I was the chubby girl who sat in your back seat six years ago, with very short haircuts, black-rimmed glasses, and a body hidden in a baggy and huge school uniform. Of course, there is also a situation where when you stand up and point fingers to answer the teacher's questions, she thinks that the sun shines on your thin side face at that time, which looks good.
If you're sneezing on this rainy night, don't rush to find cold medicine, maybe it's because I'm thinking about you. If you find a strange and familiar voice whispering in your ear in your dream tonight, I guess I'm thinking about you.
Time is an invisible river that brings us to the age of twenty at once, but I can still remember you vividly. I remembered you when I first started school, tall and thin, I like to wear plain short-sleeved shirts, revealing thin arms that are only bones, with long jeans, rimless glasses that show wisdom, and you are a literary and artistic youth only in books.
I once wrote a lot of words about you in my diary, tried my best to describe your silhouette and figure in beautiful words, called you the first of the twenty-six English letters, and secretly shed tears for my inferiority complex and cowardice in the middle of the night, and talked about you for a long time with good friends, these are all things that you don't know and won't know about me. It's like looking up at you in math class and memorizing the action of memorizing the problem, or because you have good grades in physics, you will try hard to study physics and eventually lose to your brain without scientific thinking. The fourteen or fifteen-year-old crush is very simple, because he likes someone and wants to be better and better, this kind of love is silent, only he knows.
My junior high school was chaotic, but you were like a magical glimmer of light, shining a light on the darkness around me when I was disoriented.
At that time, all I thought about was that I would go to the same high school and the same university as you, so that I could hang around you for ten years, and then I would become good friends even if I didn't become lovers. I got up at five o'clock in the morning to memorize ancient texts, thinking happily, not caring how heavy my sleepiness was, looking at the blurred sky under the morning light, I was in a happy mood and very efficient. Then something happened to my family, and I didn't get into your high school.
So far, I still like boys like you, who are clean and spacious, who change different styles of shirts in the summer and wear a big black down jacket in the winter, which looks warm and bright.
The last time I saw you was in the first year of high school, you came to our school to participate in the English competition, pushed the mountain bike in junior high school, saw me, said a simple hello, and asked me where the exam room was. I was wearing a goose-yellow down jacket that day, and I was as happy to see you as the color of your body, but I didn't show it on my face, and after showing you the way, you said thank you and hurried away, without paying the slightest attention to me and catching up with me, although in fact there was no reason to recall it. My heart is full of loneliness.
You are not the kind of boy that most people will like, you are too serious about yourself, you are very strong, you like Germany, you don't want to lose to anyone around you, in addition to being ahead of your time, you have many shortcomings, you look down on students with bad grades, you chase fame and fortune, you have clear and lofty goals, and you work hard for them. This is the impression of three years of junior high school, and it may not be comprehensive.
But I still miss you. I walked alone in my youth, and I stopped running because I saw your proud tree, and the shade you provided drove away the tiredness and heat of summer, leaving a cool breeze and bringing the refreshing message of autumn.
To this day, in retrospect, I can smile on my face, I can laugh at my own youth and ignorance, and I can take the feeling of liking too lightly and too easily. But you are indeed an outstanding boy, this kind of excellence is not to be considered by the bright future of the above prestigious universities, but the shining points reflected in you, even today, I still feel inspiring and full of power. That's why I like you, even if I like you to be silent, you don't know it.