Siqingerile is known as the first female singer in the Chinese rock industry.
She was born in the prairie of Inner Mongolia, heroic and unrestrained.
The singing is a mixture of freedom and the feeling of galloping in the wilderness.
Surprisingly, however, Siqingerile looks cheerful and sunny on the surface, but in fact he is a person who is completely immersed in the "love brain".
She once fell into depression in her relationship with her mentor Zang Tianshuo, and even had thoughts of contracting SARS and committing suicide by swallowing medicine.
Until now, she still can't forget that profound love experience.
What happened between her and Zang Tianshuo?
A ** was posted on social platforms by 54-year-old Siqingerile in March 2023.
She pretended to give herself a haircut with scissors in **.
Despite the smile on the face all the time, there is always an unusual feeling.
She wielded the scissors, and the movements were so large and worrying that they were simply slashed.
Someone left a message on the Internet: "Did she really lose her mind"?
Have you always been thinking about Zang Tianshuo?
The suspicions of netizens are not unreasonable.
The relationship between her and Zang Tianshuo is really hard to let go.
Zang Tianshuo launched ** "My Decade" in 1995.
This one topped the list for 8 consecutive weeks, selling hundreds of thousands of copies.
Zang Tianshuo let out a shocking cannon sound, marking the beginning of a new era for him.
By chance, Zang Tianshuo got acquainted with Siqingerile.
Zang Tianshuo invited her to be the bassist of his band.
During the period of following Zang Tianshuo, Siqingerile also successfully published his own **.
Not surprisingly, this ** has made Siqingerile's popularity soar.
Subsequently, Siqingerile got the opportunity to appear on the stage of the Spring Festival Gala for 5 consecutive years.
She is like a dazzling sun in the sky at this moment, radiating dazzling light.
But there is a saying that says, "You can't have both".
While Siqingerile gained fame and fortune, he also lost his privacy.
There is always a lot of right and wrong around the people who are in the limelight!
After Siqingerile became popular, every time she attended an event, she would be questioned by gossip reporters about her relationship with Zang Tianshuo.
Siqingerile regarded Zang Tianshuo as a benefactor at that time, and respected him extremely much, and never dared to take any offense.
People's hearts are soft and full of seven emotions and six desires, even Siqingerile is not immune.
Love is built on worship" is a saying that has been passed down for a long time. She and Zang Tianshuo work together every day, looking forward to the future, and the emotions in their eyes are also quietly undergoing subtle changes.
Half a year later, they announced that they had officially started dating.
Siqingerile cherishes this relationship very much, especially since they have developed from a teacher-student relationship to a couple, and the other party is also an extremely talented person.
After all, Zang Tianshuo stretched out a hand and pulled her out of the quagmire, which meant a lot to her.
She regards Zang Tianshuo as a pillar of her soul and trusts him, no matter when and where, no matter what happens.
Siqingerile asks Zang Tianshuo if he has feelings for other women.
Zang Tianshuo can always say with ease: "They are not my girlfriends, only you are." ”
Siqingerile was convinced.
Zang Tianshuo is not lying, but what he said is not the truth.
Zang Tianshuo was deeply affectionate, so he put forward his desire to live with the other party.
Siqingerile was a little happy in his heart, but he did not refuse.
However, Siqingerile never imagined that his trust in Zang Tianshuo would eventually become a fatal blow to himself.
There was a knock at the door, and Siqingerile was filled with joy and went to open the door.
As soon as he opened the door, a crisp slap landed on his face unexpectedly.
Siqingerile was surprised, but also slightly understood the origin of this woman.
Li Mei is the lady standing at the door, she is Zang Tianshuo's wife.
Without knowing it, Siqingerile intervened in someone else's marriage.
Li Mei is six months pregnant.
Facing the two women, Zang Tianshuo felt very overwhelmed.
He must take action to stop Li Mei in case she does anything inappropriate against Siqingerile.
At that time, Siqingerile was on the verge of collapse.
Siqingerile drank alcohol alone at home, which happened after Zang Tianshuo and his wife left.
After getting drunk, tears welled up in his eyes and he finally decided to leave.
She is determined to start a new life in a new city, but Zang Tianshuo does not intend to let her go.
When Siqingerile returned to Beijing again, Zang Tianshuo came to the door again and refused to give up.
He told Siqingerile that every day without your company, I feel that life has lost its meaning.
Looking at the tearful man in front of her, she recalled everything in the past, and her heart couldn't help but compromise again.
She lacked the courage to part with Zang Tianshuo.
However, she never imagined that the moment she nodded in agreement, her nightmare had just begun.
Zang Tianshuo is now short-tempered, and he always vents his anger on Siqingerile every time he drinks.
Zang Tianshuo had a relationship with other girls outside, which made Siqingerile feel even more devastated.
During the argument, Siqingerile was surprised to find out that she was also pregnant.
Mongolian tradition forbids child beating, so the relationship either ends in marriage or she raises the child alone.
Whenever Siqingerile talked about getting married, Zang Tianshuo always said that Li Mei's children were too young and that they would not divorce until the children grew up.
Zang Tianshuo went crazy when she mentioned that she was also pregnant.
He refused to allow the child to be born, and did not tolerate Siqingerile using the child to threaten him.
Siqingerile refused to kill the child, but Zang Tianshuo insisted that she do so.
She was in a terrible mood, and she didn't want to be a disgrace to her family.
She walked aimlessly through the streets, while taking sleeping pills heavily and not wearing a mask.
The moment she woke up in the hospital room, she suddenly realized what she really felt inside.
She was determined to put an end to what was not supposed to happen.
At this moment, Zang Tianshuo's hidden figure appeared in front of Siqingerile again and began to jump.
He has always been very concerned about Siqingerile and takes care of it.
It was at that moment when Siqingerile was again moved by his overtures.
The news that Zang Tianshuo has a girlfriend came in his ears.
The nature is difficult to change, and the country is easy to change.
He finally saw through Siqingerile and was completely dead, this time.
It wasn't until the day Zang Tianshuo died that her story with him could really come to an end.
Due to cancer, in 2017, Zang Tianshuo could only lie on the hospital bed, unable to move.
Zang Tianshuo sincerely apologized to Siqingerile when he saw the latter come to visit.
Time flies, and the past seems to be vivid.
With tears in her eyes, even if the apology came late, there was no doubt that it was sincere, and she had forgiveness.
Zang Tianshuo passed away in 2018.
On social platforms, people have remembered Siqingerile and wished him all the best.
She gave up everything, and the emotional entanglements of the past were finally blown into the world with a handful of loess wind.
Zang Tianshuo's death also brought his ** road to an abrupt end.
Although once my heart was full of longing for the ** path......
A little life was born in a yurt at the end of the 60s of the last century.
At that time, Siqingerile's father was being held in a cowshed on charges of nonsense.
I was not able to be by my wife's side during childbirth, nor did I hear the first cry of Siqingerile.
Half a year passed before the family was allowed to visit his father.
For the first time, Siqingerile saw her father's face, although at that time she knew nothing about everything.
In the days that followed, Siqingerile welcomed a new family member in that small village, his little sister.
Tim Ding's birth increased the financial burden on the family, making it even worse for the already not wealthy family, and even more impoverished.
Even though life was difficult, Siqingerile still had his dreams.
What she wanted most at that time was to become a dancer.
She worked hard and was finally admitted to the Municipal Ethnic Dance Troupe with her outstanding performance.
She is extraordinary, but she has never been favored by the leadership.
The reason is that he lacks tactfulness and sophistication, and cannot properly handle human feelings and interpersonal relationships.
At one point, the song and dance troupe needed to prepare a dance.
Although Siqingerile has excellent ability, she is regarded as a substitute by the leadership, which undoubtedly causes her great damage.
Siqingerile has never been able to hold up the rice bowl of dancing, as if the magnetic field is wrong.
At this time, Yang Kun suddenly appeared in Siqingerile's sight.
Inspired by him, Siqingerile began to learn the bass.
During this period, she and Yang Kun teamed up to create their own band called "Goshawk Band".
In order to chase their own dreams and make ends meet, they went to Shenzhen together.
They can occasionally get paid handsomely in the cabaret.
At that time, Siqingerile also had his own thoughts.
She plans to join the "North Drifters", and this is after earning enough money to survive.
She longs to be able to write her own brilliant chapter in Beijing.
They arrived in Beijing in 1994.
The first thing to do was to change the name of the band to the "Knight Band".
At that time, Beijing was home to a large number of talented people, and some of the most popular bands in Shenzhen struggled to make a living here.
They have been unable to find a suitable job for a long time.
No income means no job.
During that time, they could not even pay for their accommodation, so they were forced to move out of the guest house and find a dilapidated warehouse, where even food and clothing became a problem, and they had to rely on steamed buns to fill their stomachs.
They finally found a venue for the show, and the day finally came.
The boss didn't need the whole band, leaving only the lead singer Yang Kun alone.
Yang Kun did not object to this decision at the time, which caused him and Siqingerile to be angry for a long time.
Unfortunately, however, Yang Kun was fired after not staying there for long.
All members were unemployed, leaving them without a livelihood, eventually forcing the band to announce its disbandment.
What made Siqingerile even more annoyed was that her boyfriend was actually infected with du products.
In order to protect her boyfriend's health, Siqingerile generously donated 6,000 yuan to send him to a drug rehabilitation center.
As a result, she fell into a "debt service crisis".
However, this was not the last straw for Siqingerile.
The boyfriend sneakily mortgaged his valuable guitar to the bar at a very low **, which was unacceptable to Siqingerile.
After all, the guitar is an important tool of expression for ** people.
Subsequently, Siqingerile sent her boyfriend back to his hometown and sent him back to his parents.
A month later, Siqingerile received a friend's ** and learned that he was about to enter the palace of marriage.
In just one month, Siqingerile's 13 years of youth and 13 years of relationship disappeared like a bubble.
This level of damage is enough to make a person feel refreshed.
Siqingerile is different, deep down she refuses to indulge her emotions and never takes them lightly.
Therefore, it was not until she met Zang Tianshuo that she was so deeply hurt.
Siqingerile, now 54 years old, has finally been completely relieved after two deep loves.
She has the ability to humorously laugh at her solitary state of life in public.
The obsession gradually let go, and the mind gradually turned to work.
She has assembled her own team and releases her own songs from time to time.
She feels very relaxed when she is alone at home.
In my free time, I will continue to enrich my perception of life and record the beautiful moments in life.
I sincerely wish Siqingerile to be able to face life positively and let go of the obsession in his heart!