I am in the year of my establishment this year, and my partner and I have a deep affection for a lovely 5-year-old boy together. In January this year, I was fortunate to meet a leading person in the industry at the training unit, and I will call him Mr. Y for the time being. He was 8 years older than me, and when we first met, I was impressed by the gentleness, professionalism and humility of his manners.
In the ensuing contact, the warmth he displayed felt a little unusual, like the morning dew in early summer, fresh but with a hint of unreality. I wondered why such a high-ranking figure in the industry would care so much about someone as ordinary as me. I was flattered by his actions, like the warm sun of early spring shining on the endless snow, which made people feel extremely warm and surprised.
Gender Affection In the midst of our busy schedules, we only had two brief meetings and spent the rest of the time working side by side. He is like a silent mentor, providing me with valuable resources from time to time, accurately guiding me to deal with work problems, and giving me valuable advice. 
Our relationship has quietly warmed up in mutual support and tacit understanding, from enthusiastic help, to daily chatting and playing ambiguously, to his courageous expression of his love for me. And now, we're exploring each other a little further and chatting about that seductive ...... of sexThis is our gradual mode of getting along, like a long stream of water, natural and comfortable.
At that moment, I felt a palpable sense of harassment in my heart, as if I was being held back by an invisible claw. However, his aura is too dazzling, and I don't want to believe that there is a hidden intention in it. Even though reason was screaming in my head and telling me that his goals were clear, I still stubbornly believed that with my emotional intelligence, I could handle it all.
Once, when he was taking care of me, I told him very clearly that I couldn't roll the sheets with him. He said he just had it mentally, he wouldn't do anything, don't worry. But then, things got a little out of control, and I gradually became psychologically dependent on him and enjoyed his care for me.
From the beginning of the rejection to talk about sexual topics, to the later I was willing to cooperate with him, I felt like I was being **, and even missed him every day. His verbal ** tease will make me have a physiological reaction, and I have reached an unprecedented orgasm when I am with my husband.
When I found that I was mentally and psychologically dependent on him, he once made it very clear that he actually wanted to have me really. When he said something like that, I was thinking about it, I didn't reject it, oh my God!
I'm in a dangerous state right now, and I've been trying to save myself, but it doesn't seem to work well, and I'm falling little by little. I love my husband! My husband loves me very much, and I really can't find a reason to cheat, but sometimes I look forward to it.
I want to be more calm and cautious about the necessity of this relationship. However, if I just let him go, I may lose some important resources, and I am a little unwilling to let go. But if it really goes on like this, I'm likely to cheat.