Zhu Xun, born in 1973, is the third child in the family, her father is the deputy editor-in-chief of Xinhua News Agency, and her mother is a teacher. Although their family conditions were very good, it did not bring her a happy childhood.
She felt that she lacked the love of her parents, and especially felt strange and resentful of her mother's indifference.
Zhu Xun's parents originally planned to name her "Zhu Xundong", and together with the names of her two sisters, Zhu Xunhong and Zhu Xunfang, they formed "Dongfang Hong". Unfortunately, it was a girl who was born, so the word "east" was removed.
February**Dynamic Incentive Plan Zhu Xun often feels that as soon as she was born, her parents were already disappointed in her.
Zhu Xun's father has been interviewing abroad and returns home very few times a year. Therefore, for Zhu Xun, this father is both familiar and unfamiliar. When his father came back from abroad once, Zhu Xun did not feel happy, but felt resistant to this man who suddenly appeared.
's mother is busy with work, so Zhu Xun has lived with her grandmother since she was a child. This made her spend a childhood full of loneliness. She often asks herself "does my mother love me" alone, but she can't find the answer.
At the age of 14, Zhu Xun, under the leadership of director Tian Zhuangzhuang, starred in the TV series "Rock and Roll Youth", and became famous overnight with his flamboyant ** head style, which was warmly sought after by fans.
As soon as he adjusted his mentality, Zhu Xun came up with the idea of becoming an actor. Her father was sent to Japan to work, and Zhu Xun suggested that she study in Japan, hoping to spend more time with her parents.
To my surprise, my mother's reply was unusually cold, she said, "Give you one semester's tuition, and you can figure out the rest." ”
When Zhu Xun was 17 years old, she came to a strange foreign country and faced a life of self-reliance, and a strong rebellion and determination emerged in her heart - she must learn to support herself and no longer rely on her parents.
After Zhu Xun arrived in Japan, he did not receive the expected parental love. She lives independently without any living expenses, and can only rely on her own part-time job to make ends meet.
When she first came to Japan, she was not proficient in Japanese, so she could only take on jobs that did not require language communication. Her first job was to wash toilets in a high-end office building. She needs to squat on the ground with the old employee and wipe the dirt stuck to the surface of the toilet and the floor with a rag.
Although he felt disgusting, in order to survive, Zhu Xun could only endure the humiliation. Once, she accidentally knocked over a bucket and she tried to hold on to a woman who had come in to go to the bathroom, but the stain on her gloves accidentally stained her dress.
The woman's face instantly became gloomy, and Zhu Xun could only helplessly accept that another aunt who was also cleaning the toilet just now pressed her head to apologize to the woman. Zhu Xun felt that she was worthless, and fell from a privileged environment to a humble dust, and this humiliation made her miserable.
Zhu Xun told himself that he had to learn Japanese as soon as possible and find a decent job. After working tirelessly, she has been able to communicate in Japanese at a basic level. So, she quit her job washing toilets and got a job washing dishes in a restaurant.
Zhu Xun did well at work, and her employer promoted her to work as a waitress, which effectively improved her Japanese language skills. In less than a year, her Japanese language has reached the level of fluency in conversation.
At this critical moment, Zhu Xun was found to have a hemangioma and needed surgery. She called her mother for help, but her mother didn't show any concern. Zhu Xun had to walk into the operating room alone.
Faced with the fear of being on the verge of life and death, she endured her resentment of her mother's indifference. Although the operation failed and required a second operation, her mother reluctantly came to see her for an hour, but left in a hurry without caring about her injuries and feelings.
After undergoing surgery, Zhu Xun decided to return to his position as a host to reduce his dependence on manual labor. With his outstanding language skills and rich hosting experience in Japan, Zhu Xun began to emerge in various programs.
In order to take care of her ailing mother, she decided to give up her career in Japan and return to China to pursue development.
When Zhu Xun first returned to China, he joined ** TV station and served as the host of "Zhengda Variety Show". However, she couldn't adapt to the domestic hosting form, coupled with her lack of proficiency in Mandarin and frequent mistakes, which made her criticized by the audience as a "vase".
In a live broadcast, Zhu Xun was nervous, and the audience had problems such as forgetting words and losing his voice. After the show, the director decided to move her off the stage and change her to a backstage clerk.
This year, Zhu Xun realized his shortcomings, so he worked hard to improve his language organization skills. A year later, her strength improved significantly, and the director gave her another chance to return to the stage. Zhu Xun was very grateful to the director for giving her a second chance, so she became the "desperate Sanniang" in the program group and took the initiative to undertake all the difficult and dangerous tasks.
Zhu Xun is very eager to be satisfied and recognized by others, and she works hard for this, hoping not to disappoint anyone. Just as she has always longed for her mother's approval, she hopes to satisfy everyone through her efforts. In the end, Zhu Xun gained a firm foothold in the hosting industry with his excellent professional strength and won many industry awards.
Just as Zhu Xun was on the right track in his career, his father was diagnosed with bowel cancer. When he was seriously ill, his father expressed his wish to go back to his hometown to see, but Zhu Xun was worried about the fatigue of the journey and did not agree. Later, his father failed to do so, and this regret became a pain in Zhu Xun's life.
After her father passed away, her mother insisted on immigrating to Canada alone, but Zhu Xun's hard work to keep her was to no avail, and her mother left her again. Zhu Xun's heart was like a knife, and he was determined to cherish every moment with his mother even more.
At the age of 34, Zhu Xun was diagnosed with cancer, and the tumor was close to the vocal cords, and the doctor recommended removing the vocal cords. This news is like a bolt from the blue for Zhu Xun, as a host, the vocal cords mean everything to her.
She mustered up the courage to decide to have surgery to ** the lesion.
Zhu Xun did not tell the studio before the operation, but chose to stick to her work, and after hosting all the program recordings normally, she wanted to say goodbye on the stage. But she didn't know if she would be able to return to the stage afterwards, so she could only hope for the surgery.
On the day of the operation, her husband and son were by her side, and she did not feel abandoned by her family again. After the operation, the doctor told her that her vocal cords were saved, and Zhu Xun was so excited that she burst into tears.
Since then, Zhu Xun has cherished his stage career even more. In the process of battling cancer, every hosting is her celebration of life. has appeared on the stage of the Spring Festival Gala 7 times, which is her firmness and persistence in life.
Despite several times of cancer** and chemotherapy that made her feel extremely weak, she still insisted on participating in the 7th Spring Festival Gala. Now, she has successfully fought cancer for 14 years and has a deeper sense of reverence for life.
Time is precious to the stage, and she knows better than anyone how hard it will come to chance.
Zhu Xun once said: "I must live to be 90 years old and show those who say I have passed away." This is both a desire for life and a powerful response to rumors.
After going through ups and downs, Zhu Xun can calmly face all criticism. She only hopes that she can live longer and realize the unfulfilled ideals in her heart.
Zhu Xun recalled her mother's indifference to her over the years, which made her unable to understand and be relieved. When she was 17 years old, she underwent surgery alone in a foreign country, and her mother ignored her. After the death of her father, her mother immigrated to Canada despite her retention. Faced with the torture of cancer, her mother never gave her the slightest care.
Zhu Xun was deeply hurt by these indifferent and ruthless behaviors in his heart.
Until participating in the "Hello, Life" program, Zhu Xun stood on the top of the mountain and shouted into the distance: "Mom, I miss you, come back!" Before the words fell, she could no longer suppress the thoughts in her heart, tears rained down, and she cried bitterly in the arms of the guest Ni Ping.
During the epidemic, Zhu Xun has not been able to see her 85-year-old mother in Canada for a year, and she is very worried about her mother's health and life, but she cannot take care of it herself. Zhu Xun has always been concerned about his mother and wants to make up for the regrets he had with his mother in the past.
Later, Zhu Xun and his mother participated in the recording of the program "Sunset Red", and her mother finally explained the past. She said that Japan only gave her a half-day vacation, so she could not spend the night in the hospital; And I went to Canada because my eldest daughter was lonely.
Although Zhu Xun still has some questions, she has begun to understand her mother's intentions.
Today, Zhu Xun is 50 years old and is in the most experienced stage of his life. However, her mother is 87 years old, and Zhu Xun knows very well that the days of accompanying her mother are numbered. Her only wish was to be reunited with her mother.
After experiencing the wind and rain, Zhu Xun understands the value of family affection even more. She gradually understood that family affection is the most difficult emotion in the world to replace. The pain and grievances of the past have gradually faded with the passage of time. She only hopes to be with her mother for the rest of her life.