In our emotional world, we are often hesitant to make choices that involve emotion, responsibility, and personal growth. Even though I'm working today, I can't help but think about myself in my spare time.
Nine years is a long journey of acquaintance. In the past nine years, my feelings for him have not changed, but I have become more and more attracted to him. Yes, I candidly admit that he has a special role to play in every corner of my life. My husband has given me care and protection in life, and at the same time, he has brought me spiritual happiness. For five years, our relationship has been moderate, reasonable, and restrained.
Maybe some people are ashamed of me and think that I betrayed my marriage, but I know that there is no absolute black and white in the world, and there is no absolute good and evil in human beings, and I am. For me, my husband's sincerity and kindness contrasted with his restrained and down-to-earth demeanor, and this contrast is exactly what I appreciate. In my opinion, my husband is not only an honest and tolerant person, a hard-working and hard-working person, but also an objective and fair person to people and things. In contrast, I am a simple and honest person.
As we get along, I can't help but sigh at my own growth and change. I became more tolerant, less critical, and the family atmosphere became more harmonious. Our communication is mainly through words, although we don't see each other often, but we can maintain our relationship through text communication. Every exchange made me feel some kind of pleasure and **.
There is no shortage of contradictions and misunderstandings in our communication. A small misunderstanding sparked a cold war, and I haven't heard from him for three days. These three days were like torture for us, and we suffered a great deal of physical and mental pain. But in the end, we decided to be honest with each other and share our feelings.
Over the past five years, we've seen each other more and more. Every meeting is full of importance and anticipation. Even something as simple as holding hands while shopping or taking a walk is a joyful experience for me. I remember one weekend he invited me to see him the next morning. I convinced him, but we met in the morning. The joy I felt at that moment was indescribable.
But we are also well aware that we face more than just naivety. We considered multiple possibilities for the future, even the worst-case scenario. But our commitment is to trust each other and tackle all of life's challenges together.
Some people may be confused or critical of our choices. But for me, what I'm looking for is authentic emotions and relationships that can carry my inner world. I felt his warmth and happiness in every exchange. In my opinion, this feeling is two-way and mutual.
But we also know that real life is not so simple. Marriage, responsibility, social pressures, these are all things we have to face. Our relationship may just be a kind of companionship and emotional catharsis. Maybe for me he was just an episode in my life. Maybe we're all expecting too much and ignoring reality.
So I decided to cherish the happiness in front of me and stop chasing illusory dreams. There is probably no such thing as a story in the world that can make a person cross mountains and oceans to love you. Maybe we all need to face reality and live a good life.
I don't care about the criticism or accusations anymore. Because I know that what I am looking for is a real emotion, a relationship that can carry my inner world. And this relationship may just be a friendship, an outlet for feelings.