Why can't you be less angry?
Why do you always have to think that someone is sorry for you? Why do you always have to be rewarded by someone? Why are you always talking to yourself like a nervous person, you have made yourself so pitiful, your daughter has to love you more than herself.
It's so tiring to live!
Sangsang is a child born in a single-parent family, her parents are divorced, her mother Jiang Hua's expectations for her are very high, but they are not so high, Jiang Hua's feelings for Sangsang are very special, she regards Sangsang as all the support in her life.
Jiang Hua has a maiden family, and there are two younger brothers in her mother's family, Jiang Hua's essence is to help her younger brother, maybe because she was not treated well when she was a child, Jiang Hua is especially good at pleasing people.
Almost Sangsang's grandmother said that Jiang Hua would do it. So Sangsang's grandmother said don't let Sangsang go to college, girls generally marry to other places when they go to college, do you think you won't have a daughter to support you in the future?
So Jiang Hua told Sang Sang that there was no money for her to go to college. And her health is very poor, so she doesn't let Sangsang go out to work, so she lets Sangsang follow her and accompany her to make a small stall to earn some living expenses.
Sangsang disagreed.
Jiang Hua cried from midnight to early morning while Sang Sang was sleeping. After a summer vacation, Jiang Hua cried so much that his eyesight deteriorated, and he fainted one morning. Grandma Jiang came to scold Sang Sang angrily, unfilial, unreasonable, if something happened to Jiang Hua, she would make Sang Sang lose his life; Later, the uncles of the Jiang family also came, and they beat Wei Sangsang violently and reprimanded him; Sang Sang eventually had to tear up the acceptance letter for the sake of her mother.
Sangsang was controlled by Jiang Hua and worked for Jiang Hua's stall, but Jiang Hua never gave her a salary; Sang Sang often uses cheap skin care products, but even then Jiang Hua was angrily scolded by Jiang Hua for growing so old and using her money; Jiang Hua will tell her girlfriends that Sangsang is useless, always eats her, drinks her, uses her, and never filial to her.
Sangsang was controlled by Jiang Hua to make friends, until Sangsang had no friends. Whenever there is anyone close to Sangsang, Jiang Hua will appear and tell this person, saying that Sangsang is a waste, and he relies on her to eat and drink without a job, and he insists on hanging the word gnawing old on Sangsang's head. Sang Sang gradually didn't like to talk, his spirit was numb, his reaction was slow, he couldn't sleep all night long, and his hair fell out one by one. Jiang Hua thinks that Sangsang is hypocritical. I don't have the slightest ability, I can't even talk well, it's just a waste of waste.
Jiang Hua once again listened to Grandma Jiang's words and wanted to tell Sangsang about a family matter. The conditions don't have to be too good, the bride price can also be avoided, the in-laws must promise to give Sangsang a child to give to Jiang Hua, and then promise to give Jiang Hua a pension.
When Jiang Hua was looking for a candidate, he didn't have to ask Sang Sang's opinion at all. Directly type Sangsang's birthday into a business card and give it to every school-age boy, and explain the conditions to the other party's parents.
Sangsang felt that many people were picking on her, and anyone could disrespect her without paying any price, they looked down on Sangsang, saying that Sangsang must be diligent if he married into their family, saying that their family does not raise lazy goods, and Sangsang is so thin that he doesn't know if he can give birth to a boy. The ass is so small. They disliked Sangsang, and they were close to Sangsang, eager to send Sangsang into the cave room immediately.
Jiang Hua laughed, and decided to let Sang Sang accompany a man to sleep on the spot.
Afterwards, Jiang Hua said that she was just joking at that time. If you do sleep with those guys, I'm really going to beat you. Jiang Hua smiled casually again.
Sang Sang felt humiliated, she had already developed a trance. She couldn't resist Jiang Hua because Jiang Hua threatened her with his life; At the same time, she couldn't accept such a humiliating life.
Sang Sang finally took a knife and cut his wrists. was stopped by Jiang Hua on the spot, and at the same time, he was violently beaten by Jiang Hua.
I raised you so big, you want to die if you don't repay me, are you worthy of me? ”
Damn, I'll kill you? I let you kill yourself, I let you kill yourself, you waste, I shouldn't have given birth to you. ”
I just want to die, and I don't owe you anything when I die. I tell you, it's a shame on me to be born to you, and I don't appreciate you at all. Jiang Hua, you can't imagine how dark I am, you can't imagine how many times I want to kill you and then commit suicide. Jiang Hua, I really hate you very much. As long as I can leave you, not being able to live is just a trivial matter. ”
Jiang Hua slapped Sang Sang many times again, Jiang Hua punched and kicked Sang Sang, Jiang Hua repeated it over and over again, killing you unfilial thing. Shoot you.
This night, Grandma Jiang rushed over, she said, "I knew you were like this, and I should have strangled you to death when I was born." ”
I wish I had died sooner. ”
Sangsang's attitude was too tough. Grandma Jiang couldn't help but beat Sang Sang in the end. "Why can't you feel sorry for your mother, she is your real mother, the only mother in your life. ”
What reason do I have to feel sorry for her anymore. I don't want to call her mom anymore, she's the enemy I can't wait to die with. ”
I hate me for being guilty. ”
I just want to die for myself, I'm guilty, can't I die to atone for my sins? ”
You kid, how can you be so ignorant? Grandma Jiang was also unbelievable that Sang Sang could say such a thing.
The contradiction between Sangsang and Jianghua is irreconcilable. Sang Sang either wanted to commit suicide or wanted to kill Jiang Hua and then commit suicide, if he was crazy, forget it. But Sangsang's thinking is very clear. She consciously takes it upon herself to make such decisions. Jiang Hua had to let go of Sangsang, and when he left, Jiang Hua said, "You have eaten me and drunk me for so many years, I won't give you money to use, you can do it yourself in the future." When you've had enough, you're not going to come back. ”
Grandma Jiang also said, "Your mother is all for your good, if you dare to harm your mother like this, you will definitely have retribution." ”
Sangsang left, and thought about going home during the New Year's holidays. But she also knows that the past cannot be traced. When she meets Jiang Hua again, she will still lose control of her emotions, and she would rather die with her.
The pain at that time was really painful, and every self-torture meant that Sang Sang was hating Jiang Hua.
Sangsang said: "Over the years, I have worked really hard. ”
Mom, it's really hard and hard to love you! ”
It's so hard that I have to give up. ”
I won't forgive you. ”
I allow everything to happen, to embrace everything to happen,"
Please also bear with the truth that I really hate you. I really can't forgive you. ”
Goodbye, Jiang Hua. Please allow us to have no mother-daughter relationship. I hope you're good, good, good, but if you're good, you're going to be with you, I'd rather die.
Jiang Hua, don't complain anymore that you gave birth to a daughter, okay?
Jiang Hua, can you not make yourself very pitiful and then tell your friends that your daughter is pitiful to you?
Jiang Hua, can you tell everyone that you are very bitter and bitter, but in fact, it has nothing to do with me.
Jiang Hua, I'm so tired! I wish I could be far, far away from you. I'll keep running in order to be far, far away from you, and I'm not going to look back at you.
Everything that has happened in the past, how much I believed that you were indeed doing it for my good.
But I still have to be stronger, a little stronger, so that I can leave you a little farther away; I thought what a sad truth, I believe you are doing it for my good, but when it is true that I can only be happy when I am far away from you.
Do you accept what I have said above? Will you feel sad about the above truth, what I think in my heart? Will you beat me up again?
Jiang Hua, in fact, I really love you!