Hello dear readers! The weather has always changed suddenly lately, and the sun outside the window is a delight. The pain, dissatisfaction, and sadness of the past seem to have gradually dissipated. I picked up my phone and saw a message flashing in WeChat, and when I clicked in, it turned out to be a message sent to me by Chengqing: "Let's go eat boiled fish today, the rainforest boiled fish in the corner." "This news is like a warm sunshine shining into the gloom in my heart.
Although Cheng Qing and I have only known each other for more than a year, we understand each other and have sincere feelings. Sometimes he leaves work late, and I set aside time to wait for him to eat; When he was waiting for the bus, he would buy me a bento box. And I am grateful that he has been with me through the painful times outside of work, going back and forth between home and business.
Last month, Wan Zhou and I discussed lending his parents 100,000 yuan to help them renovate their new house, but he was adamantly opposed. He thinks that my parents are old and have no ability to repay, and our family's net income is only 100,000. However, Cheng Qing did not hesitate to give me 100,000. His appearance, like sunshine, sprinkled all over my heart.
Looking back at my marriage with Wan Zhou, it is actually already pale and weak. In the past twelve years, my relationship with him has changed from the initial sweetness to the current indifference. This marriage left me feeling exhausted and hopeless. And through Chengqing, I began to understand that love is the power that can heal all wounds.
Every time I watch the days with Wan Zhou become as plain as water, I think of the day we just entered the marriage hall twelve years ago. At that time, he always came to the kitchen after waking up in the morning, and always woke up from behind to surround me with the warmth of his home. But now, all I have left is a trance.
My marriage to him has become heavy, and the man who once brought me joy and passion is now gone. All I saw was the tired self in front of me and the marriage that had lost its luster and temperature. I began to reflect: Am I really enjoying this married life? Do you really value the man in front of you? The answer hurts my heart.
After ending the conversation with him, I began to feel pain, this pain ** deep in my heart of loss and helplessness. Every time I recall the good past, there is only endless regret and pain. With Chengqing, you can at least find some comfort.
Of course, I'm not sure for sure whether Chengqing and I will make it to the end, but for now, his presence seems to me to be like a bright beacon to guide me out of the confusing night.
The ancients: Affectionate and hateful since ancient times. If you don't have that affection, you won't be sad. However, in the endless darkness, there are always people who are willing to be the faint light and give people hope for life.
Thank you for reading my blog. If you have a similar experience or confusion, please feel free to communicate with me. We can listen to each other and share with each other in this virtual space. Finally, I wish all readers and friends happiness, health and a peaceful years.