At nine o'clock in the evening, I sent a message to Jin Jialang.
Call it a day. ”
After four hours of waiting, he didn't reply to me.
I looked at the handful of medicine in my hand, and my heart was calmer than ever.
Three years of secret love, seven years of open love
It's finally time to say goodbye to this terrible decade.
As my consciousness gradually blurred, I suddenly heard my phone ringing.
I vaguely saw the words "Brother Jialang", but I didn't have the strength to pick up the phone.
Just as I was about to lose consciousness, the door of my house was slammed open.
Jin Jialang rushed in first, he picked me up and rushed out the door, shouting, "Get out of the way!" Go to the hospital! ”
My head lay limply in his chest, smelling the familiar smell of shower gel, and a humiliating thing suddenly occurred in my mind.
When I was a freshman, I had just passed my eighteenth birthday and decided to confess to Jin Jialang.
This is also the first time I have officially expressed my heart to Jin Jialong.
I bought colorful love balloons, decorated the living room with bells and whistles, and made the plain white wall into a love ** wall, which was plastered with our group photos.
After doing all this, I hid in the big gift box, imagining Jin Jialang's expression as he walked through the door.
When I heard the sound of the door opening, I immediately broke out of the box.
surprise！！！
I fantasized about Jin Jialang's countless expressions, but I never thought that he was expressionless.
He wore black half-rimmed glasses and wore a plain casual suit to stand in the fancy living room, looking out of place.
It's like a green bamboo in the snow that has strayed into a rose garden.
Years old, what are you? ”
Brother Jialang, isn't it obvious yet? ”
At that time, I only thought that Jin Jialang was just a fake serious person who was ascetic on the outside, and he would be caught as long as I used the thirty-six tricks of the little goblin.
Thinking of this, I threw a wink at him.
A wry smile appeared on Jin Jialang's thin face.
Years old, don't mess around! ”
Brother Jialang, I like you! ”
I tried to speak as loud as I could, trying to make Jin Jialang hear every word clearly.
But I didn't expect Jin Jialang to be silent, he was completely silent and resistant.
Maybe the atmosphere was so cold that the tip of my nose was a little sour.
In order to alleviate the embarrassment, I plucked up my courage, rushed over with tears in my eyes, and hugged Jin Jialang tightly.
He didn't seem to react.
When I put on his soft lips, he didn't refuse, but there was a hint of inexplicable emotion in his eyes.
Just when I want to go one step further and poke the tip of my tongue in.
He suddenly came back to his senses and pushed me away very hard.
It's like pushing away something disgusting.
I fell to the ground unexpectedly, and tears fell instantly.
The floor was surprisingly hard, and I was hit with pain, but at that moment, I couldn't tell if my body hurt more or my heart hurt more.
This first kiss is really not very good.
Years ...... yearsJin Jialang's voice was gentle and worried, but he stood still with his hands down.
I got up from the ground and spoke with tears in my eyes.
I'm fine, I'm fine. ”
Brother Jialang, why did you push me away? ”
Aren't you also bent? ”
What were you thinking when I kissed you? ”
I asked rhetorically one by one, but all I got was Jin Jialang's silence.
My tears flowed down my cheeks and into my mouth, becoming more and more bitter, and a feeling of soreness welled up in my chest.
You have been guarding my brother for so many years, aren't you lonely? ”
Do you want me to report to the United Nations and give you a memorial arch of chastity? ”
Hearing me mention my brother, Jin Jialang's always calm mood seemed to be suddenly exploded.
I've always treated you like a brother. ”
If it weren't for your brother entrusting you to me, we wouldn't have crossed paths at all. ”
You're eighteen years old, and your brother should rest assured. ”
I apologize to you if I've done or misunderstood you before. ”
After Jin Jialang finished speaking, he walked up to me, patted me on the shoulder, and his tone returned to his usual gentleness.
I'll move out tomorrow and this house for you to live in. ”
Take good care of yourself in the future, I will come to see you from time to time. ”
I have something to go out to deal with, you calm down alone. ”
Jin Jialang said that, and left without looking back.
I stared at his long and straight back, and I actually laughed, laughing until my face was full of tears.
You see that Jin Jialang can't even say cruel words for three minutes, why doesn't he like me when he is so gentle?
Because of Jin Jialang's words, I quickly packed my luggage and left this "home" where I had lived for three years.
When school started, I offered to pay for a bed, just in case.
I put my luggage away and went to the mall not far from the school to buy groceries.
When I went to the toiletries, I picked up a shower gel that Jin Jialang usually uses.
Even if the lid is intact, you can smell a fragrant and soft smell - it is the smell of Jin Jialang.
When I was in high school, he would always find time to tutor me with my homework, and I would always smell the fragrance when I was wandering.
I took the bath and relentlessly remembered what had just happened.
Jin Jialang's words rang in my ears again.
The young self-esteem hurts as if it has been trampled underfoot.
My throat choked out of control and turned into a bitter cry in an instant, crying until my legs fainted and I was taken to the hospital.
After I woke up, the first person I saw was Gu Xuanning.
Coincidentally, the time I cried until I fainted ten years ago, and he also sent me to the hospital.
This person can always see my humiliating scenes.
You're awake. Gu Xuanning's voice often carried a hint of laziness.
Especially when it comes to satirizing people, this lazy energy adds to the buff of top taunts.
You are also a wonderful flower, you can buy expired medicine for suicide. Gotcha, with a kick at the door, let Lord Yama kick it back again. ”
I heard Gu Xuanning's sarcastic words and stared at his face for a long time.
Gu Xuanning's facial features are three-dimensional, ** cold and white, and his temperament is cold and indifferent.
Therefore, the red marks that have cried in the corners of the eyes are very conspicuous and unacceptable.
Are you crying? "My voice was unusually hoarse.
Gu Xuanning glanced at me.
Shut up, it's as bad as a bellows. ”
Gu Xuanning, you are close to me, I have something to whisper to you. ”
Gu Xuanning was stunned for a moment, but still got up and approached me according to my words.
As I leaned into his ear, his ear was tinged with a suspicious flush.
I smiled and kissed him on the cheek.
You, you ......”
Gu Xuanning covered her face, like a yellow flower girl who was light.
It's just that this big girl is close to 1.9 meters tall, and she is a little strong!
It's not that we haven't slept together, don't be innocent. ”
I couldn't help but laugh, and the gloom that had been building up in my chest for many years was gone.
Years ...... yearsI looked up, and Jin Jialang was standing at the door of the ward, looking at us with a bad face.
Obviously, he saw and heard everything that had just happened.
Brother Jialang. I called out to Jin Jialang politely and detachedly.
Jin Jialang came in nervously, carrying various nutritional products in his hands.
I'm going to buy you something. ”
Thank you, Brother Jialang, for the trouble you, it won't be in the future. ”
Jin Jialang looked at me who was unusually calm, and his eyes suddenly became ambiguous and sad.
Years ...... yearsI interrupted him.
Brother Jialang. My boyfriend will be here to take care of me, if you are busy, you can go and get busy first. ”
Jin Jialang's face changed slightly when he heard this, as if he had never expected me to speak like this.
Yes, he's seen me hysterical, he's seen me coquettish, he's seen me sad and painful.
Every one of me seems to be so humble and alive to approach him and ask for love from him.
And I am so calm and indifferent, I want to draw a line with him in every sentence, of course he is not used to it.
Boyfriend? Jin Jialang suddenly looked at Gu Xuanning, his eyes full of distrust and threat.
I looked at him and suddenly felt bored.
And Gu Xuanning is too lazy to pay attention to people on weekdays, once he is provoked or violates the territory, he will be like a lion.
He also looked back without hesitation, and his young and fearless and firm eyes made Jin Jialang panic.
Years old, you have a good rest first, the company still has something to deal with. ”
I looked at Jin Jialang's back as he fled in a hurry, and that sadness had already turned into a sneer.
Shen Lesui, what you said just now was to anger him ......Or you're sincere. ”
Gu Xuanning's expression suddenly became serious, with a hint of confidence in it.
It's just that he still stubbornly looks at me, waiting for an answer.
A smile tugged at the corner of my mouth, trying to smile sincerely.
It's a pity that after laughing for a long time, Gu Xuanning was stunned and didn't answer, he still looked at me expressionlessly.
Maybe I was smiling a little like a clown, and he was silent for a moment before he spoke.
Shen Lesui, don't laugh, it's ugly. ”
It is better to know others than to know oneself, and love itself is a difficult thing to control. ”
I'm also a selfish person, and I'd rather have you alone and absolutely. ”
I haven't seen Gu Xuanning since I was discharged from the hospital, but Jin Jialang has frequently appeared in my field of vision.
The more I turned a blind eye, the more courageous he became.
After graduating, I opened a tailoring studio, mainly doing hand embroidery and mid-to-high-end customization.
If I didn't make a decision, I didn't have the courage to do it again, so I had to live well.
Those who can't get love should at least have their pockets full of love money.
I used to run after Jin Jialang in order to free up time, and my workload was not saturated.
Now I'm fully engaged in my work, and I've taken a lot of orders that I have declined before.
At eleven o'clock in the evening, the people in the studio were all **.
I was left working overtime to sew a pair of wedding dresses.
once jokingly told Jin Jialang that he wanted to sew two sets of groom clothes, but I remember that Jin Jialang rarely refused at that time, but just smiled.
It was this smile that gave me great hope.
I thought about the past, but I didn't notice that Jin Jialang appeared quietly at the door.
Are you busy? I'm bringing you a supper. ”
His smile is gentle and clean like the warm winter sun, just like the first time I saw him, I was smiled by this smile.
It's just that I don't know why, I suddenly remembered that when the studio first opened, Jin Jialang frowned and educated me.
You are a man, studying computers, how can you think about doing this kind of industry. ”
I don't know how to explain to your brother, if you can't drive anymore, come to work in my company. ”
In a trance, I saw Gu Xuanning enter my studio with a basket of sunflowers.
It's not bad, Shen Da Tailor, it's really decent and prosperous. ”
Years ...... yearsJin Jialang called me back to reality, he put the supper on the table and opened it one by one, the color was red and spicy.
All of a sudden, my stomach and heart ached.
I remember your favorite spicy food. ”
Jin Jialang said to himself, not noticing that my face was getting paler.
In my junior year, I drank alcohol for a month, and when I had stomach bleeding, I couldn't eat spicy anymore. ”
I looked at Jin Jialang expressionlessly.
His hand that was laying out the food paused, and the smile on his lips froze.
My junior year. I went to Linshi with a few friends to play, but I thought about Jin Jialang at night.
I said goodbye to my friend and hurried a taxi to his house.
Even if I moved to the school dormitory, I still had the key to Jin Jialang's house.
He also acquiesced in this.
From my freshman year to my junior year, I failed to dedicate myself to him countless times, and I gave up a long time ago.
If you miss him, go to his house.
The two of them watched a movie and ate supper together, and by the way, they secretly poked and prodded and hugged it, and they could also stop the craving in their hearts.
arrived at the door of Jin Jialang's house.
I picked up the beef noodles I bought downstairs, straightened my hair and clothes, took a deep breath, and prepared to quietly open the door to surprise Jin Jialang.
As soon as I entered the door, I was keenly aware that ** was not quite right.
Very strong liquor flavor ......
Jin Jialang has always been neat and tidy, but now the clothes in the living room are littered ......
My hands began to tremble uncontrollably.
Until the strange sound became more and more intense, my emotions completely collapsed.
I rushed into the room like crazy.
Regarding my appearance, Jin Jialang's first reaction was not to panic, but to calmly protect the people under him.
Co-authored to play chastity in front of me. ”
I cried tears and snot and yelled like a complaining man.
Jin Jialang's face was tense, and there was still a hint of flushing after excitement on his face.
He seemed to be adjusting his breath, and after a long time, he said sternly, "Go out." ”
Show me what a vixen looks like? ”
I stayed in his room and didn't leave.
knew that he didn't have any position to accuse Jin Jialang, but he was really unwilling to ......
Jin Jialang frowned, looking at me with disappointment in his eyes.
I was overwhelmed by his gaze, and I shuddered.
But he saw the man he was protecting poking his head out from behind him.
That face looked like the brother in my memory.
It's just that the temperament is so immature, thin, and pure.
I casually took the toilet paper on the table and threw it at Jin Jialang angrily.
*！Love underage! ”
I'm an adult ......”
I still remember that the boy hid behind Jin Jialang and said weakly.
I was so angry that I had angina and ran straight out of the door.
When I ran downstairs to Jin Jialang's house, I suddenly didn't know where to go.
A gust of wind blew and blew away my sanity.
I gave Gu Xuanning a call**.
Gu Xuanning, come out to drink. ”
What are you**? Lido Hotel, Room 808. ”
I don't drink a lot of alcohol, and I drink beer mixed with foreign wine, and I get dizzy.
Gu Xuanning came slowly.
Later, I learned that he had made a long mental preparation before coming.
When did you learn to drink heavily, belated rebellious period? ”
Gu Xuanning's deliberately ridiculous voice sounded behind me.
I stumbled ahead of him with only a bathrobe on and a wine bottle in my shower.
I'm glad to do it, sir. ”
The moment I walked to the bed, I fell straight down and hooked my fingers at Gu Xuanning, and my voice was a little coquettish.
You come here. "Shen Lesui, don't come to this set, I have goosebumps all over my body. ”
Then show me what your goosebumps look like. ”
Gu Xuanning pretended to be reserved for a long time, but finally moved his heavy steps and came to my side.
I grabbed his hand and pulled it hard, and he fell on top of me defenselessly.
The tip of the nose of the two people was against the tip of the nose, and Gu Xuanning's face was so red that he was about to drip blood.
I pressed my voice against his lips, and the sound of his Adam's apple rolling was loud in the silence of the room.
When I go further.
He seemed to react suddenly, and directly turned against the customer, clasping the back of my head in order to communicate more deeply.
We kissed for a long time, and Gu Xuanning's kiss was just like his person, domineering and lazy, and forcefully out of order.
We kissed so much that we let each other go.
Do you want me? ”
Do you know who I am now? ”
Of course you know, Gu Xuanning, are you Shabei? ”
Gu Xuanning stared at my eyes and gently rubbed the tip of his nose against my nose again.
At this moment, his eyes were full of affection, and his hand was also gently caressing my cheek, as if he was caressing a rare treasure.
I looked at the way he looked, drunkenly sarcastic at him.
Come on, Gu Xuanning, what kind of pure love are you playing. ”
Hearing my words, Gu Xuanning's eyes dimmed for a moment, then suddenly chuckled, got up and carried me into the bathroom.
He was tall, and I shrunk into his arms, and a sense of tranquility suddenly welled up in my heart.
Passionate and reckless, two young souls clinging to each other and exploring, making the night hot.
The next day, I couldn't get out of bed and walk.
The emotional atmosphere is so sophisticated and mature, and the co-authoring is still a place, and there is no brute force! ”
With such a blind face, I thought you were a veteran. ”
I gritted my teeth in pain and couldn't help but curse.
Gu Xuanning didn't reply, but just twisted and pinched for a long time, and suddenly asked.
That's ......What is the relationship we have now. ”
I looked at Gu Xuanning like a fool, and my tone was mean to the extreme.
Are you okay, I'm just taking revenge on Jin Jialang. ”
It's just a night's sleep, and you're refreshed. We don't owe each other. ”
My words made Gu Xuanning speechless, he stiffened, and even his lips were white and trembling.
I didn't bother to pay attention to him and limped out of the hotel.
I didn't see him for a month.
It wasn't until I went clubbing and drank, made myself have stomach bleeding, and was sent to the emergency department of the hospital that I saw Gu Xuanning again.
Damn, let him see such a humiliating scene again.
And at that time, what about Jin Jialang?
I raised my head and looked at Jin Jialang, my tone was stiff and indifferent.
yes, you were busy falling in love with my brother's stand-in at that time. I don't post on Moments on weekdays, but at that time, I showed affection one after another, and I will be free to know about my situation. ”
Jin Jialang looked at me deeply before he spoke.
Actually, Xiao Xue doesn't look like your brother. ”
I sneered.
It's not like I've never seen it. ”
Jin Jialang's eyes suddenly became guilty, as if he had an unspeakable stomach to talk about.
Looking at him like this, my heart suddenly gave birth to an inexplicable sense of emptiness.
Article ** Since the elder Ford, the article "A Bad Decade".