Haizi's poem "Diary" (also known as "Sister, I'm in Delingha Tonight") is a lyrical poem he wrote in 1988 while in Delingha. In this poem, Haizi constructs an inner world that is both lonely and vast with its unique poetic language and deep emotional expression.
First of all, from the perspective of the spatial background of the poem, "Delingha" is located in Qinghai in western China, a desolate place surrounded by grasslands and the Gobi. The poet chooses this place as the object of emotional projection, and through the barrenness and vastness of its natural environment, it reflects the loneliness and vastness of his heart. "Night shrouded"、"A desolate city in the rain"and"At the end of the prairie, I was empty-handed"and other depictions, all of which create a strong atmosphere of loneliness, expressing the poet's sense of insignificance and powerlessness in a foreign land and in the face of the infinite universe.
Secondly, through the symbolic use of "stone", "barley" and "Gobi", the poet deepens his thinking on the nature of life and the state of existence. "I return the stone to the stone" symbolizes returning to the origin of things and giving up attachment to external objects; "Tonight the barley belongs only to herself", implying the spontaneous growth and independence of life; The "beautiful Gobi emptiness" reveals an ethereal beauty that transcends the hustle and bustle of the world.
Finally, the whole poem takes the affectionate call for "sister" as the core emotional clue, and pushes the individual's loneliness and longing to a climax through the direct expression of the poem "Sister, I don't care about human beings tonight, I only think of you". This emotion transcends specific people or events, and is sublimated to a desire for universal warmth and love in the world, and at the same time expresses the poet's yearning for pure spiritual communication.
The whole poem outlines a tragic and beautiful picture of the soul, showing Haizi's unique understanding and profound experience of life, existence and emotion.