One day, sometimes so quietly, without motives, without any harvest of the past, never know what is the pursuit, what to pursue, what to get, there may always be an impulse in the bones, but there is no way to discover, no way to follow, no way to explode.
Perhaps, maybe it will have to wait until that day, on a special day, because of a specific you, or a special event, that it will break out and be reborn, but I don't know when this day will come, and whether it will come, maybe it will not come until the time of death, of course, it is actually meaningless at that time. Whether it is meaningful or not, it must be lucky and good to have this day, but it has never been able to create this day by itself, because there has always been no way to discover and create.
Perhaps, I haven't grown up yet, and I haven't learned to really do anything, but before that, I have to try to learn to endure, endure, endure this boundless pain. However, what is the pain sometimes, it is the comparison of the surroundings, the expectations of others, and it may be the inner torment, but in the final analysis, it may be the lack of a certain faith, and then there is a lot of motivation, and there is a lack of a lot of stimulants, but the ruthless society is like this, and it can only promote its own development in this way, because people are selfish, and the society of the group is public, in this case, why pursue romance and desirelessness, which will only be eliminated, because it is not suitable for society, of course, it is natural selection。
A year has passed in a trance, and I still don't know what to ask for, as if a living object, floating in this earthly world, but occasionally looking forward to what the future will be, everything has always stayed in fantasy, fantasy, and it is always difficult to make up my mind, and I can't have the courage to face such a competitive and inevitable society.
Really, I really don't know what to do, what can I do, always such a lifeless day by day, the clock is strange to me, the years seem to be long gone, I don't know if I am still alive, maybe physically, still breathing, but mentally, his heart has long stopped beating.
Despite this, it may be the yearning of childhood, the ideal of childhood, but it still touches the numb nerves of the self from time to time, and occasionally there are some neurotic words from time to time, but it is just that, but there is a foolish spirit to knock on the door of the heart.
There are actually many roads, but when you choose, there is only one, and in fact, since each has become a road, it will inevitably have its end, there will be an end, as long as you keep walking, maybe the Peach Blossom Land must be at the end of the road. For me, I don't know what the road is, I don't have a choice, I never look forward to the dawn ahead, I never worry about the wheels rolling behind, in the words of now, not only physically, but also mentally completely flat.
Perhaps, this is the so-called me now, a self who can't change myself, but people always have to look forward to something, look forward to tomorrow, look forward to the future, even if they don't have so many expectations, they always hope to increase their salary and do more things, so as to let their own way, let themselves go all the way along the road they have already chosen.
In the final analysis, it is actually caused by the lack of goals, and the road without goals will become irregular, become directionless, and go more, as if going around the center of the circle, never able to continue to move forward, unable to reach the next goal, so as to carry on the past and forge ahead into the future.
Young people, please set your goals and pursue your own beliefs, so that you can live a more meaningful and rewarding life, and for life itself, it will be more nutritious. Let my arsenic, this emotion, become history, to warn future generations, so that you will no longer walk on the road of nothingness and no reliance.