The stars change, and the years change. In the blink of an eye, the Year of the Rabbit is about to go away, and the Year of the Dragon is approaching.
Looking back on this year, I have experienced hardships, tasted bitterness, felt happiness, experienced happiness, and saw the warmth and coldness of human feelings. Although the soul is already scarred, it can also move forward with a heavy load and smile at life.
This year, the work was dull and unchanged, although there were many unsatisfactory, but there were no big waves. I get up earlier than the chicken every day, sleep later than the dog, on the three-foot podium, spit everywhere, my spirit is flying, I tutor and correct after class, I talk bitterly, and I yell at my throat every day and boil my eyes. Consciously work hard, work hard, and pour everything you have for the flowers of the motherland, but you don't know that the iron tree refuses to bloom, and your parents don't appreciate your love at all. I realized that wishful thinking efforts were in vain, and no matter how loud the sound was, it was difficult to wake up the person who was pretending to be asleep. Although I feel helpless, I also consciously have a clear conscience, and I can still rely on my original heart, with a clean breeze on my sleeves, holding the students to abuse me thousands of times, and I treat the students like my first love to stick to the three-foot podium, poor in all seasons, and innocent in my life.
This year, life is uneventful, three meals a day, neither delicacies from the mountains and seas, nor rose champagne. When he is busy, he wraps his stomach with food, and when he is free, he also learns from Mr. Dongpo "and boils new tea with a new fire, and poems and wine take advantage of the youth". You can't "go down to Yangzhou in March", but go down to the south of the Yangtze River in the middle of summer, enjoy the beautiful scenery of the West Lake, and appreciate the small bridges and flowing water in Wuzhen Xitang. Explore the former residence of Lu Xun and feel the soul of the nation. I can't talk about reading all the beautiful scenery in the world, but I also feel the great rivers and mountains of the motherland. It's not romantic, but it can also add a touch of color to the dull life.
This year, two venerable elders left me. My beloved aunt is another mother in my life besides my mother, and her passing has left me with a long time, and her virtuous and open-minded qualities will always shine in my heart. Although my mother-in-law is not close to me, I have lived with her longer than my mother, and I have long regarded her as an elder like my own mother. Seeing her suffer from illness, my heart was like a knife, in the days of her illness, I felt heartache for the old man, after her death, I was immersed in the old man's bed coma for a long time, unable to get out. She raised seven children in her life, and in order to raise her children, she endured all kinds of eyes and endured all kinds of hardships. Her hard-working, simple, strong and resolute qualities are always worth learning from. Today, the deceased are like this, the loved ones are gone, and the living have to continue to live. I hope they will be free from sickness and sorrow in the other world, and it can be regarded as a consolation to those who miss them.
Although there was some discomfort this year, there was no major problem. The family is also safe and smooth, the old mother is a little confused, but she can remember the name of each relative, always thinking about when the children and grandchildren will come home, not forgetting to nag, for fear that the grandchildren will be hungry. My son is quite competitive, serious and motivated, and he knows that he always cares about his parents, which is very gratifying.
Time is like water, unable to stop the pace of the rapid passage of time, a few gray hairs appeared on my sideburns, and a few wrinkles were added to the corners of my eyes. Every day, I groom in the mirror, lamenting that my youth has passed away, and I have wasted half my life. What can I do for the rest of my days? Fame and fortune are gone, only to maintain an indifferent and quiet heart.
Yan Haiqin, People's Teacher. In 2019, he began to practice writing, and in September 2021, he officially became a member of the Shangluo Writers Association. Some articles have been published on the Internet such as "Literary Shaanxi Army".