, are classified as the ultimate mellow. (Liu Jinwen).