Do you still remember the "Five Golden Flowers" of Yunnan that once amazed us?
They were singing and dancing on the shore of the beautiful Erhai Lake, the sun was shining on everyone's faces, and Ah Peng, who was rushing to participate in the horse race, was stopped by a carriage, and he enthusiastically repaired the car and hurried to the racecourse.
When Ah Peng won the championship, the beautiful golden flower handed him an embroidered purse, and Ah Peng noticed that the good-looking woman in front of him had just been in the carriage.
The eyes of the two met in the air, and Jinhua shyly lowered her head.
On the side of the picturesque butterfly spring, the two sang a Bai duet that euphemistically expressed their love, and made an appointment to meet again on "March Street" next year. Jin Hua in the film did not go to the appointment on time, but Ah Peng did not give up looking for her, and finally found her.
But in reality, Yang Likun, who played Jinhua, waited for someone who came to "rescue" her without fear of hardships and dangers after going through many hardships.
This person is her husband Tang Fenglou, the two have known each other for more than 20 years, Yang Likun gave birth to twin sons for him, and Tang Fenglou went to the sea to do business for her.
Ashima has been dead for more than 20 years, how are they living now?
In 1942, Yang Likun was born in a Yi family in Mohei Town, Pu'er City, Yunnan Province, with more than ten brothers and sisters in the family.
When Yang Likun was a child, her mother died due to overwork, and the family could no longer afford her tuition, Yang Likun was taken to the second sister's house, and the second sister felt that the girl had to study to have a way out, so she enrolled in Kunming Xincun Primary School.
Yang Likun cherishes the hard-won opportunity to read, goes to class on time every day, and reads all kinds of books in his spare time to enrich his knowledge.
When Yang Likun's second sister and second brother-in-law are free, they will take her to see the performance, Yang Likun will dance with the dancers on stage, Hu Zonglin, the head of the provincial song and dance troupe, happened to see Yang Likun who was imitating, and felt that she was in superior physical condition, and she had a lot of charm between raising her hands.
Hu Zonglin found Yang Likun's second sister and expressed his intention to her, he thought that Yang Likun would make a difference in the dance world.
The second sister is a little embarrassed, Yang Likun is only 12 years old at this time, if she goes to dance, what will she do with her schoolwork? But is it going to bury her talent?
The second sister and Hu Zonglin asked Yang Likun's opinion together, Yang Likun frowned, she thought for a long time and asked, "Can you dance while studying?" ”
Hu Zonglin agreed, so that Yang Likun could study in the gap time between dance practice.
Yang Likun happily entered the provincial song and dance troupe to dance, because her second brother-in-law is a cadre, and she is young, the troupe takes special care of her.
In 1955, after hard training, Yang Likun officially became a soloist. Her dance of "Spring River Flower Moonlight Night" is a must in the provincial song and dance troupe, her hand crossed in front of her eyes, revealing Yang Likun's big watery eyes, although she is only 14 years old, but her dance is smart and beautiful, and her gestures can make people feel like they are there.
More and more people praise her for her talent for dancing and will become a talented dancer in the future.
Yang Likun only smiled slightly when she heard these compliments, even if the dance made her famous, she was never complacent, but worked harder, hoping to perform better next time.
At the beginning of 1959, director Wang Jiayi of Changchun Film Studio was preparing to start filming "Five Golden Flowers", which was a headache in the social background at the time, but Wang Jiayi believed that either he would not do it, or he would do his best.
Because "Five Golden Flowers" tells the story of a girl from the Bai nationality in Dali, Wang Jiayi plans to select the performers of the five golden flowers from the girls in Yunnan.
He came to the Provincial Song and Dance Troupe, and Yang Likun, who was cleaning the glass, suddenly crashed into his sight, Yang Likun's beautiful face, and the simple and innocent smile at the moment made Wang Jiayi unable to take his eyes off for a long time, and Jinhua seemed to be standing in front of him.
After the release of "Five Golden Flowers", it won the love of the audience, Yang Likun had the first batch of fans, and the provincial song and dance troupe often received a lot of letters sent to her.
When the Provincial Song and Dance Troupe went to Beijing to perform, the prime minister also introduced Yang Likun in front of him.
This is a great honor for Yang Likun, she is so excited that she doesn't know what to say, she can get *** and *** compliments, Yang Likun is like a dream.
But *** gave Yang Likun an opinion, asking her to practice Mandarin hard and strive to read her lines in the next film.
For this reason, Yang Likun holds this dictionary all day long, hoping to one day fulfill ***'s expectations for her.
In 1960, Liu Qiong of Shanghai Film Studio came to the Provincial Song and Dance Troupe with the script of "Ashima", and at this time, the troupe was performing an opera called "Ebian and Shaluo", and Yang Likun's agile dancing was once again favored.
After many selections, Yang Likun played the heroine of "Ashima", in this film, she used the original lines most of the time, but this film became the regret of her life.
The talented dancer who was praised by the people fell from the sky to dust in an instant.
At the end of the 60s of last century, Yang Likun was forced to live in the basement under the auditorium, only 7 meters wide and 5 meters deep, full of debris, and flying dust could be seen in the beam passing through the crack in the door.
Yang Likun has been stubborn since she was a child, sometimes she can't get out of the tip of the horns, and she will get angry and nosebleeds, she doesn't understand why life has become a mess, after a long time, her spirit has problems, and when she meets people, she asks why it has become like this?
At first, Yang Likun just felt that someone was spying on her, and later, she even thought that people close to her wanted to harm her, and a voice called "grandpa" poured out of her head.
Yang Likun's eldest sister felt that it was not a way to go on like this, so she proposed to take her to see a doctor, Yang Likun was first arranged in Kunming Changpo Hospital**, but Kunming had too deep an impact on her, Yang Likun's illness was never better, but became more and more serious, the "grandfather" in her mind often talked to her, which made her mood change greatly, and she spoke softly in the last second, and the next second she was like thunder.
Yang Likun's eldest sister had no choice but to transfer her to Chenzhou Hospital in Hunan Province, which had better medical conditions.
After Yang Likun's condition improved, the eldest sister began to find a partner for her, hoping that someone could help take care of her, so the Yang family asked a friend around her to inquire, and after some searching, a person entered the Yang family's field of vision, and that person was Tang Fenglou of Guangdong Fankou Lead and Zinc Factory.
The introducer sent Tang Fenglou's ** to Yang Likun, who looked at it for a long time and agreed to meet Tang Fenglou.
Tang Fenglou, who was far away in the lead and zinc factory, had long known that he was going to go on a blind date with Yang Likun, and when he first heard the news, he thought it was a joke, until the introducer put Yang Likun's ** in front of him, Tang Fenglou didn't believe it.
The location of the blind date was set in Chenzhou, Hunan, and Tang Fenglou took a three-day leave and traveled all the way to Chenzhou.
Yang Likun's eldest sister came to the station to see him on the day he arrived, and asked Tang Fenglou about his impression of Yang Likun, and asked him if he would be afraid of Yang Likun's illness.
Tang Fenglou shook his head, he solemnly said to the eldest sister that before he came, the introducer had already told everything about Yang Likun's experience, including the fact that she was suffering from mental illness, and he also showed Tang Fenglou her **, and he felt sorry and angry for Yang Likun.
Yang Likun should have bloomed her brilliance on the stage and screen, but now she can only stay in the psychiatric hospital, which makes Tang Fenglou have the urge to take care of Yang Likun.
On the day of the meeting, Tang Fenglou got up early in the morning and waited at the door of the hotel in advance.
A "Fenglou" sounded from behind him, and Tang Fenglou saw Yang Likun as soon as he turned around, her face was gray and yellow, her eyes were dull, and she was far from her high-spirited appearance, Tang Fenglou felt that her heart felt like someone had been pinched.
There was silence in the small room, six pairs of eyes looked at each other, no one spoke first, and in the end, it was the eldest sister who broke the silence and said to Yang Likun that Tang Fenglou came yesterday afternoon.
Yang Likun smiled, chatted with Tang Fenglou, and asked him what he did, when she learned that Tang Fenglou had studied foreign languages before, her face showed a look of regret, she felt that Tang Fenglou's talent was buried.
Tang Fenglou couldn't bear to be sad about her, so he found other topics to talk about, and talked to Yang Likun about many literary works, the more the two talked, the more speculative they became, Tang Fenglou accidentally found that Yang Likun had a unique view of these works, which made Tang Fenglou's good impression of her increase a lot.
After half a month, Yang Likun suddenly came to Fankou Lead and Zinc Factory, and the two had more time to get to know each other.
One day, the third sister suddenly said to Tang Fenglou, "Otherwise, you can get a marriage certificate here."
Tang Fenglou didn't speak, but when he went to work the next day, he wrote a marriage certificate for himself, and because of his position, the official seal was placed in his office.
In order to prevent being obstructed, Tang Fenglou didn't tell anyone, and after he checked that there were no typos, he stamped the seal on the certificate, and then went to find Yang Likun.
Tang Fenglou was a little nervous, he was worried that Yang Likun would not agree, but fortunately, Yang Likun didn't say anything, freshened up and walked slowly with him to the marriage registration office in Dongtang Town.
Tang Fenglou still remembered that he arrived at about four o'clock in the afternoon, the town was deserted, only the sunlight sprinkled on them had temperature, and the staff of the marriage registration office asked a few questions, and asked Tang Fenglou to pay the handling fee and get their marriage certificate.
Tang Fenglou, who was immersed in joy, didn't notice that Yang Likun's expression had changed, and he happily asked Yang Likun if he wanted to settle down in ** in the future, whether it was Yang Likun's hometown in Yunnan, or going to his parents' house in Shanghai, or living in the dormitory in Fankou.
Yang Likun suddenly spoke, "I'm sorry, Fenglou, I hid something from you."
Tang Fenglou looked at her suspiciously, Yang Likun cried and said, "My illness has not recovered yet, and the auditory hallucinations have not been eliminated", Tang Fenglou understood, he comforted Yang Likun, saying that he didn't mind.
Yang Likun had tears in her eyes, she grabbed Tang Fenglou's hand tightly, like grasping a wooden stake floating on the water, Tang Fenglou held her tightly, and the two stepped on the afterglow and returned home.
Not long after the two got married, they separated, Yang Likun followed the third sister back to Kunming, and Tang Fenglou had to stay in Fankou for work reasons, and waited until 1973 before the two returned to Shanghai to invite relatives and friends to have dinner and reunion, as a wedding banquet.
What Tang Fenglou didn't expect was that Yang Likun's illness became more and more frequent, and he sat alone in the corner in a daze every day.
It didn't take long for the doctor to find out that Yang Likun was pregnant, and the two were both happy and worried, but fortunately, the doctor said that the child in the womb was very healthy, which made Tang Fenglou breathe a sigh of relief.
Yang Likun knew that she was pregnant, and she was very careful every day, but after not taking medicine, her condition became even more serious, and once she ran back to Kunming while her family was not paying attention.
Tang Fenglou chased him to Kunming, saw Yang Likun in a trance, and felt that he couldn't go on like this, he wanted to enter the world in Yang Likun's mind to communicate with her, and maybe he could find the key to healing.
After carefully observing Yang Likun for a while, Tang Fenglou deliberately fell down in front of Yang Likun, and after getting up, he learned Yang Likun's tone when he was ill, and asked her not to speak, saying that "grandpa" was talking to him.
Yang Likun believed it and said a lot to Tang Fenglou, which made Tang Fenglou understand more and more about the world when she was sick.
In March 1974, Yang Likun returned to Shanghai to give birth, and at the end of May, Yang Likun gave birth to twin boys. Tang Fenglou recalled that on the day Yang Likun gave birth, he heard the doctor say, "Born, born", but in a trance, he heard "heavy, heavy", he felt that it was indeed heavy, and the burden on his shoulders was heavier.
When their son was three months old, Yang Likun's condition deteriorated, but she could not see a doctor in Shanghai without a letter of introduction from the Provincial Health Center, so Tang Fenglou had no choice but to send her back to the Chenzhou Psychiatric Hospital.
The day before leaving, Yang Likun seemed to feel something, her words and deeds were a lot more normal, she stroked their immature faces in her son's room, "Mom is leaving tomorrow, Mom misses you very much, don't forget Mom."
Tang Fenglou, who was standing at the door of the room, stopped, he looked at Yang Likun's back, and only felt that his eyes were sour.
In the days of separation, Yang Likun's mental state is good and bad, Tang Fenglou will take time to go to the hospital every month to accompany her, in the past five years, Yang Likun has been in the hospitals in Kunming and Chenzhou, but no matter where she goes, she carries her son's **, which is her spiritual pillar.
In 1978, Yang Likun finally returned to Shanghai to reunite with his son.
At this time, Tang Fenglou was also transferred back to Shanghai to work, and in order to create better conditions for Yang Likun to treat his illness, he decided to go to the sea to do business. Xu is Tang Fenglou was lucky, he quickly earned back 300,000 yuan, and his desk was full of cash.
He called Yang Likun to come and see, but he didn't expect Yang Likun to say to him seriously, "Robbery is to be shot."
This made Tang Fenglou realize that although Yang Likun was free, her spirit was still stuck in the past, so he lied to her that this was the money that the factory asked him to buy equipment, and Yang Likun eased his face.
Tang Fenglou's business gradually expanded, he bought a small western-style building in front of the dilapidated old house, in order not to stimulate Yang Likun, he took Yang Likun into the small western-style building three times to see, and asked her if she would like to live.
Yang Likun shook his head firmly, and asked Tang Fenglou to abide by the law and not do illegal things, which made Tang Fenglou laugh, since Yang Likun had nothing to accept, Tang Fenglou still lived with her in a dilapidated old house.
Knowing that Yang Likun likes to eat braised pork, Tang Fenglou will make it for her when she is free, and the two sons also know that their mother likes it, and every time they eat braised pork, they will always put it in a bowl for her.
On the morning of July 21, 2000, Tang Fenglou went out to work with his bag and said goodbye to Yang Likun, but she ignored it, so Tang Fenglou put the bag aside, sat on the rattan chair and silently accompanied Yang Likun, until it was too late, Tang Fenglou got up and said, "Xiao Jiu, I'm leaving."
Yang Likun's big dark eyes looked at Tang Fenglou, reached out and touched his hair, "Let's go."
In the evening of the same day, Tang Fenglou received a call from home, saying that Xiao Jiu was gone.
Tang Fenglou endured the grief in her heart to deal with the aftermath for Yang Likun, she had said countless times before her death that she would return to Mohei Town and make anti-wave fish for Tang Fenglou to eat, but this idea has not been realized.
In order to fulfill her last wish, Tang Fenglou divided Yang Likun's ashes into two halves, half stayed in Shanghai to accompany him and his son, and half brought back to her beautiful Jinbaoshan cemetery in Yunnan Province for burial.
When leaving, Tang Fenglou looked at the clouds and mist in the distance, and he seemed to hear the ballad sung by Yang Likun in "Ashima", this film that was not released became Yang Likun's work, and it also became the regret of her life.
In the mountains, Ashima's singing voice surrounds, "From now on, I can't be with you, we still live in the same township......”
In 2002, Tang Fenglou established Shanghai Fenglou International, and now 20 years have passed, and his business territory has come to Pu'er, Yunnan from Shanghai, and he wants to do something for Yang Likun and her hometown.
After their two sons returned from studying abroad, they took over part of the business and started their own families. The father and son expressed their nostalgia for Yang Likun with practical actions, in the former residence of Yang Likun in Pu'er, Yunnan, many objects were donated by Tang Fenglou, and he also wanted to promote Ashima culture, although Yang Likun was gone, but the Ashima she played has always existed in their hearts.
In an interview with the "Memory" program in 2021, Tang Fenglou mentioned that he had written several articles about the life of himself and Yang Likun, and the name was "Me and 'Ashima' - Yang Likun's joys and sorrows".
Tang Fenglou said that Yang Likun was very painful, no one understood what she said, and she couldn't listen to the words of others' comfort, when he pretended to be auditory hallucinations and entered her inner world, he knew how difficult it was for her to live, and she had too many grievances to say.
In recent years, many young people suffering from depression or other mental illnesses have been seen on various online platforms, and many people do not understand it, think it is not a big deal, and even accuse these people of making a big fuss.
But only the sick know how bitter they are, as Tang Fenglou said, "The family is very painful, if the patient can listen to the comfort, then she will not get this disease."
Yang Likun's death makes people feel regretful, Tang Fenglou's perseverance over the years is admirable, and I also hope that this society will be kind to people with mental illness and not look at them in a strange light.