My family is rural, and my parents and school education from childhood to adulthood are limited to me studying hard and finding a job in an office in the future.
Including filling in the college entrance examination at that time, I also heard that the accounting major is very good, and it is a popular major in recent years, so I chose accounting.
In the past two years, we have also seen the employment situation in the accounting industry, accounting is everywhere, what majors are there in universities in Xi'an? Accounting majors, of course!
At that time, I didn't understand what the future was, I could only understand that it was a noun phrase.
During college, students with a certain background and resources at home have begun to prepare for the public or graduate school entrance examination in their junior year, and they are still confused. When I learned that someone else had gone ashore, I didn't even know what a civil servant was doing.
Others already have great prospects, but I still don't know what a future is.
In recent years, most of my friends and classmates have worked harder for their future, either they have been promoted and raised, or they have bought their own cars and houses, or they are married happily.
And I just graduated and found a small company casually, with social security, 9-to-5, and I didn't know how to find a promising job at all.
I left that company because of the mask.
The whole employment environment is not good, looking for a few months did not find a suitable job, at that time and anxious to earn money to support themselves, chose the basic does not require professional ability of the agency industry, after a few years to know that the choice is wrong, most of the agency accountants have no way out, when looking for a job, the vast majority of enterprises simply do not look down.
The so-called, one wrong step and one wrong step, he made his future unrecognizable.
Others study after work, but I lock myself in a rental room after work and spend my days depressed, no one is in touch with me, no one is seen, and many times I feel like a waste.
I don't even have the means to sit at my desk and study, I know it sounds ridiculous. But as soon as I sat down at my desk, I started to think crankily and couldn't concentrate.
Others are studying for the future, I am depressed, I am having nightmares, I am complaining about God, I am thinking about self-harm.
But I spent 5 years to redeem myself in the darkness under the sun, to temper my inferiority complex and cowardice to be strong and brave now, so that I have no nightmares every day, and I have set up a "lighthouse" called love for my muddy self, and I am working hard for this despite difficulties and obstacles.
It seems that I still haven't worked hard for the future, but it is precisely because of these seemingly unfulfilled "achievements" that I really understand how important the future is.
For me, the future I love allows me to give my life.
At the age of 29, I realized how important the future is. It's not too late, life is long, just live up to it.
Thankfully, I never thought about the starting line for everyone differently compared to anyone. Some people start walking in the middle of the mountain, while others climb step by step from the abyss.
As long as it's better than before, it's enough, and you don't have to worry about it.