Once, when I talked to my father, it was as if we were a pair of equal friends, rather than a traditional father-daughter relationship. Our dialogue became more and more free and open, as if we had both been freed from the shackles of father-daughter roles.
I said to him, "Dad, I've been walking down the street lately, and I've been feeling more and more like a free wanderer. ”
In Hunan, people call those who are free and have no fixed affiliation "liuzi".
As a child, I was often reprimanded by my mother as a "female ruffle". She always said, "You bastard! You can imagine how angry she was at the time.
However, now it seems that I have lived as a "female rourser" in her mouth, which can be regarded as a kind of luck. Ten years ago, when I walked down this crowded street, I was always careful to pay attention to everything around me, constantly greeting each other, and thinking about whether the dress was in line with local customs and whether it would cause others to talk about it.
At that time, my mind was framed by various rules and expectations, and life seemed to be so constrained that I couldn't breathe. For example, as a teacher, as someone's wife, as an employee of a certain unit, ......In these roles, I can't seem to find my true self, I can only run away and hide, inconsistent inside and out. Every time I put on those prescribed clothes, it was like putting on a shackle and I couldn't breathe freely.
However, as the years went by, I began to understand the true meaning of life. I'm starting to realize that I don't have to worry too much about things that don't concern me. I just need to accept the information that makes sense to me and be a free and easy person.
So, I began to let go of the shackles that bound my heart. My clothes also began to obey my commands, I was no longer swayed by the expectations of the outside world, and I began to follow my inner voice.
Now, wearing my favorite clothes, a cowboy hat on my head, comfortable flat shoes, a crisp suit and loose harem pants, I am walking on the familiar streets, free and unrestrained. The people and things around me seem to be automatically renewed, and I no longer need to worry about being limited by other people's eyes, I just need to move forward steadfastly.
Sometimes, I hear my name called, and I look back only to find that I don't know who is calling me. This feeling makes me feel very comfortable because I have gotten rid of other people's expectations and just live the life I want.
This state of freedom did not come easily. It takes a lot of struggles and realizations, and you need to let go of those unnecessary baggage in order to truly live your life.
Now I am counting time every day. Life is limited, if you can't live your true self and live a free wanderer, then what's the point? I don't want to leave any regrets and regrets at the end of my life. I think the most important thing is to live every day to the fullest and free.
Perhaps, everyone has their own "female rour" moment. At that time, we are no longer bound by the outside world, no longer swayed by the expectations of others, and simply live our lives. Let's move forward in the direction of freedom together and live our true selves.