In the small world full of life, Zhou Rong, the pride of the Zhou family, has attracted attention since she was a child with her smart and outstanding appearance. She has a pure belief in love, and even resolutely chose to elope to Guizhou for this belief and married Feng Huacheng. In that distant mountain city, she spent countless bitter and warm days and nights with him, and was willing to give her best youth.
Cai Xiaoguang, the loyal suitor who has always been by Zhou Rong's side, his love is so deep, but he has never been able to touch Zhou Rong's heart. In her heart, there is only Feng Huacheng's place. However, Feng Huacheng's betrayal tore Zhou Rong's heart again and again. His entanglement with his ex-wife, and the fact that he brought other women home, Zhou Rong witnessed all of this.
After her heart was broken, Zhou Rong chose to divorce, which is her persistence in love and self-redemption. However, when she saw the poem published by Feng Huacheng, the sentence "no complaints and no regrets" seemed to be a summary of her past. Why is she still so determined after all the pain? What kind of secret is hidden in this?
In fact, Zhou Rong's feelings for Feng Huacheng were full of complications from the beginning. Her admiration for him stemmed from his talent and poetry, and this emotion grew day by day in that special era. And her love for him has become more and more firm after the precipitation of time and the tempering of life.
This brings us a revelation: in love, girls should be wiser. Zhou Rong's story tells us that we should clarify our emotions in love and distinguish between worship and love. Only in this way can we avoid unnecessary harm and move towards a better future. In the heart of the girl Zhou Rong, she had a unique emotion for the poet Feng Huacheng who she had never met. is at the age when love is beginning to bloom, and she can't tell whether her feelings for Feng Huacheng are worship or love. So, she hid from her parents and went to Beijing to find Feng Huacheng.
When Cai Xiaoguang mentioned this matter to Zhou Bingkun, even Zhou Bingkun, who is usually wooden, bluntly said that his sister Zhou Rong may have fallen in love with Feng Huacheng's poems, not him. Cai Xiaoguang said with a little deep that sometimes, it is difficult to distinguish people from their poems. Indeed, even Zhou Rong herself can't tell whether she loves Feng Huacheng as a person or his poems.
In life, many women's affection for men often begins with worship. This kind of worship may stem from the obsession with idols, but is this true love? Love should be two-sided, and one-sided worship or affection cannot be called love.
Zhou Rong firmly believes that she has found love. After saying goodbye to her eldest brother at the train station, she kisses her father goodbye, leaves a letter to her mother and brother, and embarks on a journey to find love. At that time, her faith was love. In the writer's book, Zhou Rong is such a woman born for love. Her feelings for Feng Huacheng have sublimated from admiration to favor, and finally pursued this love without hesitation.
Zhou Rong feels that spending her life with her beloved is a beautiful life. However, she didn't really know Feng Huacheng's personality, and only identified him with her accumulated admiration and favor. These factors laid the groundwork for Zhou Rong's future tragedy.
When Feng Huacheng was decentralized, Zhou Rong's heart developed a strong desire to protect. At the beginning, Zhou Bingkun was attracted by Zheng Juan's beauty and circumstances when he first met her, which stimulated his desire to protect the weak. And Zhou Rong is no exception. Her feelings became complicated when she found out that her letters and postcards had been posted in chronological order by Feng Huacheng next to the big-character posters exposing him.
Before the trip to Beijing, what expectations did Zhou Rong have for Feng Huacheng? And now, in the face of such a reality, how will she choose? The answer to all this is hidden in her complex and intertwined emotions. In Zhou Rong's heart, she has sketched the romantic scene of meeting Feng Huacheng countless times, which should be full of poetry. However, when the two meet in reality, it is not as beautiful as she thought. Feng Huacheng was in the predicament of being criticized, and when he saw Zhou Rong, although they only knew each other through ** before, he immediately recognized this girl who had been writing letters.
At that moment, Feng Huacheng stared at Zhou Rong, unwilling to lower his head and give in. But the reality is cruel, he refused to bow his head because he insisted on looking at Zhou Rong, and was punished by a belt whipping, and blood flowed from the corners of his forehead. It was at such a moment that the strong desire to protect in Zhou Rong's heart was stimulated by Feng Huacheng's pain, which made her later make the decision to say goodbye without saying goodbye.
Of course, love alone is not enough for her to let go of her parents and brothers. Zhou Rong knew that her parents would object, but she still resolutely left a letter and went to Guizhou. Among them, of course, there is her dedication to love, but it is more the rebellion in her bones that is at work. This rebellious character of hers has been depicted in detail in the original book. Among the three siblings of the Zhou family, Bingyi inherited his mother's gentleness, Bingkun inherited his father's stubbornness, and Zhou Rong was born rebellious.
A clear example of this is when she was offered the opportunity to be sent to the best middle school in the city when she was favored by her teachers, but she flatly refused. She said that choosing which middle school is her own business and has nothing to do with others. Not only did she refuse the teacher's kindness, but she also made the teacher dispel the idea. At the time, she was only a fifth-grade student, but her words shocked the teacher. The teachers laughed and said that the decision was not her.
Zhou Rong's rebellion made her choose to go to Guizhou, because Feng Huacheng was in the predicament of being criticized and reformed at that time. This stimulated her desire to protect even more. Her feelings for Feng Huacheng, from the initial admiration to the later desire to protect, during those days in Guizhou, she really fell in love with him. In the mountains and rivers of Guizhou, Zhou Rong and Feng Huacheng spent ten years of picturesque years. Those ten years were the best time in Zhou Rong's heart. However, the good times are always short-lived. Feng Huacheng, the person she once loved deeply, betrayed again and again, which broke her heart.
In the TV series, Feng Huacheng recited poetry at Peking University, and Zhou Rong sat in the audience, with a glint of worship in her eyes. Even if her brother told her about Cai Xiaoguang, it couldn't break her attachment to Feng Huacheng. In her world, Feng Hua's achievements are everything.
But in the original work, the relationship between Zhou Rong and Feng Huacheng has undergone subtle changes. The poetry recital was originally carefully planned by Zhou Rong, but she unexpectedly found that her husband was using her and taking advantage of this opportunity to gain fame and reputation. This is something she can't stand anymore. She saw the last thing she wanted to see in her husband's face, and she was shocked by the unscrupulous mentality of pursuing fame and fortune.
Zhou Rong is the kind of person who doesn't rub sand in her eyes, she is extremely smart, as if she can see through people's hearts. Over the years, there has never been any conflict between husband and wife, living a simple life and staying away from Vanity Fair. But in this controversy, she seems to have regained her talent for "mind reading". In the argument with Feng Huacheng, she saw his true face.
Although she was disappointed, she did not choose to leave. Marriage is not child's play, and you can't give up easily because of disappointment. However, Feng Huacheng's behavior is becoming more and more out of line. He drank all day because he was dissatisfied with his work, but he put the blame on Zhou Rong, saying that it was for her to accept the job. Zhou Rong felt extremely angry and disappointed, but she still stuck to this marriage. Perhaps, in her heart, there is still nostalgia for the good old days. During the years in Guizhou, Zhou Rong once asked Feng Huacheng: "If it weren't for loving you, would I have set foot in that strange land?" Feng Huacheng replied firmly: "Love never treats anyone badly, and now you have integrated into the city of Beijing." The corners of his mouth lifted slightly, revealing a bit of sarcasm, "You know what? Some women are willing to give their arms for a Beijing hukou. ”
Zhou Rong's heart instantly swelled with anger, and she insisted: "Even without you, I can still be admitted to Peking University." However, the truth gradually chilled her. Feng Huacheng once lied that he was unmarried, but in fact, he had a marriage, and his ex-wife was the daughter of a vice minister. At that time, he was branded as a "reactionary poet", and his ex-wife left him and remarried someone else. Now that he has been rehabilitated, his ex-wife has come to the door and wants to rebuild the old relationship.
On a date, Feng Huacheng's ex-wife was bumped into by her current husband, and in desperation, Feng Huacheng wrote a letter of guarantee, and the matter was settled. Zhou Rong's heart was shattered like glass, and the love she once believed in seemed so unbearable at this moment. She decided to divorce, but Feng Huacheng's kneeling and apology made her relent. For the sake of her daughter, she chose to forgive him again.
However, the price of soft-heartedness is endless suffering. Feng Huacheng's betrayal was like an invisible knife, piercing her heart again and again. He is a poet and has many girls who are obsessed with poetry like Zhou Rong. And Zhou Rong was busy graduating with a master's degree**, and when she came home and bumped into the scene that she didn't want to witness, she slapped him angrily. Feng Huacheng knelt down again to apologize, and Zhou Rong's heart was dripping blood.
More than ten years of husband and wife love, and her daughter's bond, made it difficult for her to choose. Writer Wang Pipi's words echoed in her ears: "Marriage and divorce are both the abandonment and contest of life, and the ups and downs of the knife have never been just myths." However, this "myth" has become endless torture in her life. More than ten years of youth and a common daughter, these made her reluctant to part with Feng Hua.
The home seems to have become a "women's poetry workshop", and the bed has become an indispensable lesson. Zhou Rong's heart was already as calm as water, and she asked him why he did this. Feng Huacheng's answer was cold and selfish: "Life is like this, you have your poetry, I have my indulgence." Zhou Rong's heart was numb and painful, and she finally realized that she and Feng Huacheng had come to an end. Ten years, that was her best youth, but in his eyes it became the most indebted years. In the past, she even had to cut off relations with her parents and family for him, but now she ended up like this, and this man's words pierced her heart like a sharp blade.
She filed for divorce, her daughter belonged to her, and she did not accept any alimony from Feng Huacheng. After the divorce, Zhou Rong did not complain, she understood that this is life, she once truly loved and paid, and now she only seeks a relief.
On the way back to Peking University, Zhou Rong hugged an old locust tree, and tears welled up. It was her farewell to the past and her hope for the future.
Not long after, she saw a long poem by Feng Huacheng in a magazine, "My "Dongfu" Career". It was a poem he wrote to her, comparing her to a queen, sent by Zeus to shelter him. Those words, depicting their joys, sorrows, and sorrows, evoked her memories. She read it calmly, her heart rippling, but she didn't shed tears.
At that moment, Zhou Rong understood that she had the most say in this poem. Her relationship with Feng Huacheng began with her admiration and desire to protect. During the ten years in Guizhou, she gradually fell into it, and after returning to Beijing, she saw his true face.
Ten years of youth in exchange for a sober life, she has no regrets. Those happy days, like bright stars, will always shine in the depths of her heart.
Writer Liu Na once said: The essence of growth is betrayal after betrayal. Zhou Rong grew up in pain, betraying her former self, but also finding new hope. Everyone's life is like this, experiencing setbacks, awakening, growth, and finally meeting a better version of themselves. In Zhou Rong's heart, the relationship that was once full of filth is like a necessary road in life. Although the process was tortuous, she was able to draw nutrients from it. All the hardships and encounters that were going through the past seem to be worth it now.
Recalling her young self, Zhou Rong once mistakenly thought that she was in love with Feng Huacheng because of her temporary admiration and sympathy. However, that is just the immature wishful thinking of youth. And the reason why Feng Huacheng accepted her was more because he used her status as a working-class daughter as his asylum.
As the years passed, Zhou Rong gradually emerged and became the youngest associate professor in the school. Her classes are always full of energy and loved by her students. She used her experience to warn every young girl, reminding them not to mistake worship and compassion for love. These two are taboos in love.
And as time went by, Zhou Rong found her own life value in the students, and unexpectedly gained the love that was once neglected.
Everyone experiences the ups and downs of life. As long as we stick to our beliefs, have sunshine in our hearts, are not afraid of difficulties, and actively fight in adversity, happiness will eventually come as scheduled. Zhou Rong understands that the beauty in life is not out of reach, even in adversity, there are also fragrant flowers waiting for us to discover.
The regrets of her youth did not sink Zhou Rong, but prompted her to get out of the quagmire of pain and live a wonderful life of her own. Similarly, Zheng Juan has also experienced ups and downs, but with her spirit of self-improvement, she won Zhou Bingkun's love and lived a peaceful life.
There will always be things in life that are not going to be satisfactory, and the key is how we deal with them. Adjust our mentality, bravely accept and work hard to change those who are not satisfied, and we will eventually meet a better self.