One rainy evening, Lu Jia drove back to her hometown.
The rain was not falling much, drifting with the wind like fog and rain, getting on the car at high speed, and the wipers brushing up and down mechanically at the slowest speed, Lu Jia was full of worries and just wanted to shorten the distance as soon as possible.
An hour ago, Lu Jia received **, her uncle was sent to the hospital because of her illness, Lu Jia was afraid that she would not see her uncle for the last time, she was driving faster and faster, and she almost rear-ended, so she forced herself to calm down and slow down.
Fortunately, she saw her uncle for the last time.
Lu Jia looked at her uncle who couldn't speak, her heart throbbed for a while, tears flowed into her heart, Lu Jia held her uncle's hand, there was no one else in the ward except her, how lonely and cold.
How she wished it was a dream.
Lu Jia is an unfortunate person.
But this, she didn't know this until she was 13 years old, her childhood was very happy in her memory, her uncle treated her as a daughter, others had, and tried to satisfy her, pocket money is always more than others, occasionally grandma will come from her hometown to see them, but grandma is very old, in her 60s looks like more than 70.
It's just that they never go back to their grandmother's house, they only know that their grandmother lives in the countryside.
She asked why, and her uncle changed the subject every time, and she also asked her uncle why he didn't get married, and his uncle only said that he didn't want to get married.
In short, in her heart, her uncle is an existence above all else.
Soon after Lu Jia's 13th birthday, her uncle suddenly fell ill, and she learned that her uncle's heart had been bad, and after her uncle became ill, the factory was worried about taking responsibility and fired him.
In desperation, his uncle could only take Lu Jia back to her grandmother's house to live.
At that time, Lu Jia knew that she actually had a mother, but her mother was different from others, she was in her 40s but only ** years old, and her face was old and innocent.
Lu Jia couldn't accept it, and she could only accept it, she asked who her father was, her uncle was silent, and her grandmother was silent.
Lu Jia's heart was full of questions, but she couldn't find answers. But where there are people, there is gossip, and soon after Lu Jia returned to his hometown to study, he learned the truth from his classmates in the village.
She is a child born to her mother after being **, she really couldn't help but ask her uncle after school, but her uncle still remained silent, and her grandmother refused to say, asking her not to ask, which made her more curious.
It wasn't until Lu Jia listened to the neighbors that he asked his uncle again, he let out a long sigh and finally told all the truth.
It turned out that Lu Jia's mother had a high fever when she was a child, and when the fever subsided, her intelligence stopped developing, and her mother barely finished elementary school and dropped out of school at home, helping her grandmother and grandfather to work, and later her grandfather died, and only her grandmother and uncle were left in the family, and her uncle was five years younger than her sister, and she was a child who was only six years old at that time.
At that time, a widow with two children was also a very capable matter of remarrying, but because her mother had intellectual problems, others felt ashamed, so no one was willing to ask for a grandmother.
In this way, my grandmother could only pull two children by herself and struggled to survive.
After ten years of such hard life, my uncle grew up a little more, and at the age of 16, he became the pillar of the family, and my uncle stopped after junior high school.
After the old accountant retired, my uncle took over and counted half a small village official, and the situation of my grandmother's family improved.
When my uncle was 25 years old, my grandmother began to worry about his marriage, but many people were worried that he had a stupid sister, but there was only one female classmate, Qin Xiaoru, who liked her uncle since junior high school, and didn't mind that his family was poor, and she didn't mind that he had a stupid sister.
Xiaoru likes her uncle and wants to marry her uncle, and her uncle also likes Xiaoru and is working hard to satisfy Xiaoru's parents, but at this time, her grandmother found out that her mother was pregnant, and it was five months old.
It was rumored that her uncle had harmed her mother, and all kinds of messy rumors spread around, Xiaoru believed her uncle, but her family didn't believe it, and they were afraid that people would gossip, so they cut off contact.
Later, it was found out that it was done by a five-guarantee household in the village, and he was in his forties and had not yet married a wife, so he used a sugar cake to deceive his mentally retarded mother. When my uncle found out, he rushed to Wubaohu's house and beat him up, if my grandmother hadn't run to stop him, maybe the man would have been killed by my uncle.
The next day, the five-guarantee household jumped into the reservoir, and as if he had repented before jumping, he sent all the money he had saved over the years to his grandmother's house, and named him to his mother, while his uncle was implicated and expelled from the village.
The grandmother did not let the mother want the child, although the mother was not sensible, but after knowing that there was a doll in her belly, she refused to go to the hospital, crying and crying, and when it was six months, the hospital had not induced labor.
More than three months later, in early spring, when the swallows nested under the eaves, Lu Jia was born, and when she turned three years old, her uncle said that there were many people in the village, and she was afraid that Lu Jia's growth would not be good, after all, she was innocent, so the uncle discussed with her grandmother and took her to the city, and her uncle took care of Lu Jia while working alone.
My grandmother stayed alone in the village to take care of my mother.
In the blink of an eye, it was another ten years, and Lu Jia was well protected by her uncle, even if she was not rich, she was very happy. After his uncle paid his salary, he would take Lu Jia to the restaurant, for fear of gossip or misunderstanding, so he let Lu Jia live at home, and he has been living in the dormitory in the factory.
Uncle said, if it weren't for illness, if it wasn't for no way, I would never let Lu Jia know this.
Lu Jia was so shocked that she couldn't speak for a long time, only tears quietly slipped out of her eyes.
At this time, my grandmother pushed the door in, wiped the corners of her eyes, and sat next to Lu Jia, "Jiajia, at first your uncle wanted to take you away, but I didn't agree, your uncle took you, and it was difficult for him to find a partner again, but your uncle said that he didn't worry about you, and I also thought clearly, he can't harm other people's girls if he is sick, anyway, you are his daughter, and you will give your uncle a pension in the future." ”
13-year-old Lu Jia nodded as if she didn't understand.
Lu Jia is responsible for taking care of her mother.
Mom is not tall, a little round, although there is a problem with intelligence, but it can be seen that she is well taken care of by her grandmother, wearing neat clothes, her shoes are clean, and her hair is neat. As soon as Lu Jia saw her mother, she found that she looked like her mother, but she was taller and thinner than her mother.
Mom soon became close to Lu Jia, but she didn't seem to know that Lu Jia was her daughter, she regarded Lu Jia as a playmate, and Lu Jia didn't want to call her mother, and the two got along like friends.
My uncle was sick and couldn't do heavy work, so I could only go to the neighborhood to find some easy work, ride a motorcycle to carry passengers at night, and my grandmother planted a little vegetable field, and got up early every day to sell vegetables at a stall.
After Lu Jia finished junior high school, she decided not to study, she wanted to go to a technical school with a female classmate, and she could graduate and find a job in two years.
The uncle persuaded her to continue going to school, anyway, he didn't plan to get married, and the wife she had saved before was all for her to go to school, which was enough for her to finish high school.
Lu Jia disagreed, she said: "I still work after reading a high school." ”
My uncle said, "Then you can afford to go to college." ”
Lu Jia's eyes were sour, and she looked at her uncle and said, "Uncle, I don't study anymore, I want to go to a technical school, and I want to make money." ”
Her grandmother also came to persuade her, "It's okay to go to college, and I can marry better in the future." ”
15-year-old Lu Jia said, "I don't get married, I don't have children, I want to support you, my mother, and my uncle to support the elderly." ”
When my uncle and grandmother heard this, they couldn't help but redden.
When she was in adolescence, there was always a kind of self-righteous maturity, Lu Jia wanted to repay her uncle, she secretly swore in her heart that she would not only provide for her uncle's old age, but also make money to treat her uncle and marry a wife for her uncle.
Uncle couldn't resist Lu Jia, so she had to find someone to let her learn technology, but Lu Jia had her own idea, and she went to apply for the computer training technical school that was very popular at the time.
On the day Lu Jia left, her mother hugged her and didn't let go, Lu Jia cried, and her mother also cried.
She called her mom for the first time.
Mom, I come back to see you every month. ”
Mom still didn't understand, but smiled, "Buy me candy?" Buy chocolate. ”
Lu Jia said, "Buy, buy a box." ”
Uncle sent Lu Jia to the bus station on a motorcycle, Lu Jia will always remember that scene, after she entered the station with her classmates, she looked back at her uncle, he was riding a motorcycle in place with his head down, although he couldn't see his face clearly, but he knew that his uncle must be crying. After the car drove out of the station, Lu Jia dared to cry and lay on the shoulders of his classmates and cried silently.
When she arrived at school, Lu Jia sorted out her backpack and found that her uncle had secretly stuffed her with money, and after she signed up, she found that her uncle had also come to school. There was only one bus to the city a day, and my uncle looked like he was coming on a motorcycle, his hair was blown high, his eyes were red from the wind, and his eyes were red from the wind, and his eyes were full of tears.
Lu Jia ran to him, "Uncle, why are you here?" ”
He smiled, "It's the first time you've gone far away, and you're still a little uneasy......”
It takes nearly two hours to ride a motorcycle, and Lu Jia suddenly felt sad, "Uncle, I'm almost 16." ”
Uncle took Lu Jia to dinner, and the sadness of parting enveloped Lu Jia, but she knew that the current separation was for the sake of staying together for a long time in the future. She tried desperately to hold back her tears so that her uncle could be reassured.
After eating, Lu Jia looked at the back of his uncle leaving on a motorcycle, and then squatted down and cried fiercely.
Lu Jia graduated after studying computer science for two years.
In the past two years, several male classmates have chased Lu Jia, even if she likes it a little, she will decisively refuse, some female classmates have boyfriends in society, and even some girls are taken care of, but she just wants to graduate quickly to make money.
At that time, computer technology was still very popular, and she quickly found a job after graduation, and when she got her first month's salary, Lu Jia took a special car back to see her uncle, bought a lot of nutritional products for her grandmother, and also bought a small box of chocolates for her mother.
Lu Jia has a sense of pride that she can finally pay for her family.
Lu Jialei couldn't go back to his hometown once a month, his grandmother was getting older than once, in the early winter of the second year when Lu Jia went to work, his grandmother fell and fell ill when she went out to sell vegetables, and finally didn't survive that winter, and her grandmother was still Lu Jia's mother before she died.
Lu Jia didn't have time to be sad for her grandmother, because she still had to take care of her mother.
Mom no longer has a mother, but Lu Jia is like a "mother", hugging her mother to comfort her and sleeping with her.
When she heard her mother call her mother, Lu Jia's heart was also sour, she hugged her mother tightly, 20-year-old Lu Jia, still didn't understand why God was so unfair and why some people were so bitter.
When Lu Jia was 21 years old, her uncle was 47 years old, and Lu Jia began to worry about her uncle's "marriage".
Uncle, I'm grown up, you can find a partner. ”
My uncle said, "I'm this age, what are I looking for?" ”
Lu Jia said, "Find someone to accompany you, as long as you want to find it, you will definitely find it." ”
Uncle shook his head: "Find a partner, who will take care of your mother?" ”
Lu Jia said, "I, I'm going to come back to the town and open a store." ”
The uncle didn't agree, and he was a little angry: "You finally got to the city to stabilize, what are you doing back to the village." Don't be blind for me, I don't have money and my health is not good, and now a good man can't find a partner, let alone me, I'm now, I just hope you're well. ”
Lu Jia's heart was sour, and she still felt regretful, her uncle was such a good person, and he didn't have a companion when he was old.
Lu Jia's mother, since her grandmother died, she is also aging rapidly, her hair is half white, Lu Jia bought hair dye for her hair.
After dyeing my mother's hair, my uncle suddenly proposed to take my mother to the photo studio to take a photo.
Lu Jia asked, "Why?" ”
Uncle paused, and Lu Jia suddenly understood, when her grandmother left, she didn't find a decent ** posthumous photo after looking for a long time, and she still used a one-inch photo when she was young to enlarge it.
After taking a photo of her mother, Lu Jia took a group of family photos with her uncle and her mother.
Lu Jia said, "When my grandmother was there, we didn't take a family photo. ”
On the way back, Lu Jia held her uncle with one hand and her mother with the other, the early autumn sun shone on them, and the trees on the side of the road also cast dappled light and shadow on their feet.
At that time, Lu Jia had only one thought in her mind, hoping that her mother and uncle would live a long life.
Lu Jia worked very hard, and enrolled in a class to learn graphic design in her spare time.
Because of his part-time graphic design after work, he was fired after being discovered by his boss, so Lu Jia simply jumped to a graphic design company and became a professional graphic designer.
When Lu Jia was 24 years old, her mother also died.
That day was an ordinary working day, Lu Jia received a ** from her uncle, and the uncle said calmly, "Your mother is gone." ”
Lu Jia reacted for a few seconds before she understood, at that moment she only felt that her heart suddenly collapsed, and she even took the wrong car to go back, after her mother entered the winter last year, her body began to lose weight suddenly, and her uncle took her mother to the hospital before she learned that there was a tumor in her mother's stomach, which had grown for too long, and it was meaningless.
Knowing that mom would go, I just didn't expect it so soon. On the way back, Lu Jia thought, maybe her mother misses her mother.
Lu Jia went back to change her mother's shroud and put on makeup for her, and her uncle was busy with the funeral, and the posthumous photo was the ** after dyeing her hair.
When sending her mother to the funeral home, Lu Jia couldn't bear to look at it anymore and walked out early.
When the funeral dust settled, everyone left, and only Lu Jia and her uncle were left at home, Lu Jia suddenly asked, "Uncle, do you regret it?" If it weren't for me and my mother, your life would have been better. ”
My uncle said, "Of course there have been regrets, but there are more times when I don't regret them." ”
Lu Jia cried, "Did your mother say anything before leaving?" ”
My uncle said, "She called you by your name, and she called your mother, and she called me by my name, and she stared at me, and I always felt like she wasn't stupid at that moment." She said thank you to me. ”
Lu Jia cried even more.
Lu Jia never thought that only three years later, her uncle also left her.
Since her mother left, her uncle's illness has been good and bad, and Lu Jia almost begged her uncle to have heart surgery, but no one expected that her uncle still couldn't continue to accompany her.
When Lu Jia arrived at the hospital, his uncle was dying, and only the heart rate meter showed that he still had a heartbeat, and his breathing was inaudible. Lu Jia held her uncle's hand, her throat was sore but she could only hold it back, she tried her best to talk to her uncle calmly.
Uncle, I'll be fine, don't worry. ”
Uncle, when I saw my grandmother and mother, help me tell them that I miss them. ”
Uncle, I'm sorry that my mother and I have made you suffer in this life. ”
The uncle's puffy face was bloodless, only his eyes moved, and his pale lips twitched, but he couldn't say anything.
After a few minutes, my uncle closed his eyes.
Uncle is 55 years old and has never married in his life, in Lu Jia's heart, he is her father.
Lu Jia organized her uncle's funeral alone, invited some neighbors who usually come and go a little more, and sent her uncle on the last ride, this time at the funeral home, Lu Jia did not go away until the staff put her uncle in her hand.
Uncle, let's go home. ”
Lu Jia buried her uncle next to her grandmother and mother, and the mountain was quiet and peaceful after the rain, only the mountain wind came and went, like her uncle, grandmother and mother whispering in her ear.
Today, Lu Jia is 30 years old, and her uncle has been dead for a whole year.
She didn't think about her grandmother so much, and she didn't miss her mother so much, she just desperately thought about her uncle, the WeChat he sent to her, she looked at it over and over again, the voice he sent, she listened to it again and again, after her uncle used WeChat, he only sent three moments of friends, all about her, once for her birthday, once when she got her driver's license, and once for a photo of the two of them.
Lu Jia thought that if there is always someone in this world who will redeem you, then the person who redeems her is her uncle.
Uncle gave her a happy childhood and gave her everything.
If he could, Lu Jia would rather not come to this world for a while, and his uncle's life would probably be much happier.
Lu Jia lived alone in their old house, and posted a circle of friends before going to bed: Uncle, I miss you.
As if in response, she had a rare dream of her uncle that night, in which he took her hand and picked her up from school, and the two of them were at a roadside food stall together, and he dreamed that his uncle was standing on the top of the hill and waving to her.
When she woke up, Lu Jia was already in tears.