In this world, there is a silence that is louder than the noise. It is not wordless, but a deep sigh, an unspeakable pain. It's a story of change, trust, care, and security, a trajectory of a heart oscillating between loving and being loved.
You're not in a position to say I've changed. This sentence, like a sharp knife, pierces the tranquility of the years and reveals the secrets hidden in the bottom of the heart. When my eyes are full of you, my world is lit up by your smile, and your every move touches all my emotions. But at that time, did you cherish it? Did you notice the light in my eyes, did you feel that deep emotion?
When I believe in you unconditionally, my heart is like an unguarded grassland, allowing you to gallop. But at that time, were you worthy of that trust? Do you carefully guard this grassland, or do you let it go barren until the wind and sand cover it?
When I was at my hardest, I groped in the dark, looking for a glimmer of light. But at that time, did you care? Would you rather be that light and light my path, or leave me alone in the darkness?
Countless moments when I needed you, I chose to shut up. My silence is not speechless, but a kind of waiting, a kind of expectation. But you don't understand my sudden silence, how can you understand the sadness I don't want to say? The details of this thing, I said that you do it, and it becomes cheap; I said that if you don't do it, I'll be cheap. Does this mean that the relationship between us has become so cheap?
What you ask for is not the same as what you give voluntarily. Adult affection is not just about liking. What it requires is understanding, respect and commitment. You can never grow up, but I can't be insecure forever. I can't stand in the wind and rain forever, waiting for your return.
So, when you say I've changed, think about it, who started the change first? Who made the relationship so fragile? I am no longer the one who can give unconditionally because I have learned to protect myself and to find a balance between loving and being loved.
This is not an article of accusations, but a confession about growth and self-preservation. We are all changing, and we are all learning how to live better. I hope that in the future, we can all find the person who can cherish and support each other, so that love is no longer a burden, but a strength. Love