When I was born, my mother died in childbirth. In order to pull me up, my father found me a stepmother. The stepmother was divorced and brought two daughters.
I hated them very much, so I quarreled with the three of them a lot, but my father turned his elbow out, and often beat me up for them.
I left my hometown in a fit of anger and went to Shenzhen to work alone. It wasn't until many years passed that my stepmother died, and I cried when I learned the truth, kneeling in front of her grave and crying: "Mom, I was wrong!" ”
My name is Zhao Haokai, and when I was a child, I often heard people in the village talking about me behind my back, saying that I was a "disaster star", and they did not allow their children to play with me, saying that I would bring misfortune to them. And all of this goes back to the day I was born.
My father and mother were both farmers, and the family was in a very difficult situation. After they got married, my father got a job in the mines in order to improve his life. My mother, on the other hand, stayed at home to farm, and although her life was ordinary, she was also very happy.
Within two years of their marriage, my mother became pregnant with me, much to my father's great delight. Because my father's family has three generations, my grandparents have passed away a long time ago. It can be said that at that time, apart from my mother, he no longer had any relatives in this world, so he eagerly hoped that my mother would give him a big fat boy.
Seeing my mother's belly getting bigger and bigger day by day, my father was ready for the delivery early. In the ninth month, my father would leave work a little earlier every day and come back to take care of my mother.
But on the day I was born, it was pouring rain, and my father was trapped in the coal mine. He originally wanted to come back in the rain, but the situation was urgent, and if he acted rashly, he was likely to be hit by the soft soil, so he stayed there, thinking that he had not given birth for so many days, and he would not have given birth today by such a coincidence.
But my mother stayed at home, and suddenly felt a pain in her stomach, she knew that she was going to give birth, and she was very panicked in her heart, after all, it would rain very much, and she could hardly see the road under her feet.
Afraid of any accidents, she had to endure the severe pain and crawled to the neighbor's house step by step for help. Seeing my mother like this, the neighbor's aunt was also startled, and hurriedly asked her old man to go to the next village to ask for a midwife, while she stayed at home to boil water and prepare to deliver my mother.
And so with a thunderclap, I was born. This was supposed to be a happy thing, but unfortunately, my mother was bleeding profusely and passed away when she gave birth to me. By the time my father returned, my mother was no longer breathing.
It was also on this day that my father turned white overnight. He was only in his twenties, but he looked like he was in his forties. I don't know if it's because of my mother, my father didn't like me very much since I was a child, and he would beat and scold me every once in a while. I lived in this environment until I was 12 years old, and that was the year we had three more uninvited guests in the house.
As soon as I got home from outside that day, I saw a young woman and two girls my age in the house. My father told me that from now on, that woman would be my mother, and those two little children would be my sister, and that I should get along with them.
I was young at the time, and although I had no impression of my own mother, I was also disgusted by the sudden appearance of such people in my family, especially the two so-called older sisters, and I could sense obvious hostility from them. Of course, the truth is just as I thought, after they came in, there were a lot of troubles.
When I was 13 years old, one day I suddenly noticed that someone had entered my house. The reason why I found this out was because I had 20 dollars hidden under my pillow, so I was extra sensitive. But when I entered the house, I found that my pillow had been turned over.
I was nervous at the time, and hurried over to check, but ** is there still that money? That's how my money was stolen! But I didn't know who took the money, so I didn't dare to speak out, for fear that my father would beat me.
I never thought that that afternoon, the suspect would be exposed by himself, and it was my two sisters! After the money was stolen, I left the house depressed, but as I walked on the road, I saw two sisters with a lot of snacks in their hands.
You must know that at that time, they had no pocket money, and my money was all money that I secretly picked up bottles outside in exchange. And when they saw me, they were very weak-hearted, and they ran away.
I instantly understood what was going on, and chased after them and kept scolding: "Pay me back, you two thieves!" ”
I couldn't catch up with them, and by the time I got home, the snacks had already been processed. I was very annoyed, and immediately found my stepmother and shouted at her: "Your daughter is a thief, you don't want to live in our house anymore, I hate the three of you to death." ”
My stepmother didn't react to what was going on, but my two sisters heard me questioning my stepmother and ran over to scold me: "He's lying, we didn't steal his money at all, he wanted to frame us!" ”
Did you steal it? The stepmother looked at the two sisters and asked them: "If you steal it, apologize to your brother quickly!" ”
No, we didn't steal! "Until this moment they were still lying, and it annoyed me.
Do you know in your hearts that you stole 20 yuan from me, and you bought snacks just now! I angrily pointed at my sister, and then turned to my stepmother and shouted, "I don't believe you smell their mouths, there must still be the smell of spicy strips!" ”
Sure enough, after I said this, the two of them panicked instantly. The stepmother frowned, a little annoyed: "Okay, you guys, you dare to steal your brother's money, that's how your mother taught you?" ”
After that, my stepmother was going to hit the two of them, and they kept crying, which attracted my father. I never thought that these two people would sue the wicked first, saying that I slandered them for stealing.
I originally thought that when my father came, he would definitely call the shots for me, and I was confident all of a sudden, but my father slapped me in the face without saying a word: "At a young age, lying all day long, are you right about your mother?" ”
At that moment, I froze in place, my young heart was traumatized, and I couldn't believe that my father would beat me for these three people. Without saying a word, he went back to his room angrily, and the anxious voice of his stepmother came from behind him: "Why are you beating the child!" Originally, the two daughters were at fault first, you.
I didn't eat that night and locked myself in the house. In the middle of the night, I heard someone knocking on the door, I didn't pay attention, and then my stepmother's voice came: "Xiao Kai, Auntie cooked for you, you open the door, and Auntie brings it in for you." ”
Don't! In fact, I had expected in my heart that she would pretend to bring me food, so as soon as she finished speaking, I suddenly broke out, and yelled with the strength of **: "Pretend to show whom!" ”
Little bunny, you can't sleep yet! "I think I was too loud and made a noise to my father, and I vaguely heard my father's abuse. I stopped talking, for fear he would rush over and beat me again.
The stepmother sighed outside, and then whispered in a voice that only the two of us could hear: "Auntie has put the rice here, there are two poached eggs in it, you can eat it while it's hot." With that, she left.
To be honest, I was really hungry at the time, and I wanted to stick to my principle of "not eating the food that comes from the mouth", but my stomach kept growling. In addition, I have always had a thought in my heart, that is: I am the child of this family, her child bullied me, it is right to apologize, why don't I eat?
In this way, when I heard the sound of her entering the house completely, I quietly got up and ate the meal. I have to admit that it was the best noodle I've ever eaten since I was a child.
The child's anger came and went as fast as she could, thinking of her kindness to me last night, and the next day I forgot about it. In the days that followed, as long as they didn't provoke me, I wouldn't quarrel with them.
But when I was 17 years old, I completely tore my face with my father because of school.
I went to town for high school and only came home once a week. I remember that time at school, some classmates scolded me in front of me, saying that it was all because of me, and my mother died in childbirth. It's the last thing I want to be touched since I was a child, and without saying a word, I rushed up and beat them up.
In the end, the matter was quite serious, a classmate was lying on the ground and couldn't get up, and two other people also broke an arm. As expected, I was driven home by my teacher. They dissuaded me from staying in school.
When I got home, I told my father about it, and when he saw me come back with a scarred face, he didn't care about me, but was furious: "Bunny, you're causing trouble at school again!" Then he took off his sandals and tried to beat me.
Hey, what are you doing here! Why do you have to beat people every day? "My stepmother stopped my father to the death, but the disparity in strength was huge, and my father broke free directly, and hit me on the arm with the slipper.
In the past, I would have avoided it, but this time I looked at the anger in my father's eyes, and suddenly felt a chill, and I took him a few beatings. I didn't cry, but the water kept falling from my eyes.
Are you really my dad? I stood there in a daze, completely unable to feel the pain in my arm, and asked coldly, but then replied to myself: "I'd rather you weren't!" ”
When I said this, they were both stunned, and my father's slippers fell to the ground. The air was terriblely quiet, I smiled self-deprecatingly, and then said, "Since you all don't like me, I can't just leave, and I won't go to this school." ”
We didn't talk much that day, and my father didn't even ask. That night I made up my mind and decided to get out of here, so I packed my bags overnight. Then I went to the neighbor's aunt to borrow a sum of money, saying that there was an urgent need and it would be repaid within half a year.
The next morning, before dawn, I got up. But I didn't expect that as soon as I stepped out of the door, my stepmother came out. She carried a plastic bag in her hand: "Good boy, this is the egg that Auntie gave you last night, Auntie doesn't want you to leave, but she also knows that you won't listen to what I say, so you keep this bag of eggs, and eat when you are hungry on the way." ”
She said to herself, about to put things in my bag. To be honest, my heart was a little touched, but I didn't expect that the last one to send me was my least favorite stepmother, and I thanked her for the first time: "Got it, thank you." ”
The movements in my stepmother's hands stopped, and I obviously saw a glimmer of light flashing in her eyes, perhaps because I didn't expect that I would accept her kindness, and even her tone was a lot happier, and she kept telling me: "When you go over there, you must drink more water, eat whatever you want, and don't wronged yourself." ”
Although I was moved, I didn't treat her as my mother, after all, she just gave me some eggs, and didn't think about wrapping me up, which in my opinion, was just a small favor.
I interrupted her, said a brief goodbye, and left.
I decided to go to Shenzhen for development, and I bought a ticket with the little money I had, so I didn't dare to eat. In the evening, my stomach was rumbling, and I remembered the eggs she gave me, so I opened my backpack.
As a result, I was stunned because I somehow had thousands of extra dollars in my bag! Looking at the bright red bills, I was so shocked that I didn't know what to say.
I don't know if it was my dad or my stepmom who it was stuffed in, but whoever it was, the money helped me a lot, and I made a note of this friendship.
I thought it was a beautiful idea, and I thought that it would be easy to find a job because it was a big city over there. But the truth is the opposite, because I dropped out of high school before graduating, and my academic qualifications can only be regarded as junior high school, and there is no job at all that will accept me.
So I can only go to the construction site to do some of the hardest and most tiring work, although it is very hard, but I can earn hundreds of dollars a day. I was young at the time, so I thought it was pretty good.
But before I had finished working for a month, I fell off the raised frame and was seriously injured. Although I received a certain amount of compensation, I was not familiar with the life here, and I quickly spent all my money.
In desperation, I had to call home **, wanting them to send me some money. I never thought that three days had passed, and my stepmother would appear here.
When she saw me lying on the hospital bed, her tears flowed instantly.
What are you doing here? "I was very surprised, I didn't expect her to come and see me.
Silly boy, if I don't come, you are injured like this, and you plan to hide it from us all the time? The stepmother's voice was mixed with sobbing, and then she said: "We all know your character, you will never ask us to send money unless you have to, you must have encountered difficulties, silly child, why are you so stupid, no matter how big the hurdle is, it can't be greater than family affection!" ”
That was the first time I cried, my stepmother stayed here to take care of me for two months, and she left after I got better. I dropped her off at the train station that day, and the moment she stepped on the train, I wanted to call her mom, but I couldn't do it because I wasn't too embarrassed.
And this has become the biggest regret of my life!
After she went back, I also began to contact my family, and slowly let go of my previous grievances. Unexpectedly, two years later, my father suddenly called me and said that my stepmother had passed away.
My stepmother accidentally fell off a cliff when she went to work in the fields and died on the spot. I was so sad that I rushed home to see her for the last time, and she had been nailed to that little "black box".
On the day of the funeral, the two sisters also came back, they had already started a family, and they didn't get any money when they came back this time, so I was alone in charge of my stepmother's funeral, and it cost me 30,000 yuan in the end.
After the funeral, I sat alone on a stool in a daze. It's weird, I used to hate her so much, but I'm sad that she's gone. Just when I was stunned, my two sisters called out to me: "Xiao Kai, come to the house to talk?" ”
I didn't know what they meant, but I went into the house anyway. When I came to the house, they took out a notebook for me, saying that it was my stepmother's diary.
I took it tremblingly, and carefully flipped through it, and there were more than two hundred diaries in total, one hundred and thirty-four of which were related to me!
Each one recorded her thoughts, the day I smiled at her, what I said to her, and the unspeakable love she had for me in her heart. And I also found out in this day that when I went to Shenzhen, the extra money in my bag was asked by her father to come and put it in the bag! But she never told me about it!
I wept as I watched, remembering the way I had done to her, and I was filled with remorse.
Xiao Kai, in fact, my mother has always regarded you as her own child in her heart. When I was a child, it was true that the two of us were ignorant as sisters, so many years have passed, so you can let it go. The eldest sister gently patted me on the shoulder.
The setting sun reflected on my head through the window, and I slowly raised my head, and suddenly felt a sense of relief in my heart: "Well, I know, sister."