If there is one in the next life, I would rather have a few more children than become a movie queen.
Pan Hong said this to Dong Qing during the interview.
Pan Hong has won many awards in her life, and is listed as the "Three Golden Flowers of the 80s" along with Liu Xiaoqing and Siqin Gaowa, and she is also the first Chinese artist to appear on the cover of Time Magazine.
As a legend of the times, she had no children and no daughters in her life, and finally converted to Buddhism, what kind of tortuous life experience is this?
Pan Hong, formerly known as Liu Ronghua, was born in Shanghai in 1954, her father is Russian, and her mixed-race blood has made Pan Hong have an extraordinary appearance since she was a child.
Pan Hong lived with her grandmother until she was 6 years old, and when she was very young, she thought that her grandmother was her mother. Later, her mother married her stepfather surnamed Liu, so she was brought home, and there were two more sisters in the family.
In this new environment, she spent a happy childhood playing with her sisters.
When Pan Hong was 10 years old, Liu's father treated her as his own and cared for her, but the good times did not last long. The arrival of the special period made Liu's father choose to end his life because he couldn't bear the humiliation.
Pan Hong's heart was like a knife, and he could only take his mother's surname Pan as his name. During the special period, her mother was unable to come forward, and her two young sisters needed to be taken care of, so it was on Pan Hong's shoulders to send her father's ashes back to her hometown.
At the age of 10, she held her father's ashes and made a three-day and three-night train journey to finally let her father rest in peace.
Pan Hong seems to have grown up overnight, and the strong and independent flowers in her heart have matured and brightened. From this moment on, Pan Hong completely lost her childhood.
A year later, after my father died, my mother got married. At this time, Pan Hong not only had to take care of her two little sisters, but also had to endure the ridicule and cynicism of the people around her.
There are often people pointing fingers at their sisters in the yard, and even older children will pull their hair to bully them, and Pan Hong, a teenage girl, has already seen through the world.
Pan Hong has grown up in such days, and her personality has become cold, arrogant, tenacious, and uncompromising.
At the age of 17, Pan Hong bid farewell to her mother, and with the pace of the times, she went to Chongming Island to cut the queue and work as a meal ticket seller in a canteen.
Half a year later, Pan Hong ushered in the most important opportunity in her life - Shanghai Theater Academy recruited students on Chongming Island. She actively signed up for the competition, and was admitted exceptionally with her tall figure and cold and arrogant temperament.
At the age of 19, she started her acting life.
Pan Hong may have experienced a lot of warmth and coldness when she was young, and she has an extraordinary talent and high understanding of acting. During her time at school, she even participated in the filming of three films, "Youth", "Jubilant Little Cool River" and "Morning Sunrise".
Pan Hong successfully played the heroine in her first film work "The Slave's Daughter" after graduation, officially launching her acting career.
Pan Hong won the Huabiao Award, the Outstanding Film Award and the Outstanding Youth Creation Award in 1978 for her role in "Troubled Laughter", thus becoming famous and becoming a rising star in the entertainment industry.
Her fresh and refined face and unique melancholy temperament made her the "goddess of dreams" in the hearts of countless men at that time, which was fascinating.
In the following years, Pan Hong's career flourished and continued to climb. In 1981, she played a dusty but unstained Qinglou woman in the movie "Du Shi Niang".
Therefore, she won the Best Actress Award at the 4th Xiaobaihua Awards. The film was also selected to be exhibited at the Asian International Film Festival.
She is 27 years old and has received such an honor, but Pan Hong does not stop there. She focuses on her acting career and puts all her heart and soul into it in search of security.
In order to truly interpret the role of Lu Wenting in the movie "People to Middle Age", Pan Hong went to the hospital many times to experience the psychological state of the patient at the end of his life, so as to deeply feel the authenticity of the film. This dedication to the performance is admirable.
This drama full of modern significance has received intense attention and proves that "where there is a will, there is a way". It was also screened in Tokyo as a "new Chinese film".
Pan Hong won the Best Actress Award at the 3rd Golden Rooster Awards and was nominated for Best Actress at the 6th Hundred Flowers Awards. There are piles of trophies, this is the Pan Hong who attracted much attention at that time. She climbed to the top again and again, making her popularity soar and shine brightly.
Pan Hong then starred in many film and television dramas, including "Cold Night", "Fire Dragon", "The Last Queen", "Well", "The Last Aristocrat", etc., leaving one legend after another.
Her cold and melancholy temperament makes the roles she plays with a hint of sadness, and with the popularity of these roles, she has also become a representative of tragic roles and is praised as the "Queen of Sadness".
Pan Hong was as famous in the entire entertainment industry as "big sister" at that time, but she was not satisfied, probably because she grew up in an environment that made her need to continue to succeed in order to find a sense of security.
Pan Hong was once again awarded the title of "Top Ten Movie Stars in the World" at the age of 32, and she won the Best Actress Award at a series of film festivals for "Stock Crazy", including the Chinese Film Golden Rooster Award, the Hundred Flowers Award for Popular Films, the first China Film Huabiao Award, the Performing Arts Society Gold, Phoenix Award, etc.
Her highlight moments have been unmatched so far, and her career has been successful, but what about her love life?While red to purple, is she also so successful emotionally?
When Pan Honggang graduated from university, he met Mijiashan by chance. At that time, Mi Jiashan was working as an artist in Emei Film Factory, and the two had the same interests and hobbies, and they could often find a lot of common topics. They are attracted to each other's talents.
Pan Hong has been taken care of by Mi Jiashan like a father, whether in life or career, he has made Pan Hong feel a different kind of care.
Pan Hong lacked fatherly love since she was a child, and was soon attracted by this "father's love"-like warmth, and the two quickly established a relationship between men and women, and successfully entered the marriage hall a year later.
Pan Hong worked in the Shanghai Film Factory after marriage, while her husband worked in the Emeishan Film Factory. They began a long period of separation. Mi Jiashan once asked her, "What do you crave the most", and Pan Hong did not hesitate to say the word "success".
They were young and promising at the time, and they put their careers first. Mi Jiashan fully supported them, and in order to catch up with Pan Hong's pace, he did not hesitate to give up the art major he originally studied and devoted himself to the further study of the directing major.
Years later, they have achieved a lot of success in their respective fields, but they can't have it both ways, and while their careers are successful, their long-term separation has also put their marriage in jeopardy.
Director Yang Yanjin took special care of Pan Hong when filming "The Troubled Man", and the two often went in and out together, and soon a scandal broke out, which caused quite a stir.
Especially Yang Yanjin's wife was emotional because of this, and ran to the crew to question Pan Hong.
Although Pan Hong repeatedly denied the incident, Yang Yanjin eventually divorced his wife. Subsequently, Pan Hong could no longer stay in the Shanghai studio, so she transferred to the Emei Film Studio, where her husband worked.
Mi Jiashan has returned from his studies at this moment, and the first drama he directed "The Crooked Stone Path" starring Zhang Guoli and Zhu Lin, who played the "King of the Daughter Country" in "Journey to the West", not only that, but the play also won the TV series Feitian Award that year.
After years of separation, they finally came together and felt the long-lost intimacy.
At this moment, Mi Jiashan began to euphemistically propose to Pan Hong: "We should also think about family, you are no longer young after all, I hope we can have a child." ”
Mi Jiashan couldn't stand it, and one day he finally couldn't help but ask Pan Hong: "Do you know how many years we have been married?"Pan Hong was taken aback, "Why did you suddenly ask this question?"”
Eight years ago, Mi Jiashan said: "We have been married for 8 years, but we have only been together for 380 days. If this continues, are we still husband and wife?”
After careful consideration, Pan Hong found that the actual time they spent together was very short.
Despite this, Pan Hong feels that the two are still young and both are on the rise in each other's careers, so she thinks that getting pregnant and having children now will lead to missing out on everything.
The two reached a stalemate, and finally Mi Jiashan reluctantly asked this question: "Do you want children or do you want a career?"”
Pan Hong said without hesitation: "I am eager to have a career. ”
At this point, Mi Jiashan realized that there was no point in arguing any longer, it can only be said that the two have different life trajectories and care about different things, although they obviously love each other, they decided to end this marriage.
After the divorce, Pan Hong worked harder and gained a sense of accomplishment and security through awards and successful experiences. Occasionally, excellent men would pursue her, but Pan Hong chose to ignore them.
There have been a few scandals, but as time goes by, they have broken themselves. Over the years, Pan Hong has changed from the actress of the year to a "mother-in-law and mother professional".
Pan Hong has played the two roles of fierce mother-in-law and strong mother very deeply in the hearts of the people in many TV dramas, such as "When Mother-in-law Meets Mother", "Husbands' Private Money", "Hot Mom's True Story" and "Tiger Mom and Cat Dad".
Because of her cold and arrogant temperament and towering nose bridge, coupled with a pair of black-framed glasses, she gives people a very shrewd and strong image of a mother-in-law who is not easy to mess with, so she was once called "evil mother-in-law".
Pan Hong is different from the past in that she once said: "I think the perfect state is to maintain a certain sense of alienation between people. ”
She now says: "Women should not pursue success too much, but should be ordinary." If I could live again, I would definitely be a wonderful mother. ”
She was once asked what she would choose to do if she stopped working in actingPan Hong replied: "I want to open a nursery school and spend every day with my children, how happy I am." ”
Pan Hong's words reveal her desire to have children, but now at the age of 68, she can only feel regret and helplessness. After experiencing a divorce, she never wanted to get married again, and she never had children in her life, and in her later years, Pan Hong chose to take refuge in Buddhism and spend the rest of her life in regret.