A grain of ash of the times, falling on the head of an individual, is a mountain.
When he was a student, Kong Yiji studied hard, because he was full of motivation because of Fan Jinzhong's example, "the three watches are bright and the five watches are chickens, and it is when the teenager is studying."
Kong Yiji chased the sun at four o'clock in the morning every day, but the method of learning Xi was wrong, and his qualifications were too ordinary. It is equivalent to more than ten years of hard work, and I haven't been admitted to any of them, don't say "211" and "985" famous schools.
However, Kong Yiji still has the dream of going to Tsinghua University and Peking University, because his role model is Fan Jin.
Fan Jin was only promoted at the age of 54, although he has a poor foundation, he is better than young, and he still has more than 20 years to use.
He tried his best, but he failed again and again, and repeated again and again.
Some people also persuaded him to give up, find a proper livelihood, find a school to teach, and then plant two acres of land, start a small business, earn some money to beg a daughter-in-law, and live honestly is the right thing. Fan Jin's family is a Wenqu star, can he compare?
Kong Yiji thought very clearly, not in the middle of the Wenqu Xing, but in the middle of the Wenqu Xing.
He devoted all his time to hard study, so much so that people in their twenties and thirties knew nothing about running a life and became what others called nerds.
However, Kong Yiji didn't care, because once he was lifted, all problems would be solved, and he believed that he would definitely be able to lift before the age of 54.
In 1905, Kong Yiji was still repeating, and the Qing Dynasty was still surviving.
Aunt Cixi is still 3 years away from dying at work. As the saying goes, as long as you don't die, you will do it to death, and she has to worry about anything, and she can't even mix it with a retirement life.
On September 2, Yuan Shikai, Zhang Zhidong and other six governors jointly signed a letter demanding the abolition of the imperial examination system.
Not long ago, Japan fought a war with the Japanese and demanded to break the monopoly colonial system in Northeast China and the Korean Peninsula, so that the Japanese could get involved.
As a result, Japan won.
This is more exciting than a few years ago, when it was directly defeated by Japan in the First Sino-Japanese War, it was even more exciting for the Qing Dynasty to win - if you win me, you will win my eldest brother.
As a result, the Qing Dynasty began to learn from the West Xi and began to turn to the Xi East.
They believe that the reform and reform are superior to their own Westernization movement, mainly because they have extensively opened new-style schools to learn the advanced scientific knowledge and culture Xi of the West, and have not simply focused on military aspects.
At that time, the success of the imperial examination was still an important indicator of talent, which greatly hindered the enrollment of new schools. Just like Yuan Shikai said, "The imperial examination does not stop day by day, and everyone has the heart to get the first place."
For example, Yan Fu had to take the futile imperial examination many times, and it was not until the abolition of the imperial examination that he was given the rank of liberal arts jinshi.
It was in this context that the imperial examination system was abolished.
This move, which was originally intended to bring new hope to the Qing Dynasty, brought Kong Yiji despair directly. Those who have been admitted to the meritorious service can enjoy the first-class aftermath policy, as well as official work;Young students in the current year can also apply for new schools and enjoy fame when they graduate.
For example, Zhan Tianyou was later awarded the first place in engineering by the Qing Dynasty, that is, the champion of engineering.
In the class, the hardcore repeater Kong Yiji is a capital anxiety.
It's hard to find a job out of school, so what can you do?
Kong Yiji, like other college students, found that the textbook knowledge that he usually studied hard Xi was not needed at all. Newton's three laws, chemical equations, the four famous works, and even the four ways to write the fennel bean "fennel" are all useless.
Moreover, he has spent many years of time at school, everyone else is using Apple, and he doesn't know what a smartphone is, and he has long been out of touch with society.
Other people speak in the vernacular, buzzwords, and even a little more avant-garde can be mixed with a few words to make a cat. He is still there, and there are not many.
Like some graduate and doctoral students nowadays, they don't actually have any academic pursuits, they just want to hide in school for a few years, but they hide for a few years, and when they have to integrate with society, they find that they seem to have lost touch with society.
Therefore, Kong Yiji's scope of employment is even narrower, but fortunately, the skill of writing is still there, so he found a job copying books.
Objectively speaking, this job is very suitable for him, he is technically proficient, and the content is familiar, all of which are books and related books that he has read hard, and he does not deal with people, and it does not have much impact if he is out of touch with society.
If you can work hard and support yourself, you can go to the Luzhen Hotel to ask for a plate of fennel beans and have a few drinks when you get off work. Saving money for a few years and marrying an aunt can be regarded as starting a family.
Why is Kong Yiji restless at work?
It could be a matter of mentality.
His role model is Fan Jin, fame and fortune, glory and wealth, at least he can ask for a meat dish in the Luzhen Hotel, and sit in the private room next door and drink it slowly.
But now he can only copy books for others, and copying the books he hates the most.
Just like when they graduate, many students are crazy about throwing books, burning books, or selling books. Hate, for so many years, they have hindered us from playing games, traveling, and falling in love, and now that we finally don't need them, we have to frustrate our bones and ashes.
Kong Yiji is even more sad, he still has to read these books every day after work, not only to read, but also to copy, can he not be angry?
It was these books that caused him to waste his time, made him disconnected from society, and he couldn't even manage his life, and he couldn't figure out whether the fennel beans wanted to keep accounts.
At that time, Qingsi had already grown gray hair, and finally couldn't help it, Kong Yiji was like a graduate who had been tortured by books for many years, and his pen, ink, paper, inkstone, and books were sold.
So, the job really wasn't for him.
There's a catch.
Kong Yiji has been studying for so many years, and there are a lot of classmates and tablemates, and there are always a few who are not bad, but why is there no one to help him?
Except for the poisonous effects of feudal society on people that the teacher told you, everyone is indifferent, is there no other reason?
In fact, the evolution of human nature is very slow, thousands of years ago and thousands of years later, which is why reading history is useful.
Fat Ma thought that it might be the reason why he himself was not motivated.
Just like sponsoring students in difficulty, kind-hearted people like to sponsor students who study Xi hard and have good grades, and students who are poor and do not study hard and do not Xi study hard, and have poor grades, and almost no one sponsors them.
Kong Yiji came out of school, probably stimulated, and his self-motivation was in stark contrast to when he was in school.
Lu Xun said that he was too lazy to eat.
If you don't have money, you can cook some food at home, I really like to drink, buy two catties of glutinous rice, make a jar of rice wine, and it is also very economical, but Kong Yiji is not happy, and he must go to the Luzhen Hotel.
This feeling is very similar to Tang Hong in the recent hit "Fox Hunting", after escaping to Africa, eating take-out boxed steak and red wine in paper cups in the slums, I don't feel it at all, I must go to the best local Western restaurant.
Tang Hong is not short of money, two million US dollars is a proper large sum in Africa, but Kong Yi is poor.
Now there is a popular word, called exquisite poverty, which is about Kong Yiji.
In order to maintain the exquisite poverty, the salary is not enough, we need online loans, we need Huabei. Kong Yiji also needs it, so he keeps stealing books and selling them. But Kong Yiji thinks it's borrowing
Stealing a book is not ...... stealingStealing books ......Can the things of the reader be regarded as stealing?”
Kong Yiji's online loan can actually be repaid with money like us, but it can't be repaid. If you can't do it, you will be beaten and even have your leg broken. In fact, if our online loan can't be replaced, the end will not be better than Kong Yiji.
It's not good to mix, and I can't let go of my body, and I want to save face.
In Luzhen, where the catering industry is developed, someone may have introduced him to the work of delivering takeaways or driving, or the kitchen, but he was unwilling to take off his long shirt, and he still said hard words such as "the gentleman is poor", like a middle-aged and angry young man who shows that he is particularly cultured everywhere.
Kong Yiji felt: "It seems that all the people laugh at me, look down on me, and don't want you to help me." ”
He didn't know that the classmates who were better than him didn't look down on him, but they looked down on him for not being motivated. The working people in short-sleeved sleeves did not look down on him, it was he who used his long shirts to distance themselves from each other, and they looked down on him for showing off and wanted to find a sense of existence in others.
What Kong Yiji doesn't know is that helping others is also a kind of investment, a kind of emotional investment, and all investments are about returns, so they all depend on the merits of the investment object.