Most families have cancer, and the whole family will do their best to fight together! And I'm different! I think all men in the world can take on their wives, but my husband can't! Although he has a low EQ and a low IQ, in my perception he should still be a person with a conscience, but the truth is not as I thought it would be! I have breast cancer and am diagnosed with lung metastasis, take targeted drugs to maintain**! At that time, he was very desperate, he said that this is not a disease that can be cured with a single shot, he said that our economy will be more tense in the future, he said that he found that the life of the lungs will soon come to an end, he said...You can imagine how desperate he was, as if it was their mother and son who had cancer, not me! I still cheered up and persuaded them mother and son! Maybe they'll think I'll be a burden to them! It's not that I have cancer and how devastated, but I was helpless because of the growing conflict between me and his mother and son! I still work to take care of the family and take care of the children! They don't know how many tears and wails there are behind my strength! It's as if I'm still healthy in their eyes! They are still waiting for me to do everything, they don't know how much I want to put pills on my pills, how much I want to care! I don't have time to think about my illness, more often than not, I think about the contradictions that we can't reconcile! The most unbearable thing for me is that when they go back to their hometown and come back, my husband complains about me and blames me, he knows that I won't live for three years, but he still listens to her mother poking behind her back! I really endured enough, I led the child out of the house in a fit of anger, and told him to divorce him, and I could give him the formalities at any time! How desperate I am to leave him in this situation, I think I am sad alone, many people are in the haze of my illness, as the so-called out of sight and out of mind!
I don't know how I survived the days I was gone! Countless painful tears, but I survived! We are strangers to each other, and we don't bother each other! Until one day, the child's grandmother hit the child ** and told the child that her father had broken his leg! When I heard my child talk after work, I felt like a fool for a long time! Good days have come to this point! After a long time, I couldn't cry and called his leader, and the leader told me that he was fine! Go to work! I know he lied to me! I didn't ask again! The child said that he looked like he was fine! We're still strangers! I rechecked the breast lump again, the naked eye disappeared, there was no change in the lungs, and I had no choice but to leave the child home for a lung puncture, but fortunately it was benign and not a lung metastasis! I got out of bed the next day and went to work seven days! How happy I am! I want to wait for my child to finish the make-up class, and the breast is fully cut! Plan everything! But he urged me to divorce! It hurts! The plan was approaching, the child stayed and didn't eat, and he had a sore throat and a low-grade fever for two days, and he didn't tell me earlier! Peeked at his phone only to find out that his father and children were discussing our divorce! I pretended to take the child to see a doctor for an injection as if nothing happened, and all the plans for this disease were in vain! How my heart aches! My baby is afraid that I will get angry and bear it alone! After more than ten days of injections, my ears are ringing and my ears are depressed! I don't even have the heart to care about myself! God knows what I cried! He urged me to divorce again! I told him the child was sick! He still has the heart to accompany the child to do physiotherapy, but he is just a driver-like existence! They are unfamiliar and have no topic, this is the sadness of him as a father all these years!
Under the persuasion of Ma Dashanren, I lowered my head and sent him a WeChat message, "Maybe you think that I took your money and left you to live the days I want, you don't know that I don't have a cold, I have a terminal illness, I have symptoms on medicine, it was pulling and vomiting during those days, I know what it means to leave you!" You know how desperate I have to be to leave you! In those days, I would even burst into tears when I saw your message, you think I have no heart and lungs, do you know how many times I have to get up again when I guard the toilet! Whom do I rely on, who do I have? After my brother found out, he thought I was going to die, and I came to make my dad cry and come back to life, and then my brother was depressed, and he wanted to die and live, and I took him to the hospital in the middle of the night, I really couldn't stay up, I wanted to find you, but I still couldn't bear it! Until now, he still doesn't do anything, just lie at home and don't sleep! At that time, you said that you wanted me to go out with the children, you didn't know that my class was all hard-headed, I really wanted to put a film, you may not believe it, I am so strong in front of you, how many times have I vomited at work, and I can't stop leaking! Even when I go out with my old girl, I go straight to the toilet! I don't think I'm going to be better! There's no need to bother you! I don't want to contact you, I can't stop crying behind every message you have, I'm reluctant, you know, you don't care about me, I'm better! I didn't hate you! I hate myself! I don't know how many times I walked around you after work, how many times I had a premonition that you were not good, until the old lady said that you had a leg injury, and I cried like a fool and couldn't speak clearly to Liu Hongjun! I don't see you bad, but you don't believe it! Before I was sick, I used to tell you this and that, nothing more than questioning whether you care about me or not, when I complained, it was nothing more than you put the money too hard, and the pressure on me to support my family was so great that I couldn't breathe, and finally you put the money here for me, I no longer have to worry about the end of the month's salary is not enough to spend, but God told me that I have cancer or advanced stage! If you get cancer, you will get cancer, I want to rely on you, I want you to care about me and carry it with me, but it backfired! Before I got sick, you didn't know that I also fantasized about living a good life with you, and even thought about renting a first floor and your mother's entire breakfast shop or something, and living a friendly life, but I still couldn't get along! It's not my fault alone! You know! I'm not a heartless person, others give me a little favor, I can't wait to dig out my heart and lungs! We are husband and wife! You know how many tears have flowed behind my back just because of the money! I'm under a lot of pressure, but you don't understand, you always think that I have a lot of expenses, and you don't know how much your daughter gets when she gets sick! I want you to chat with me, I want to try to live, I want her to leave when she is older, I think I will at least have me and the child when you are helpless when I am better! I went to do a lung puncture alone, no one signed I want to find you, I still held back, helpless to find my aunt and brother, I got out of bed the next day, the child had a high fever at home, I wanted to find you, I still held back, I came back, I went to work on the seventh day, the result was benign I thought we would have hope, one day I will be better, I will look for you! I was thinking about the old girl after the make-up class, and I asked my aunt and brother to sign for the junior and they took care of me, but I didn't expect to see the child not eating and saying that I couldn't sleep after work, and peeked at your and the child's WeChat, only to know that she was on fire, didn't tell me, and said that I was afraid that I would be on fire, you won't know how much fire I got after I watched it, how worried I was about her emotions, and I couldn't behave, what I cried after work! Fortunately, I haven't told my child about my illness yet, otherwise how would she accept it, and the surgery plan would have been ruined! I still fantasize that I will go to you after resisting all this and recovering, but I didn't expect you to be in such a hurry to divorce, and said that we have no feelings! Are you so ruthless that you abandon me like this! You wouldn't have thought that this timing you chose would really be a fatal blow to me! Maybe it's providence again! He replied to my message, "I know your life is not good, is my life better?" I thought about it for a long time before I made up my mind, there have been too many things happening in our family in the past few years, how did I get out of my father's absence, I looked like no one was there, I knew what I was feeling at the moment of your illness, you know how I came over the moment you moved out, I didn't break my leg, I broke 3 ribs, have I been injured over the years? How long have I been lying in bed, 2 months I went to work again, you may say that I have no heart and no lungs, how did my mother live alone in the rural hometown. She knows how hot she is when you go out like you. I never thought of divorcing you, why do you think I'm going to kill the money. Have I been out drinking all day, I can't even buy a piece of ice cream for work in the summer, how long have I been thinking about it for so long before I make up my mind, do you think it's difficult for you, I'm not difficult? Two centimeters further down and I'll be in bed for the rest of my life! I didn't fight it all alone, and I didn't tell you! ”
We are all ruthless people, we are not like husband and wife, and the hardest thing to think of is not to find each other!
I didn't sleep all night and spent the whole day at work the next day in tears! This feeling of heartache! It turns out that after I left, we were each going through our own calamities! We can't go back! He felt that my departure had led to all the consequences! The robbery in my heart, I am a bottomless pit, and I am not qualified to dwell on it anymore! I was relieved! A few days later, he sent a message: "Tell me when the operation will be, you can operate as soon as possible, don't delay the illness, I will do my best to take care of you!" "I'm back" No need, let's cross it by myself! Everything is in accordance with the will of God and does not have to be forced, God will let it happen must have a reason for it to happen, no need to complain, no need to hate, no need to regret! This is the path that everyone should take, and it has nothing to do with anyone! He replied again, "This is my last wish, I hope you don't refuse, if you insist, I can't help it, you can do it yourself!" "We all have our own helplessness! It's wrong to live like this! No more resentment, no more hatred, no more regrets! It's a good thing he didn't fall crippled! But I knew the pain in his heart could never be erased!
Ask what is the situation in the world, the days when the disaster came, we could not rely on each other well, our love did not stand the test, and the so-called home and everything was lost in the end! Turning against each other is not an accident......
When the wind and waves are calm, I never enjoy this time quietly, I only feel that this peace seems to be so quiet that it can't stir up a ripple! It wasn't until after the storm and the calamity that I found this kind of love and couldn't be so painful! This feeling transcends weighing the pros and cons, but cannot overcome that ditch and that hurdle! But we can't follow our hearts! The ditch and the hurdle in our hearts are the mountain-like existence in the hearts of the fools, but the difference is that we don't have the spirit of the fools, and some are just the so-called good ...... for each otherLet time smooth it all out, and then talk about it is already light and breezy ......