When I watched "Splendid Weiyang" for the first time, I was puzzled as to why Tuoba Yu decided to block the sword for Weiyang. In the face of the sword that rushed straight forward, he obviously had the opportunity to choose to kick away with his foot or hit Li Changru with a palm, but he chose to resist with his body. Is it because of love?
6 years ago, I was deeply moved by this scene and thought that Tuoba Yu's feelings for Weiyang were sincere. However, 6 years later, when I looked at it again, I realized that it was probably not Weiyang that he loved, but himself.
Tuoba lived the rest of his life in the royal family, and his mother was a concubine. Therefore, among all the brothers, he did not have a high status, but, like his name, seemed to be a superfluous person. He was adopted by a concubine when he was young, but the concubine did not treat him well and often abused him, leaving him to live in fear and helplessness. This experience left a deep shadow on his mind, and even when he was faced with similar scenes as an adult, he would still feel fear and the edge of madness.
At that age, he endured too much human suffering. His mother didn't love him, and his father ignored him. Even the servants who were supposed to take care of him acted according to the eyes of men. While others are still coquettish in his mother's arms, he must always remind himself to be strong. Only by being strong can you avoid being bullied and ridiculed by others. Therefore, the throne became his goal since he was a child, and even in the most difficult moments, he firmly told himself to become stronger and never let those who had stepped on his head succeed.
Due to his childhood experience, he developed an unsmiling personality and always kept his thoughts hidden. People can't see through his heart and can't understand his actions. However, it was precisely because of the lack of parental love in his childhood that he longed for love and warmth even more. He wants to prove that he is valuable and that he can also be recognized by others.
Perhaps, the same is true of the fourth master in "Palace Lock Heart Jade". He was raised by other concubines as a child, and although his mother seemed to care about him, she was actually full of exploitation. This made the fourth master deeply distressed. Therefore, the throne became the goal he pursued since he was a child, as a way to prove his ability and worth, and gain the approval of his parents.
However, fortunately, although the fourth master was not favored by his mother in "Palace Lock Heart Jade", the concubines who raised him cared for him. And his father passed the throne to him. Tuobayu's fate did not always favor him, and despite his great efforts, he never really received the love of his adoptive mother or father.
This experience left a deep mark on his heart, making him crave love and recognition. Li Weiyang is the woman he has always wanted to marry, and Li Changru has always wanted to marry him. Although Li Changru has paid a lot, she has never won Tuoba Yu's heart, and although Li Weiyang has always rejected him, he is willing to protect her with his life. Love, sometimes like this, is illogical and unreasonable.
At first, he didn't have any special feelings for Li Weiyang, but he was deeply interested in the disaster relief strategy she proposed. However, once in the process of sending Li Weiyang to the slip platform, they encountered Liu Song's pursuers and were forced to hide in a hidden dark room. In the face of the crisis, he felt extreme fear, and the painful memories of his childhood flooded back his mind. However, under Li Weiyang's comfort, he miraculously calmed down and even fell into a deep sleep.
This experience deeply surprised him and realized that his feelings for Li Weiyang had long gone beyond simple appreciation and fun. She gave him the hug he longed for as a child but never got - a sense of security. Finding a sense of security in a man is a new experience for Tuoba Yu, who has lacked love since childhood. He has always believed that only by ascending to the throne and holding supreme power can he bring himself a sense of security.
However, the appearance of Li Weiyang made him realize that in addition to power, there is another sense of security. She was what he really wanted besides the throne. Therefore, he fell hopelessly in love with Li Weiyang, and this love changed his view of the world and changed the trajectory of his life. This affectionate entanglement is like a fine tapestry, and every detail is full of emotion and meaning. Li Changru's infatuation with Tuoba Yu may be more to make up for the lack of love in the past.
In the abyss of the plot, Li Changru has been fond of Tuoba Yu since he was a child. In her heart, he is like a lonely beacon, guiding her confused emotional path. The Tuoba Yu in her memory is a gentle and powerful existence, he once appeared when she was most helpless, and engraved the oath of "don't cry, be strong yourself, and trample all the people who bully you under your feet", engraved into the depths of her heart.
This vow became the motto of Trush's life, and she used it as a guide to strive to make herself stronger. However, her understanding of power seems to be wrong, she thinks that power, intrigue and possession are power, but ignores that real strength is inner kindness, tolerance and the big picture. On the road of pursuing Tuobayu, she spared no means, and even used children as bargaining chips, trying to use children to control the world.
Tuoba Yu's indifference and rejection of Li Changru seem to have foreshadowed the tragic end of this relationship. He saw Li Changru's infatuation and persistence, and also saw the conspiracy and calculation behind her. What he longed for was sincerity, kindness and tolerance, which was exactly what Li Changru lacked. He tried to use his power and status to force Li Weiyang to marry him, but in the end he only got an empty form, and he was getting farther and farther away from the true love in his heart.
Love is not a game of power and status, it requires the true resonance and tacit understanding of two hearts. The story of Li Changru and Tuoba Yu seems destined to end in tragedy. But in this tragedy, we see the complexity and contradictions of human nature, and we also see the persistence and persistence of true love. Compared to Tuoba Jun, he has the favor of his parents and the preference of his imperial grandfather, and seems to have everything. For Tuoba Yu, his existence is like an opposite, or a mirror of his heart, always reminding him how unattainable it is to be loved. Whenever Tuoba Jun does something for Li Weiyang, Tuoba Yu will also want to do something for her, and he wants to prove that he can do it, or even better.
Once, a guard accidentally let a small worm bite Li Weiyang. Originally, Tuoba Yu had the opportunity to apply medicine to her, but Tuoba Jun took the lead and sucked out the venom with his mouth. Later, Li Weiyang encountered difficulties in the palace and was demoted to slavery. Tuoba Yu caught fireflies for her, lighting up hope in the darkness for her. Even after the victory over Liu Song, the emperor granted him a request. In fact, Tuoba Yu intended to save Li Weiyang, but as fate would have it, Tuoba Jun happened to make a request before him.
Everything Tuoba Yu did for Li Weiyang was sincere and calculating, paying and conspiring. These left a deep impression on Li Weiyang's heart, allowing her to see the true side of Tuoba Yu. When Li Changru drew his sword and pointed it at Li Weiyang, Tuoba Yu had a chance to kick the sword away, but he didn't. He chose to block the sword with his flesh. At the moment of life and death, he would rather die himself than let Li Weiyang live.
A long time ago, he thought that power and the throne were what he craved most, that would give him a sense of security. However, after meeting Li Weiyang, he realized that in addition to power, there were people who could give him the sense of security he wanted. When power and people were gone from him, his inner world collapsed.
At the last moment, he chose to use his body to block Li Changru's sword. Such a way to die, at least for love, for Li Weiyang. This is his deepest desire. However, all this did not move Li Weiyang. Because all the troubles are caused by Tuoba Yu himself. If it weren't for that, they might have had a completely different ending. How could Tuoba Jun be poisoned, and she herself was poisoned. knew that she didn't want to get married, but she still used her family as a threat.
Therefore, Tuoba Yu wanted to use his death to move, regret, and remember Li Weiyang. However, he was wrong. Wrong from the start. Because, feelings obtained by intrigue and calculation are not real feelings, but only false illusions. He was only moved by himself. However, from ruthlessness to affection, it may be a great happiness for him when he is dying.
At the end of 04, Tuoba Yu fell into Li Changru's arms, leaving the last words of "I'm sorry, I lost you". Perhaps, only Li Changru can truly understand his heart. In fact, each of us comes into this world with a desire to be loved and recognized by others. But often, the more you pursue proof, the more unattainable it becomes.
Tuoba Yu has lacked love and insecurity since he was a child. The reason why he wants to prove himself is nothing more than to gain the love of his relatives for him. Because of their love, he will feel safe. However, sometimes proving yourself is not for the sake of showing others, but for showing yourself. One day, you will find that your proof is not really important to others.
There is such a news: a Ph.D. was born in a poor family, his mother died when he was in elementary school, his father took the money he had from eel fishing to buy alcohol when he was in middle school, because he could not afford the tuition, and in high school, his father and dearest grandmother died one after another. Alone, he persevered in completing his doctoral studies and lived the life he wanted.
There is also a piece of news: a child who divorced his parents when they were in junior high school, dropped out of school due to rebellion, ran away from home and became involved in criminal activities, and ended up in prison. This shows that everyone will encounter various hardships and setbacks in their lives. Some people lack love, some people lack a sense of security, some people lack warmth, and so on. Difficulties and sufferings are an inevitable part of life.
However, if a person gives up on himself, he will only let his life path go further and further, or even derail, leading to unforeseen consequences. On the contrary, if a person can stick to the bottom line and principles of being a human being in any situation, then his life will eventually go in the right direction. He will welcome the beam of sunshine that belongs to him and let it warm every corner of him. Don't be afraid of the shadows, because the sun is always after the storm. Remember, everyone has their own light and is just waiting to be discovered.