Beneath the radiant exterior, there is sometimes a bottomless pain and inferiority. We often meet some girls who are excellent on the outside but suffer on the inside, and their stories are heart-wrenching, and make us reflect: is true beauty only about appearance?
I used to be a girl with low self-esteem, and although I was occasionally complimented on my appearance, deep down I always had an indescribable inferiority complex at work. This low self-esteem stems from an unfortunate experience in my childhood.
My family used to be wealthy, but my father's imprisonment brought all the good things to rest. In order to make ends meet, the mother had to get together with a strange man. That man became my stepfather and the source of my childhood shadow. His words and deeds exposed me to the dark side of the world prematurely, making me seem out of place among my peers.
At school, I was isolated and bullied by my classmates. They laughed at my family background and insulted my personality. I became a laughing stock in their mouths, living in fear and insecurity every day. During that time, it was as if I was in hell and there was no escape.
This experience made me extremely inferior, and even when someone complimented me on my appearance, I struggled to feel true happiness. I always felt that I didn't deserve to be good, and I was afraid of being misunderstood and hurt again. Therefore, in many things, I lack the courage to try and prefer to escape.
When I was in college, the military training instructor once asked who would like to perform talents, and I was actually very eager to show myself, but in the end I was defeated by my inferiority complex. I'm afraid of being foreign, I'm afraid of being ridiculed. Whenever I see other students confidently presenting themselves on stage, I feel extremely envious and lost.
In order to hide my low self-esteem, I worked hard to earn money part-time, hoping to be equal materially with my friends. But my best friend told me, "You don't need to work so hard, we're all friends, and we don't need you to pay every time." Her words brought tears to my eyes and made me realize that a true friend does not care about your material conditions, but about your inner world.
Now, I have come out of the shadow of my childhood and have begun to learn to accept myself. But the inferiority complex is still with you, and it takes time to heal slowly. I know that it does take many years to let go of something, but I am willing to give myself a chance to face the fears and insecurities in my heart.
In this world, there are many girls like me, who may be glamorous on the outside, but they are tormented on the inside. I hope that the society can give them more care and understanding, so that they know that true beauty is not only in appearance, but also in the kindness and tenacity of the heart. Every girl deserves to be cherished and cared for, and I hope they can all get out of the haze of inferiority complex and embrace their own sunshine.
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