In the mountains, my soul is in dialogue with words: I only smell the fragrance of flowers, whether I am sad or happy, I want to be the master of the spirit, and I do not want to become a slave of foreign things. I want to experience the spring flowers and autumn fruits in the mountains of my hometown, and I am grateful that God has promised me a habitat to carry my soul and body. The happiness I want is the companionship of spirit and soul, even if, in the silent forests and mountains, I am silently accompanied by flowers and trees; Sometimes, we can also talk with the villagers for a long time, and we don't dislike each other's words. I also feel very happy to be able to accompany each other with those simple and pure farmer friends! Yes, people often ask me casually, "Hello!" "I could feel how sincere and soft those voices were! Such mercy! When I really touch my soul, touch the softest cells in the depths of my soul, I give birth to a deep joy! That joy has always haunted my body and mind, and it is so wonderful and special to enjoy!
Those joys have penetrated the barriers of my heart, exposing my truest thoughts, and I want to hide them but I can't! I want to quietly not be discovered, to feel this sincerity alone, to taste this freedom! I am content to enjoy this happiness and joy! The troubles in my heart are hard, but because of everyone's care, I am no longer heavy and depressed in a blink of an eye. Those expressions full of kindness and greetings full of concern are my needs at the moment! I have always believed very much: you understand my expectations, you understand my heart, you understand my hard work, and you trust my sincerity in helping farmers.
I will always remember the kindness you have given me, and I will always work hard to build what I want to pay for you, so that you can gain something. I just hope you get better and better! In times of hardship and bumpy, we work together, accompany by wind and rain, and when we successfully harvest in the future, we applaud together and share the joy of harvest together. I'd like to accompany you as we work together and build the industry. I have always stuck to this common cause, and I am sure that the future will be very exciting.
I once dreamed of becoming a person with feelings, compassion and responsibility, living up to the mountains and rivers of my hometown. I often rejoiced in the orchard of the farm, and I even imagined myself as a tree, a flower, growing quietly in the mountains, and finally turning into a tree with red fruits. I like to live in such a quiet place, and I don't like all the loud and noisy things.
I want to be here and try to broaden my heart and live with you with a smile and joy. I will do my best to accept the hard work of labor care, let all the sadness pass, and only leave the beautiful scene of us together, to find the harvest in labor. Let wisdom be precipitated and increased in continuous experience, let us never forget our original intention, and may our struggle be full of meaning in the end. My heart will also be safe and steady, and our living space will be full of awareness, compassion, and softness. This ordinary farm life is the happiness I want! I pray that God will allow me to always keep the heart of looking for good feelings, and that love and gratitude will be filled in my soul.
Xiude understands that everything is born from farming, and it is labor that has made me in this state. I like to listen to the sound of birds chirping in the mountains, and I enjoy the growth and change of plants, and I am most fascinated by the flowering and fruiting. It was those moments of labor that made my inspiration manifest. The mountains and forests we take care of seem to have gods who can make me feel the Buddha's heart in the world! In ordinary life, although it is not deliberate, it often touches the soul.
I used to want to stick to the mountains and forests, to send my mind to the countryside, to return to the land, to be a common villager, and to make myself worry-free in farming. I want to leave a nostalgia for the land in the depths of my soul and ignore the sadness and mud I have had along the way. In this way, I want to be free of time, to be a comfortable person, and to enrich my time in useful and busy farming. Everything is natural and internal. I also want to live my past experiences in my words, hoping that at some point in the future, I can touch my feelings again, so that my inspiration can be revealed without having to travel through reality; I would like to take advantage of the fact that I am still old and can use some memoirs to write down.
I continued to walk in the depths of the mountains and forests, trying to streamline my mental baggage and let my memories go through until the negative energy was wiped out in my brain. Recalling the vicissitudes of the past, we have been busy for this side of the landscape. The red fruit trees planted have absorbed sufficient mountain spring water and sunlight, and the red fruits hanging on the branches are like clusters of red light, lighting up the warmth in my mood. The wind swayed gently, the leaves were like dancing angels, and I couldn't help but feel the impulse in my heart, which made me think: how beautiful it would be if the mountains were all red! The beautiful scene in the imagination makes people look forward to that day, and they are also looking forward to a joy and well-being. This long journey has always been a long journey for me, and I have always wanted to find a rich habitat for my soul.
I want to be here, release stress and emotions at will, don't have to change myself, let the truth of my heart bloom calmly, and live a steady and stable life. We make a living in this ordinary fireworks, quietly observe the most simple mountain scenery in the world, and live our own unique life. I hope that the days will be simple and light, stable and steady. This kind of life belongs to me, I don't need to live to others, I don't expect or rely on others, I let myself experience the whole process of labor and life in a real way. I worked hard, and I have a clear conscience no matter what the result is.
The smoke of the cooking in the village was still there, but the mountains and forests had quietly changed to another scenery. Listening to the clear sound in the hollow valley, my thoughts are still wandering in the distant mountains, and I saw the leaves slowly falling, falling all over the ground, those scenes are always lingering in my mind, it turns out that it contains my suffering, my tiredness, and the memory is too deep for me! By chance, I saw those old things that carried the memories of the past, a flower, a tree, a love and a scene, which brought out the stories of the past, and those stories were too trivial and abnormal for us, and they were endlessly reunited in my mind.
When I look back at the past again, I am still full of emotion, and I was in that scene. And the vicissitudes of time, behind the strength I once had, including my difficult trek, along the way, only I know the bitterness, but I can only bear it silently. The curtain call of our plot was so rushed, and my heart seemed to be looking forward to the flowers blooming again. I used to work and work hard here willingly without fear of hardship. Thanks to the gift of nature, the insects and birds are still surrounded by the mountains, but those old things are alienated from the policy, and the fate is really exhausted, destined to return to dust. We can only understand and believe that everything is arranged for the best.
I saw that the remnants of life in the corners had also been scattered on the changing land, and our industry had come to an abrupt end. Those who used to be full of life are still rolling in my eyes! Birds chirping in the morning light, brisk footsteps, that is the daily life of our farmers, and the morning is always full of hope. My unbearability and unwillingness, only a slight sigh remains! I can only choose to go with the flow, those things that we can't control, I can only face it indifferently and compromise!
When everything is back to square one, the taste is getting duller. From now on, I don't want to see this mountain and this water again, it's far away! Whether the mountain rain is still spiritual or not, it has finally disappeared and returned to a state of calm. I have experienced the farming time we have experienced together, it is just the experience of my life. Everything in my life still comes and goes freely, what should have come has come, and what should have gone has gone far. I also need to feel the present with my heart, accept the reality calmly, and move towards the future. You also need to work hard to control your emotions, no matter when, you must be happy, and you have the strength to live.
I understand that my life will eventually grow old, and I am grateful for life, so that I can still have the emotion in front of me, and the ability to meet another beautiful season. As the saying goes: as long as I don't hurt myself, the years will be fine! I understand that all good things come from a peace of mind, and we don't have to keep thinking about changing the world, but we have to work hard to cultivate our hearts, accept the natural age, and live freely. At this point, my mood instantly became beautiful.
At this time, my days seem a bit boring and monotonous, but those quietness brings me the agility of my mind. At this moment, I can take notes on some memoirs, which can be regarded as a harvest for me, and it is also free and easy. Memories have touched me, and being able to stay with warmth is also worthy of what I have encountered. I want to keep my faith and self-confidence, accept everything, and strive to enrich my experience and grow abundantly; Indifferent to the world and human feelings, take the current steps. Understand and tolerate everything you have experienced, and let go of the successes and failures in your heart. Accept the world with my normal heart, integrate into the current fireworks of the world with the purest communication, and live a life connected by firewood, rice, oil and salt. When I have spare time, I want to work hard to write a warm hometown story, so that faith can live in the thoughts of empathy with the times, and those who are happy and grown. That is the motivation for my current life, and it is also the mission that I will give to my life process, I want to use every gradual understanding to feel the charm of ordinary life, to enrich life with words, and let the rest of my life go through in contentment.
From: 2024-02-19 "Chinese Writers Network".