forYuan, the widow sewed her clothes and lost her innocence.
In the countryside of the twenties and thirties of the twentieth century, submissiveness was often used to describe women who had no choice but to accept the poison of feudal society. Under the influence of their mothers, mothers-in-law, and the women of the previous generation, they were accustomed to laundry and cooking, serving their husbands and in-laws with care, and raising their children diligently, taking these things for granted, and never questioning this life.
This virtue is commendable in the eyes of men, but behind this virtue these women suffer greatly. In "The Field of Life and Death", the fate of Jin Zhi is a strong call and cry for this predicament, a depiction of despair and awakening with no way out.
17-year-old Jin Zhi is still in the age of youth and ignorance, and she falls in love with Chengye, who is herding cattle by the river. At that time, the tomatoes in the vegetable garden were round and red, and the carrots and green turnips were growing well, and a group of girls were happily busy harvesting, gradually filling their baskets.
Only Jin Zhi was absent-minded, her basket was empty, but her thoughts drifted into the distance. Finally, the sound of whips and whistles can be heard by the river in the distance, and Jin Zhi immediately picks up the basket and runs to the date with Chengye.
Jin Zhi's love should not be denied because of the malice of others, and her happiness should be recognized. Chengye is a man who has only met three times, and he easily strips the golden branch of her dignity and violates her.
The simplicity of the golden branch made her defenseless, and her widowed mother only valued the crops and ignored her daughter's feelings. Jin Zhi was deceived by a man like this, and she became pregnant in a daze.
Despite what happened to Jin Zhi, she still deserves our respect and love. Let's pray together for her happiness and hope that she can find someone who truly loves her and live a happy life.
Vomiting, nausea, these morning sickness reactions seemed to be a good weapon to corrupt the girl's morality, and the gossip in the village became more and more intense. Jin Zhi had no choice but to cover his stomach when he noticed that a piece of meat had grown in his stomach, and let the tears flow.
Finally hearing the familiar whistle, Jin Zhi took the risk of being discovered by the widowed mother and secretly ran to the toilet to see Chengye, wanting to think of a way, what should her stomach do?
Can you plan to marry yourself? Chengye didn't care about any of this. The man was instinctively instructed, and suddenly pressed the pale golden branch against the gray corner, and then pressed it, muttering: "Fuck it, you deserve to be willing or not, anyway!" ”
Jin Zhi finally realizes that allowing her belly to turn into a man-eating monster means that she has lost her future. She understands that only by loving herself can she expect the love of others.
However, Jin Zhi is too rash in her knowledge of people, and she easily surrenders her fate to an unreliable man. Can she still have a good future?
Seeing that Jin Zhi vomited from time to time, the widowed mother couldn't help but ask her if she had swallowed flies and if she was suffering from tuberculosis. Jin Zhi's eyes were full of tears, and she wriggled and begged her widowed mother to let her marry Chengye, who couldn't make it.
However, if she can't marry the father of the child in her womb, Jin Zhi's fate will be to be poked in the back, and there will be no place for her in the village.
When Jin Zhi was married to someone he didn't like, the widowed mother did not beat and scold Jin Zhi as usual, but was numb for a long time as if she was also guilty, and finally agreed.
At this time, although the widowed mother understood the truth of the matter, she seemed to see her life with resentment, and also felt the humiliation of her daughter's incident, and silently shed tears.
In this harsh society, women are doomed to the sorrow of the golden branch from the moment they never marry and have children. Xiao Jinzhi was thrown to death, and pregnancy is a punishment for women.
At the age of 17, Jin Zhi's stomach gradually swelled, and she could only go to the river to wash clothes and cook in the kitchen with a big belly.
Chengye will only think that Jin Zhi's work is unfavorable and lazy. When the production was about to be made, Chengye only cared about his own desires, and pressed the painful golden branch to work hard. As a result, Jin Zhi had a difficult birth, and she could only bear the pain of opening her ten fingers with a bitter face, and give birth to a child day and night.
Chengye was indifferent, and even thought that the production of gold branches was too slow, and it was not good for no one to cook. He treats Jin Zhi as ruthlessly and indifferently as an animal, which shows that there is a measure of oppression.
Once, Jin Zhi was the goddess of Chengye's heart, and her beauty and ability made the young men in the village favor her. However, when she gets married, becomes pregnant, and gets into a difficult life, she is no longer the girl who has attracted much attention, but is belittled and loses the affection and care of her career.
The silly women in the village would cry when they gave birth, but Jin Zhi began to be busy with housework more than ten days after the difficult birth, and he didn't even have time to take care of Xiao Jin Zhi. At that time, life was difficult, the grain harvest was poor, and Xiao Jinzhi's hunger was even more obvious, and he would only cry.
This cry upset Chengye, especially at night, Xiao Jinzhi's crying made Chengye unable to sleep, so he could only start scolding. Chengye has no love for Jin Zhi, and he has no love for himself and Xiao Jinzhi.
Men who only think about themselves and have never been considerate of others, and have never truly loved others. That day, Chengye went home and saw that there were only pickles and porridge on the table, and Jin Zhi was in his arms**, and his emotions exploded again.
Chengye felt that the mother and daughter would only drag themselves down, and sooner or later he himself would starve to death. Chengye's insults filled the room: "Loser, what's the use of raising you?"
Sell it, you'll just cry all day long. "Less than a month later, can the little golden branch ** understand all this? Chengye's vicious words make Xiao Jinzhi feel scared, and she can only use her natural ability to fight - crying.
Xiao Jinzhi's cry made Chengye even more angry. "I sell? I'll kill her! ......What do I sell! In this way, this newborn life was cruelly taken away.
Poor little Golden Branches never really saw the world, she came to this world crying, and she left crying.
Jin Zhi came to the mass grave with the thought of Xiao Jinzhi, but saw only rags and the mournful sound in the wind. Jin Zhi also began to cry, cursing the man and resenting his ruthlessness.
Although the man defiled her dollar, he was still the pillar of the family in that society. However, Chengye's death left Jin Zhi with nowhere to go, and the hardships of life made the woman's life even more difficult.
So, Jin Zhi decided to leave the mass grave and go to the city to earn a living. She became a sewing woman, working hard, getting up early and staying late, regardless of food, just to make money.
However, the people in the women's shop directly siphoned off three-quarters of her hard-earned money, and Jin Zhi guarded her hard-earned money tightly and was unwilling to hand it over. She was surrounded and robbed, this is the law of survival in that society, and the law of the jungle is the truth.
Jin Zhi has no choice but to endure the pain and continue to survive in the women's shop. Tears flowed in her heart, but she could only grit her teeth and look for other ways to make money.
Jin Zhi knows how to make a living, and she observes how other sewing women come directly to the door, go to the bachelor's dormitory, sew up, and come back. Jin Zhi did the same, and cautiously went to his dormitory with a bachelor.
The bachelor's dormitory was so narrow that it could only accommodate one bed, and Jin Zhi was frightened when he saw the bed, so he was far away from the bed and began to sew bedding and clothes for the bachelor. Perhaps the Golden Bough had a premonition of what was going to happen.
After the sewing was done, the bachelor handed the golden branch a dollar, then rudely closed the door and took off the golden branch's clothes. Jin Zhi struggled desperately, crying for help, but the feeble cries for help turned into futility, and she could not break free from the clutches of the bachelor.
Jin Zhi walked back to the women's shop dejectedly, every step was like stepping on tears, and his heart was torn apart beyond healing. The other sewing women knew this kind of thing, and guessed that Jin Zhi must have made a lot of money to lose his soul so much.
They looked at the pain of the golden branch, and although they were not surprised, they washed and slept on their own, for they had experienced this pain before. In this patriarchal society, women's loyalty is the most important, and a woman's life can only depend on one husband.
is like Xianglin's sister-in-law in "Blessing", who would rather touch the corner of the table than remarry. The same goes for the Golden Bough. She felt ashamed and painful, tossing and turning, unable to sleep, she wanted to go back to the countryside, to return to her widowed mother, to lie in her widow's arms and weep silently.
In Jin Zhi's heart, her hatred for China is indescribable, because the oppression she has been suffering from has made her feel deep pain and hatred. Her heart was so disheartened that she felt like a knife, and she said sadly: "I hate the Chinese, and I don't hate anything else." ”
In this troubled world, the situation of the golden branch is becoming more and more difficult. The Japanese invaded, the people were struggling to make a living, and people often died innocently and tragically in the village, and hungry dogs were waiting on mass graves. This is what Xiao Hong said about the countryside: "In the countryside, people and animals are busy living and dying together. ”
What should the golden branch go to? She wanted to become a monk. Don't live or die, don't choose to become a monk! If she chooses to become a monk, it means that she is celibate, vegetarian, takes the temple as her home, does not have any property or money, and dedicates her life to the benefit of all sentient beings.
Perhaps in Jin Zhi's view, the world is hard, and the monk is also hard, but being a monk is a kind of home, a shelter she can go to. However, when Jin Zhi stood at the door of the nun's dying, the porter was closed and no one answered.
At this time, the nun was already empty, leaving a barren land. A neighbor's woman said that the nun was dying after the July Seven Incident. Looking through the iron gate, you can also see a little Nifo in the nun's room, sitting desolately.
Little Nifo can not eat or drink, and keep the open space. What about the Golden Branch? Should she go to **? **Is there a place for her again? At this difficult time, Jin Zhi can only be left alone, looking for his own way out.
The final fate of the golden branch is unknown, but the tragedy of her life is deeply touching. The 9.6 million square kilometers of beautiful rivers and mountains cannot accommodate a weak woman's golden branches.
Her life is like a microcosm of the fate of rural women in the old society, without a father or husband, without children and daughters, and lonely. In her life, there was no laughter, only suffering and tears.
She endured the beating and scolding of her widowed mother, the ruthlessness of Chengye, the death of Little Golden Branch, the bullying of bachelors, and the indifference of everyone. Perhaps, the fate of the golden branch, like her name, finally left this world with tears.