In the cool of early autumn, the leaves are fluttering, but this does not hide the blooming flowers in the palace. At this time, the show girls are waiting for the arrival of **. An Lingrong held his forehead and looked at the prosperity of the palace, with both expectation and apprehension in his heart. She came all the way from Songyang County, like a freed prison bird, pinning all her hopes on becoming a queen.
Her wish is simple: to bring glory to her mother's family and win glory for her mother; Don't hurt others, just live in peace. However, she didn't realize that the walls of the palace were like a tiger's mouth, and once she stepped inside, her fate was no longer in her hands. Although she later became infinitely favored, behind all this, there were countless sacrifices.
When An Lingrong first entered the palace, she was bullied. In order to gain a foothold in the deep palace, she had to fight with other palace maids in a painstaking and lonely way. However, in the end, she did not even have the freedom to conceive. The price of all this is for the desire to get ahead.
When An Lingrong first arrived in the capital, in order to save money, she lived in an inn far from the palace. On the day she entered the palace, she tasted the warmth and coldness of human affection. When she accidentally bumps into the arrogant Xia Dongchun, she is mocked for wearing a long-outdated woven satin. Xia Dongchun humiliated her in public and let everyone know her poor background - whether she could be selected as a show girl or not, it seemed destined to be despised.
However, Zhen Huan stepped forward and stood on An Lingrong's side. She took off her pendant and broke a begonia flower and inserted it in An Lingrong's hair. This simple act soothed An Lingrong's wounded heart. In the ruthless harem, Zhen Huan became the comfort and light in An Lingrong's heart.
In this gorgeous palace, An Lingrong began her new life. But the beginning of this new life did not go well. When Xia Dongchun became the head of the first house by virtue of his background, Xiao An had to endure the eyes of others. Whenever she was forced to be in a hurry, she could only hide in her side hall, twist her handkerchief, and silently shed tears. Her low self-esteem stems from her background and upbringing.
Her mother was a woman from a small family, and with her own embroidery, she got a sesame petty official for her husband. However, the husband did not cherish it after gaining power, and married several aunts, who gave birth to children again. My mother has been in charge of this man for most of her life, but in the end, she ended up blind, and she couldn't even get her husband's protection.
In such a family environment, An Lingrong's mother taught her daughter a value by words and deeds: you must know how to dedicate and repay grievances with virtue. This value left a deep impression on An Lingrong's heart, making her think that if she didn't dedicate, she was useless.
In this Forbidden City, the imperial power and magnates are all-encompassing. Some people are backed by family forces such as the Guerga clan and the Fucha clan, while others are from the Jeju co-leaders and the nouveau riche families of the court. And in such an environment, An Lingrong, who has no one to support her, is as helpless as catkins in the wind. The people in the palace worship high and low, she can only use the leftover things chosen by others, and even the little girl next to Xia Dongchun can give her a look. No matter how kind Zhen Huan and Meizhuang were to her, in An Lingrong's eyes, the items they gave away became "gifts", which highlighted the strict hierarchy in the palace and made her fall into an inferiority complex and embarrassment.
At that time, An Lingrong had not been affected by the infighting in the deep palace, and all her actions were out of her own heart. She sincerely thinks about Zhen Huan, and her actions such as contradicting Xia Dongchun and instructing to kill Yu Promise are the best proof. And when Xia Chang was blocking the way of the sisters and making sarcastic remarks, An Lingrong smiled and replied softly, showing great wit and courage. With poisoned wine and white silk in hand, An Lingrong faced a difficult choice.
In this predicament, she chose a despicable method and quietly instructed Su Peisheng to strangle the Yu family to prevent future troubles. She was originally weak, but in order to protect herself, she did such a vicious thing. She thought that her sister Zhen Huan would be grateful for her help, but she didn't expect that outside the window of Broken Yuxuan, she heard Zhen and Shen say that she was vicious. This made her feel like a knife in her heart, and she felt deeply betrayed.
An Lingrong used to be a simple girl, but her mother's utilitarian mentality distorted her heart. She is bent on proving her worth and getting the attention of her sisters, but she has never been able to get rid of her inferiority complex. She didn't realize that even without a prominent family background, her gentleness and gentleness were valuable qualities. She mistakenly believes that only those who are dependent on the strong can survive, and this "petty family spirit" is her biggest weakness.
In the palace, she was humiliated, but she didn't know that this was the retribution of her demons. She worked hard to integrate into Zhen Huan's circle and looked for other backers. At that time, she won the emperor's favor with her beautiful singing voice, but this also attracted the jealousy of Concubine Hua. Late one night, she was humiliated by Concubine Hua as a kabuki, and the emperor did not speak out to defend Concubine Hua's face. This made her determined to become strong and trample everyone under her feet.
However, she has never been able to recognize that the gap between herself and Zhen Huan is not a family, but a pattern. She pursues power and status, but ignores inner peace and calmness. She didn't know that true strength was not attached to the tree, but inner tenacity and self-sufficiency. It's a pity that An Lingrong didn't understand this truth until he died.
An Lingrong carefully planned the miscarriage incident of the Fucha nobles. At noon that day, she went to Jingren Palace to greet the queen. The queen chatted with her kindly and mentioned a cat in the palace named Matsuko. The queen said that spring has arrived, and cats have also reached estrus, but pine nuts always like to pounce on things. An Lingrong is a smart person, so he naturally understands the meaning of the queen's words. Now that you have embarked on this path, there is no possibility of backing down.
Soon, the Fucha nobles suffered misfortune and had a miscarriage. This kind of thing happens once, and there will inevitably be a second time. An Lingrong used various means, such as soothing gum, oleander, etc., to serve the queen. For the queen, An Lingrong is a gentle knife, obedient and decisive, and easy to use. In return, An Lingrong also received a reward from the emperor and could give Zhen Huan some objects.
However, deep down in her heart, she is still a little woman who has never seen the world. Although she struggles to compete for favor and is driven by her father's status, she is still full of confusion in her heart. Before she had time to think about her inferiority and pride, she was driven forward by desire.
Under the protection of the queen, An Lingrong was proud of the spring breeze in the harem, and he favored the six palaces for a while, just like Zhen Huan back then. Although some people ridiculed her as a pair of dog skin plasters next to the queen, even though the queen let her drink the avoidance soup after she accepted her favor, she didn't care. In her opinion, these are all things that she uses for herself"Value"In exchange.
However, those good days are as illusory as a mirror. After Zhen Huan returned to the palace, An Lingrong's fate took a huge turn. She was first identified as an ominous person by Qin Tianjian, and then she was poisoned by Concubine Qi. Zhen Huan, Shen Meizhuang and the queen also began to dislike her, and in the end, they were even bullied by the two Xiaochang to their own palace.
Her life became a mess and she could never go back to the good old days. An Lingrong, a woman who has been repeatedly hit by fate, she has experienced hardships in the palace and endured endless cold eyes and neglect. For years, she has lived in the shadow of the queen and is used to being manipulated and manipulated. Now, the queen's snub to her has made her feel unprecedented panic and helplessness. In order to regain the emperor's favor, she did not hesitate to choose to compete for favor with ice, and even took the deadly muscle pill and the incense of fascination.
She looked at the red pill in her hand, and her heart was full of bitterness. Over the years, she has given up her dignity and ability to be independent for the sake of honor and status. She knew that she had fallen too deep and could no longer leave this seemingly prosperous but empty life.
Concubine Qi's loss of power made An Lingrong lose his last support. Looking at her father kneeling in front of the Heart Cultivation Palace, her heart was like a knife. However, no matter how much she pleaded, the emperor never intended to forgive. In desperation, she can only use fake pregnancy to try to save her father's life. She knew the child wouldn't survive, but she had no choice.
Under the sun of the imperial city, An Ling looked at the vast sky and thought about his past. Her life was full of pain and helplessness, as if she was bound by the cruelty of reality from the moment she entered the palace. She had fantasized about finding true love and respect in this magnificent imperial city, but reality ruthlessly shattered her dreams.
An Lingrong knew that the emperor didn't really love her, he just liked her obedience and obedience. He traded favor for her obedience, and she had to submit to him for the sake of life and the safety of her family. Although her heart was full of grievances and unwillingness, she had to continue to struggle in such a life.
Looking back on the past years, An Lingrong found that his former glory and status were all based on nothingness. In the queen's calculations and the emperor's indifference, she gradually lost her true self. Now, she can't escape this fate and can only continue to move forward in endless pain. An Lingrong's life can be described as tortuous and bizarre. She has always been manipulated by others like a chess piece, whether it is the queen or Zhen Huan, they have never treated her sincerely. The queen just treats her as a handy person, saying good things for her to serve when she needs them, and ignoring her when she doesn't; And Zhen Huan, the woman who was once a sister to her, hated her to the bone in the end.
When all the truth was revealed, all the wrong things An Lingrong did were exposed. In the afternoon sun, her face looked particularly bleak. She took a deep breath, it was her air, and even though half a life had passed, it was the freedom she had not seen for a long time. Zhen Huan once said that no matter how cold she is, she shouldn't use other people's blood to warm herself, An Lingrong's sin lies in the fact that she always uses it"Justice"In the name of seeking a chance to survive by any means.
At the last moment of her life, An Lingrong apologized to Zhen Huan, and her stable life was ruined by herself after all. Perhaps at this moment, she really realized her mistake. When the morning sun rose and the Forbidden City was bathed in the morning light of new life, An Lingrong chose to swallow bitter almonds and end his life. This seems to be an act of death, but it is actually her rebirth. She knows that the sins of her life cannot be washed away, and ending in this way may be her courage to live to death.
Recalling the day of the draft, the begonia that Zhen Huan put on for her seemed to be the arrangement of fate, which opened her joys and sorrows. If he had left the palace at the beginning, An Lingrong might have been able to have a simple but happy life. However, there is no if in life, and the begonias on the sideburns have long been a thing of the past.
Every choice in life has a profound impact, and Ahn Lingrong's story reminds us that we should always uphold justice and conscience, and never harm others for our own selfish desires. In this world full of uncertainties, we should cherish the present, stick to our original intention, and don't let our fate be as uncontrollable as that begonia.