Why do you instinctively have an aversion to Kiritsugu, because his choice may be the choice you choose when you are faced with a dilemma. When we are at the moment when we can decide life and death, we will instinctively compare life on the scale.
If we were in the kind of situation of Kiritsugu, it is estimated that most people would choose the same as Kiritsugu. Even if we don't want to admit it, when we are faced with a desperate situation, it is always reason that prevails. Perhaps it is only when we are spectators that we are able to make certain judgments based on "feelings". Because when you sacrifice a stranger to keep your loved ones, and you know that it is wrong, the pain in your heart and the condemnation of your conscience are far greater than the pain caused by killing your relatives.
Maybe you will use excuses such as: "This is my family, of course I will save her first, and what others do has nothing to do with me" to convince others, as well as to convince yourself. However, with the passage of time. Your heart will be tormented endlessly, and when the impulses of the moment dissipate and reason slowly takes over, you will be condemned by your conscience, after all, human beings are animals where reason prevails.
There are often no people and things in the world that are perfect both worlds, and everyone is the same. When a person sacrifices everything he has to save others, he may not be thanked, and he may be seen as hypocrite.
But when a person sacrifices others to save everything for himself, in addition to accepting the rebuke from the outside world, more pain comes from the inner torment, just like betraying the entire team in the Vietnam War, in order to save his injured friends, at that time, maybe the object of your salvation will thank you, but as time goes by, this sin becomes heavier and heavier, and this condemnation from conscience becomes more and more harsh, and finally the person who was saved in the past, the person closest to you will also rebuke you, Reprimanding you for carrying an unbearable burden and psychological pressure.
Kiritsugu's choice is like a general attacking a pillbox, if he can't take it, the battle will collapse, and if he attacks, he will die a lot of soldiers.
And just as Shirou Emiya, who is a heroic spirit, hates Shirou as a human, he sees in this person his once naïve self, and when we see Kiritsugu, we instinctively bring ourselves into this role, so as to stand on the moral high ground and judge him from an emotional perspective.
If we had the same background as Emiya Kiritsugu and experienced the same choices, then I think most people would have become more use-oriented than Kiritsugu, and even more "inhuman" than Kiritsugu.
Why is Kiritsugu a hero, because of what he did, isn't he a hero? What is Hero? Since ancient times, it is the heroes who protect the interests of the majority, not from the commanding heights of morality. And what Kiritsugu did also perfectly confirmed this, the greatness of heroes is also lonely, and they are not understood.
A hero is someone who sacrifices everything they have to give to others.
This is what a righteous partner should look like in the real world. Which of the great but miserable people who have made great contributions to the world throughout history has not been controversial? Which one was not once called a demon by the people of a certain era and regarded as **? Because people are too good at starting from their own point of view, from a moral point of view.
Heroes are never the group of people who accept flowers and applause, heroes are the people who bear loneliness and pain, and when they are misunderstood, belittled and insulted by you, they are still persistently saving you, and they are the least accepted by morality, the most despised, but they are indeed the group of people who contribute the most.
Hero is the greatest affirmation and reward for a person, and at the same time, it is also the greatest irony and exploitation of a person.
But in the end, the root of the problem came from the employer who knew that something would bury the whole city with him, but still handed over the matter to the two mercenaries. Is it magic that makes ** shut down in arrears, or is the burial agency going out to travel and can't find anyone? Asking two third-rate magicians to deal with something that can only be handled by the burial mechanism is nonsense. Originally, the matter that could be solved as soon as the enchantment was opened and the cannon was swept away, but it had to force Kiritsugu to go*** Of course, it was still the sentence that Kiritsugu's brutality was not the only solution to the matter: the church had enough force to deal with the destruction of the plane.